Don't Say Love (BOOK 2)
Chapter 42

A man in a white suit looked intensely at the figure of another man who today came as a patient. His gaze seemed to be researching not because this patient was foreign to him, instead he knew very well who the figure who came today as his patient. How surprised he was when Jullian, the man who came early this morning blind with the intention to consult. He knew very well that the man refused to be in contact with the hospital. For Jullian who he knows, as long as it can still go well then no need to go to the hospital. Even when they first met shortly after Jullian's motorcycle accident, the man did not moan in pain despite several broken bones.

And now, the figure of Jullian who he thought had no sense of taste seemed pale with eye bags that were very noticeable for his small eyes. He could easily guess if the man was short on rest. Plus his increasingly thin body makes him sure about what he is facing.

"You look far more terrible than the last time I saw you." Said Rian, a man who had been a personal doctor of the Jullian family for the past few years.

Jullian has little to say, although it is his character who has not been used to talking since the incident five years ago. Rian knows Jullian as a person who is easy to get along with in the upper class, but since his marriage the man has suddenly changed and tends to stay away from his social environment. Though Jullian ternasuk the most sociable figure.

It turns out that it is true, a marriage has a tremendous impact on someone who feels it. Including this Jullian, suddenly like not the man he knew before.

"Yes, so. I don't feel well." His feet are thus with both shoulders lifted.

Already since the departure of Arnetta, almost every day Jullian uses his rest to find the whereabouts of the woman. Not infrequently he went down directly looking for the whereabouts of the woman who is now pregnant with her child. Somehow during these months he had not managed to find any trace of it. Arnetta disappeared like in the swallow of the earth. Everyone around her house had never seen her figure at all, and some had even asked her again, whether the figure of the woman she was looking for actually lived in their neighborhood.

Really, Jullian was very short on his break. He has only three hours in his life now, working, taking care of Arif and searching for Arnetta's whereabouts. It was once in his mind to look for the woman to the hospital as identification of the dead without identity, but he dismissed that assumption. He was sure the woman was still alive.

Rian, that man could only look at Jullian with a look of pity. It's no secret that Jullian divorced his socialite wife. Coupled with the scandal of embezzlement of funds carried out by his wife's family increasingly made Jullian famous by the nickname fresh widower. However, instead of being a happy widower, Jullian appears to be in a state of depression. Just look, the eye bags that the man has are getting louder.

"You're here so early, I haven't even come. About what brings Jullian who does not want to be a patient if he has not fainted ?" Ask Rian a little sarcasm. Yes, Jullian's attitude is what sometimes makes a little upset.

Jullian chuckled, but there was no familiar impression in his tone. Only voidness is like a person who does not put the word into the heart.

"I'm sick."

Rian rolled his eyes lazily. Yes of course anyone who does the treatment to the hospital is none other than because he is not healthy or sick. If this man tried to waste time just to make small talk then Rian would happily drive the man away.

"I know that. Don't make my head hurt."

Jullian who was sitting in front of Rian also advanced his body and unexpectedly the man restored his hair in frustration before finally drowning his face into Rian's practice table. Seeing that, Rian immediately stopped his activity checking the schedule of patients who will control today. He also knew that the pain meant by the man was not physical pain.

"What's up ?"  Rian asked with caution. He knew at this stage Jullian was mentally weak. Wrongly, the man could have made the wrong decision.

Jullian still drowned his face between his hands. The man did not say much until he finally raised his face and rubbed his face rough. "I was wrong. I was wrong."

Rian could only be silent. Many occasional speculations scattered in his head, one of which was regret due to his marriage with Lusi. Since my marriage, as it has been, Jullian seemed to close himself off from the world that previously existed the man in it. The man suddenly became irritable to talk and rarely came to the association, especially after the birth of Arif, the only child of his puppet. However, some know later that Rian knows that the child is not the biological child of Jullian.

However, after all that fact Jullian still maintained his marriage to Susi. And always say Arif is his only child. Rian did not see any difference in affection. Jullian seemed to love his son very much.

Arnetta, it seems like he had heard that name somewhere. Rian tried to recall the figure of the woman Jullian had just mentioned. But, it felt like for a very long time he no longer heard that name. Stranger for him.

"Five years ago, the woman you checked into my apartment. She's the woman I'm looking for."

Rian tried to recall the memories five years ago. Yes, he remembered there was a woman who fainted and Jullian said that the woman was named Arnetta, a figure who came to replace the position of Lusi during their matchmaking meeting. .... Why ?

"Before I married Susi, I fell in love and wanted to marry her. Arnetta's not a stranger, she's my sister-in-law's candidate. But, ..." Jullian sighed before finally returning to continue, "Lusi made me hate that woman. That damn woman once framed Arnetta with photos without her clothes with another man. I thought it was a photo that did portray Arnetta as a cheap figure. At that time I was too burned with emotion and immediately married Luci without thinking it was all real or just his essay. In fact, Lusi ruined my life and made me feel like a monster."

Rian listened carefully to the story. If so, no wonder Jullian turned into a cold figure after his marriage. The woman he once loved at once hated.

Jullian straightened his body. His pajas face illustrates just how much trouble he has gone through.

"Five years later Arnetta, who had gone abroad, returns home with her mother. When the woman needed money for her mother's medical expenses, I used it instead. I ... framed her to be pregnant. I gave him money in return I could enjoy his body as I pleased."

"WHAT?!"

Rian stood up from his chair so surprised. How depraved was this man before him. It is unexpected that Jullian can be this way.

"What do you think Jullian? Just because that woman has some photos of the shaman and hurts your feelings, not your ego, but that doesn't mean you can ruin that woman's life." Sahut Rian with dusty while massaging his temple. He never supported even hating men's abusive actions against women. He once had a history of such depraved men.

Jullian had already guessed what reaction he received. Maybe he was crazy to open up his life problems, but his heart was getting sicker. He needs someone who blames himself, not telling himself to be patient in finding the woman as Mary says. The man's a judgment book to call himself a deterrent.

"Now he's gone. I ruined his life. She thought I was her hope, but I brought hell to her." Jullian said again with regret. He was sorry. How many wounds he had inflicted on the woman. If Arnetta stabs him with a knife, he will. It was only fitting that the woman hated him.

"Lantas, you're still looking for him now ?" Rian asked with a serious look and a sharp look. The man hoped that Jullian could regret his actions. Because otherwise, he himself might have awakened it by all means.

Jullian nodded surely with a blank look from his eagle eyes. "Yes, I love her so much. I loved her, I hated her, and now I love her more. We'll have a child."

"Let her not choose you and have a future with other men, would you be willing ?"

This time the pair of eagle eyes also removed his empty view and looked at Rian with reddened eyes. "No, I've made sure I won't let anyone else have it. Even if I have to die, I need to make sure there won't be another man next to her."

"You're crazy, Jullian! You're not sane."