After He's gone
thirty-six bored.

The next day Alana went back to the hospital. The routine that is now starting to be boring is still he lived for the sake of Ananta. His father has not yet told him about the potential donor making him a little anxious. According to the latest examination, Ananta's condition is still declining. He himself saw the condition of Ananta who looked increasingly weak.

"Alana. want to go for a walk" said Ananta. What else is it today? this child if the more bored the more the demand. Want to eat cake, tell Alana to take Arkan, now she wants to go for a walk. Though just a glance at the condition is still not able to stand properly. Only occasionally leaning on the head of the bed, even then only briefly when eating.

"but you are still weak" replied Alana. He knows Ananta better than Ananta himself.

"don't want to know, want to go for a walk" said Ananta again. He's tired already. Drowning in boredom for days staring at the same scene. Only occasionally peeking at the conditions outside through the window, it was also covered in curtains.

"i asked you first." Alana gave a rough sigh, she understood Ananta must be bored. But he can't decide for himself. Ananta's his father's patient, so he'll have to report to his father first. After saying so Alana immediately went from the presence of Alana to her father's room which was a little far from the nursery.

"well, can I take Ananta out?" alana said directly. He did not want to bother his father for long when he saw the man was busy with files scattered in front of him.

"out to where...?" he said back to asking with eyes that were still focused.

"no getting out of the hospital" he said. Ananta's condition is still not carried anywhere.

"just take a walk to the park" continued Alana. He himself is unlikely to allow Ananta to go far from the hospital with his current condition.

"alone?" asked the doctor again, he still did not focus on facing Alana, so he continued to ask impossible things.

"equally I'm well." said Alana a little annoyed. His father taught him to look at the interlocutor, but he himself did not turn to him when he spoke.

"please, huh?" pinta Alana, she wants to hear the approval so that her father can focus on his work again

"he must be really bosen, it's been a week more in the room continues" Alana persuaded again. For this kind of thing he usually gets permission easily. But because his father was not focused, so he had to wait a long time with convoluted questions.

"huft, it's okay." finally his father gave permission as well.

"really, can?" ask Alana again. He has to be sure, it's about Ananta.

"if he looks weak, there is a swollen body part or any change immediately take him to the room again continue to call father ya." said Alana's father turned to his daughter for a few seconds before turning his eyes back to his files again.

"and have to use a wheelchair." broke up his father. Alana nodded with excitement. Without saying more he had already disappeared from before his father. Instead of looking for a nurse to borrow a wheelchair.

Alana returns to the room in a wheelchair, accompanied by a nurse who will help Ananta to sit in his wheelchair.

"can?" ask Ananta. Unnecessary question, because now Alana has brought a wheelchair which of course for Ananta.

"may" said Alana, still answer the question in vain.

"yuk?" invite Alana to code the sisters to justify the position of Ananta, so that they can sit in a wheelchair easily. It only took a short time before Alana was ready to push herself into Ananta's wheelchair. The sister who helped has already left. Now, he's in the hospital garden. Alana chose a shady place with lots of flowers, Gazebo with a beautiful little table in the corner of the garden that makes it possible to see the entire garden with the best view.

"it's okay to be here... Is it okay?" alana said after taking a sitting position in a chair near Ananta.

"nothing original in temenin." Ananta replied. Just getting out of the room, she was so happy. He was very homesick about the smell of wet grass and flowers. Previously, only the smell of drugs and ethanol.

"yes, I'm tense." replied Alana. He would not leave Ananta alone. Ananta stayed there for a while. Alana was a little misbehaved because she was not used to just sitting still for no reason like this.

"want to eat?" alana asked, she wanted to do something, get Ananta some food for example? but he was a little desperate to see Ananta just shake his head while taking a deep breath.

"i just want to be in here with you for a while" said Ananta finally. He seemed to be breathing a lot of oxygen in there. Well, because once he gets into the room he won't smell it again.

"but I can't if I'm just on the brakes." whine Alana. He usually stays silent only when he has a problem. And now he really doesn't do anything.

"what do you want" asked Ananta. Well, even though he's not sure he can grant Alana.

"ajakin' chat?" alana is not sure. If it continues to be silent, Ananta will not get bored, but he himself is bored.

"it's a conversation." Ananta replied lightly. If that one is what he is doing right now

"huft" Alana snorted in annoyance once again. He, not used to it.

"is.you truant every day?" ananta said, finding a topic he had wanted to ask for a long time. Later Alana came and waited for him since morning, then came home again at night. Her mother often left her alone with Alana because Alana was always in the hospital.

Alana just nodded slowly.

"not afraid of the value to be more ugly" said Ananta. He's not mocking, seriously. He was just worried, that's all.

"i don't care. I went to school there to pursue you not because I want to go to school" Alana replied sounding very light. His father would have been furious had he heard Alana's answer.

"basic, stubborn." answered Ananta.

"i'm a sick person who wants to go to school" he continued a little upset.

"Make me your number one Ta." continued Alana. If it is answered this way Ananta can only be silent, not so protest because again-lagj the reason used by Alana is herself.

"hmph, yes already." Ananta replied annoyedly.

"i'm not an exemplary student like you. Take it easy." she replied with a small laugh looking at the slightly sulking Ananta. If it could be reversed, it might be better for Alana to be sick, and Ananta to be in school. Because the sick Ananta was a complete waste of his talent and brilliant brain.

"Ta... Would you like to tell me a secret?" tanya Alana made the atmosphere become quiet. He must look very serious now.

Ananta just nodded making the silence even more pronounced. Alana took a heavy breath before continuing her sentence.

"Bella looked at the writing from Arkan's pocket the day she was in the accident" said Alana, but her breath felt heavier as if an imaginary hand was blocking her from speaking.

"there is a message, if something happens and he does not survive he wants to love his heart to you.he wrote your name clearly on the shabby paper in his pocket" the statement was completed. Alana waits for Ananta's response afterwards.

"he's stupid, yeah." Ananta replied like a joke even though he still looked sad.

"as if I would just accept his heart" he continued.

"in the end you rejected him" said Alana. The two stared at each other for some time thinking the same thing.

Sharing this secret feels like half the burden is gone.