After He's gone
forty-four.the first day back to school

Alana wakes up in the morning with a strange feeling. Today he no longer had to go to the hospital early in the morning. He still had to get up early in the morning, but to school not to the hospital.

This new routine was much different from her usual one, she had already gotten used to it to the point that she packed two meals today. But yes, he can eat later with his other friends.

Deep down he also likes being together with Ananta these few weeks. Feels very intense. But that doesn't mean he wants to live longer. Yes it is okay as long as the condition is not because Ananta is sick. There are so many reasons to be together like that every day. Married for example. Ah.. His mind is getting far.

Alana brushed off her strange thoughts before packing her school equipment again. Very confusing, Alana even mischecked the schedule and put in the books last semester. Now it's an even semester, soon they're exams. But it doesn't feel like much material is in his memory. Hospital activities have erased all her memories.

About Arkan, he's gone home from the hospital. But Alana believes she can't go straight to a school like Ananta. Two men who used to bother him all day were still being treated at their homes while he was sent back to school.

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A strange feeling hit back when Alana had arrived at school. His classmates asked him a lot about Ananta's condition. He only answered as he could while smiling awkwardly.

"so Ananta really got a new heart? great." said one friend. Terrific what. If he can cure the old heart Alana will not choose a transplant. Waiting outside the operating room was scared to death. But Alana had to answer calmly, even though her head was full of meaning.

"Yes, there are good people who are in critical condition so Ananta can get his new heart" replied Alana trying to suppress her own emotions.

"i don't know if it's lucky or not. As far as I'm concerned, the donor won't survive." asked his other friend, better understanding the situation.

Yes, they have to let go of someone to save Ananta. People he never even met in his life.

Alana simply nodded, creating a strange atmosphere between them. For anyone, death is sacred.

"it just so happened that Arkan was also critical at the time" the sentence made all silence instantly. Alana was suddenly frightened by the thoughts that came after her.

"it's a pity that two friends are affected by the disaster at the same time" said another person again chimed in. The sentence made Alana's heart relieved in a strange way. Alana had not confirmed her suspicions anymore, she was not even willing to think in that direction anymore. Alana was willing to decide that everything was just a coincidence, at least it was more comfortable for her heart.

"i've been. I want to go to the cafeteria" said Alana finally rose from the curious crowd. They had only been quiet this morning, but during the break everyone asked Alana for her curiosity.

Arriving at Alana's canteen as if alone, he ordered food and took his place in the corner. Trying to avoid the crowd even though these people still approach him.

Gea came closer, this was the first time they had met after such a long time. Previously Alana only answered briefly her messages in chat while in the hospital. Gea put on her usual expression, anxious and enthusiastic. Alana was like an object that was very interesting to her.

Just meeting for a few seconds Gea had already hugged her in an anxious embrace. The two friends who followed behind could only shake their heads. Gea can't be banned if it's like that.

"sorry I can't go to the hospital often" Gea said with a soft lip. On the contrary, Alana would also be anxious if she saw Gea acting like that.

"yes, I know you're busy" Alana said.

"and again, every time I go there you're not there. I want to see you" Gea said insistent. Well, they come too often at night, so Ananta's mother told Alana to come home when Gea came to visit.

"You know, the Club is a mess because Arkan doesn't exist. I was following Handle. Basic ngerepotin. It's a good thing he's cured so I can check on him later" Gea continued. Funny thing is, she can be very gentle with Alana, but turns a little harsh on Arkan. I don't know what distinguishes the two. As far as Alana is concerned, she and Arkan are both troublesome. Especially those who have not been there for weeks. Although Arkan's absence must have been more troublesome anyway.

"Gea, don't just spill the tea. Later people think our club is really a mess" said Rara reminded. Gea is often released when it is emotional.

"iya know. Yesterday's performance was good. No one knows it's a mess" Gea said. Alana did hear that they had one performance. But well, he and Arkan definitely can't come along. Too bad. Although most likely just being a committee or general aide she also wants to see it.

"Alana..want to hug again a lot" said Gea turned spoiled once again. Alana gives up, hugs him. After all, he also needed a hug to calm himself. He just went through heavy things, so he wants to restore his heart.

"Na, tomorrow you want to look at Arkan, you want to come?" rara replied alana with a nod as Gea still hugged her quite tightly.

Hearing Rara mention about Arkan, made her think of Ananta again. After Gea took off her arms and ordered food Alana took the time to send a message to Ananta.

"Hey, how was it today?" alana asked, today she could not see the condition of Ananta directly, very sad.

For a long time the phone was silent. It was only a few minutes later that Ananta replied to Alana's message.

"My circumstances? miss you" Ananta replied.

"ish seriously. The wound is dry yet? can't move his legs normally? eat well? Any allergies or anything?" reply Alana. He's serious right now.

"rather than asking so mending here deh." Ananta reply casually without thinking how determined an Alana would be if it had been about him.

"okay. I skipped again yes today. besides not feeling at home for long in school there is no you" Alana replied quickly.

"hey, no. Joking. Just entered a day." pinta Ananta. Okay, he's gonna have to be serious about talking to Alana.

"The wound is dry, there are no allergies. Just now the legs are still a bit stiff but it can be used a little bit on the road, and, the food is good but more delicious that you brought from home yesterday" continued Ananta answered all one by one.

"willing to be there" Alana replied.

"no need, wait for me to go back to the dorm." Ananta broke up.

"tomorrow weeks I'll be there after Arkan's nose."

"arcan first from me" Ananta replied, joking. But the jealousy really.

"yes, you are" Alana replied. Later he said Gea, to look at Ananta first. Humph, troublesome.