Missing In The Heart
Chapter 89.I will love you always

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"Why did you become like this Vir?" His eyes looked at Mahavir.

"Should I answer, who am I like this?" Ask back with such gentle intonation while rubbing both cheeks of Rachel who was wet.

Rachel bit her lower lip, she didn't know what else to say. Rachel did not think, why the man could look so confused when all that happened was precisely because of his own actions.

So this is all my fault? That's howyou mean?

You want me back to what I used to be?

After what you did until this moment?

I really don't know if I should laugh or cry...

As if understanding the thoughts that were in Rachel's mind, Mahavir shook his head slowly. Then slightly pull both corners of his lips, to show his smile. Even though the smile itself seemed so bitter. His hand then raised to touch the hand of Rachel who is currently still attached to his cheek.

"Because I need you...." He said looking at his wife's face. Giving the woman a shady look full of love but as if mentally towards Rachel.

"Can't you let me go Vir...?" Ask. The question that made the corner of Mahavir's eyes again dripped a few clear hairs.

Mahavir shook his head again, then stood up and grabbed his wife's body into his arms. "I'm sorry if I'm selfish, but I'm going to get messed up again without you baby..." She shrieked her embrace so tightly.

Rachel even felt tight and difficult to breathe oxygen so tight Mahavir's embrace. But Rachel did not dismiss or give a fight, the more possessive Mahavir to his body, the more resigned he faced it.

Realizing that, Mahavir finally broke his embrace and looked back at Rachel. Slowly Mahavir's face moved closer to Rachel's face and landed a light kiss on her forehead....

both eyes....

down to his lips...

While Rachel just silently pecked with both eyes that had been closed and occasionally shed tears. There was no response from him, not even rejection. But, even so Mahavir continued to kiss their lips, even biting small bites there so that the woman gave Mahavir access to deepen his kiss. Mahavir's long-held desire is now unstoppable, making him immediately lift Rachel's body with both arms and take her up into their room without letting go of her lips.

He laid Rachel's frail body slowly on his bed followed by himself who took over his wife's body. For a moment, he saw the face of Rachel who was currently still closing her eyes, with her fingers rubbing gently the smooth cheeks of his wife.

The sound of the heartbeat of both of them was so heard beating rapidly.

"I miss you, baby.... I miss you so much...." Whisper into Rachel's ear, then kiss Rachel's lips again. Reply and mel*mat the two lips alternately and deepen with longing.

Mahavir just released his lips pagudasan when he felt the breath of Rachel who had been huffing. But that does not mean the kiss stopped there, because now his lips even down the neck of Rachel's level to go down to his chest and leave some kissmark there.

"Darling...I really want you right now, I really want to feel your warmth again..." His whisper returned to Rachel's ear with a hoarse voice accompanied by small kisses in the niche of Rachel's neck.

Rachel could feel Mahavir's breath making her whole body crumble. But she tried hard not to be lulled by her husband's fondling. It was just that his tears kept dripping down from the corner of his eyes.

Rush Mahavir wiped his tears and gently kissed the two eyes.

"Please.honey, don't cry anymore. I don't want to do it if you don't want to. But for now I can't help it anymore, I can't even control myself. Therefore, please give a refusal other than crying. You can push me hard, yell, yell at me, if you need to slap me hard for me to stop. Your silence and resignation at this moment cannot stop me from continuing..." He said with eyes that were already very foggy full of desire. Mahavir's hand moved inside Rachel's clothes and squeezed her here and there.

Though his mind says no, his body says something else. In fact, her body also misses and longs for her husband's touch. Instead of giving a rejection, Rachel instead let out a sighing sound that made Mahavir's desire and passion turbulent. Mahavir immediately opened the covering of the body of his wife and himself. Passing off everything that was attached until he could clearly see the plain body of his wife. Then slowly but surely Mahavir immersed himself into the warmth of Rachel's body.

That cold night, Mahavir was finally able to let go of his longing by fondling his wife after a long time of restraining his desires. Well, even though Rachel did not return all her touches and just resignedly accepted her fondness, Mahavir still continued. Do it slowly and gently because it is aware of the presence of her child in Rachel's womb.

I don't know how many times Mahavir completed his desire, until Rachel immediately fell asleep so tired.

Mahavir grabbed Rachel and continued to look at her, as if recording all the lines of her face without being missed.

"Thank you, my dear....." Mahavir whispered softly in Rachel's ear and softly kissed her forehead which was currently sound asleep due to their heat struggle. Mahavir then rose from Rachel's side slowly, raising the blanket to cover the entire plain body of the woman. Re-wearing her clothes, then finally stepping towards the door of their room. In the doorway Mahavir took the time to look back at his wife. For a long time, Mahavir finally closed the door.

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The dawn returned. The sun slowly emerged from his contest in the Eastern horizon. Rachel woke up feeling the pain all over her body. He circulated his gaze, then raised his body to his feet and leaned against the headboard of his bed.

He had thought that the man was still holding him when he woke up in the morning, but in fact he woke up alone on his bed. As he turned towards the door, his net caught something lying neatly on the nightstand. A ruby-edged diamond necklace is heart-red with a piece of paper under it.

Rachel grabbed both of those things. He saw the fancy necklace for a few moments, then turned to a piece of paper with Mahavir's handwriting and read it,

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Dear mylove...

I know the word 'Sorry' alone will not be enough to make amends...

But even so, I will continue to say it until you can forgive me....

'Sorry....

To be honest, I can't see you alive but lifeless...

No more laughter and nagging that I miss...

'sorry...

Even if it feels so heavy, I will grant your wish to be alone at this time.

Not parting, not leaving you...

Just give you time to accept all this.

The guards who were guarding and escorting you all this time have been pulled all. The CCTV in the penthouse has been turned off. I'm not gonna be monitoring your movements anymore.

From now on you are free. Do everything you want, except leave our penthouse. I put my full trust in you not to leave me. And I'm sure you'll keep your promise.

For now and in the future I will stay at the Alister hotel. If your heart is calm and ready to receive me, please pick me up there wearing my gift necklace.

Take good care of yourself and your child....

And, thank you for not turning me down last night... Sorry if I forced you a little.

Once more... 'Sorry'... For selfishness...

'I will love you always....'

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Rachel's two eyes stared at the piece of paper as she finished reading it. The look on his face was so flat and stiff, it did not show any response. He folded the paper and put it back on the nightstand with the necklace.

Rachel finally got up from her bed. Step in limping and grimacing a little in pain towards the bathroom. He let out a rough sigh as he looked at the overall look of his innocent body through the reflection of the mirror that was inside the bathroom. The trail that Mahavir left behind was so clearly printed all over his body. At the moment, he still felt a pain in his core. Last night, the man really vented his desires with a crush on him.

You're great Vir... Turns out there's a reason behind your impingement last night...

His hand then stretched out turning the shower tap lever, the, and a second later the shower from the small holes on top of it fell soaked his body along with the drops of tears that joined to break and flow with the shower water droplets.

Finally the cry he was holding while reading the letter that Mahavir left behind broke.

"Hiks... Hix... Hicks..." His shoulder while beating his chest. He doesn't know what his heart really wants. His tears even continued to come out without being commanded by his mind. Instead of feeling happy after knowing that he would be free from the restraints of the man, his heart was now throbbing pain.

You evil Vir....

Why do you always succeed in making my heart so hurt?

The longer the sobbing of her cries the more it broke. His body was already very reddened because his hands were rubbing so hard all traces of Mahavir left on his smooth body. He finally slumped down and dropped his body sitting on the cold marble floor of the bathroom under the shower that kept falling wet it. He hugged his knees tightly and became more and more willing to cry.

For hours Rachel sat under the shower, her skin even wrinkled with a body that shook with cold. But there was no sign that he was going to leave there.

From the outside of the room, there were footsteps that were getting closer to entering his room, until the figure of someone was now standing in front of the bathroom door that was not closed.

"Jeez, Young Mistress... What are you doing." Bik Inah immediately ran off the shower faucet, took a towel, then wrapped Rachel's body. He pulled Rachel up to stand up and watched her walk to the bed. In a hurry he turned on the heating machine because his master's body was so cold and trembling.

"What happened, madam?" Ask Bik Hinah while drying Rachel's hair using a hairdryer. Instead of answering, Rachel went back to sobbing.

Bik Inah finally chose silence and no sound anymore. It seems that this is not the right time for him to just give advice.

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It's been almost a week since Mahavir left his penthouse. And from that day on Rachel spent more time alone in her room.

Geck... Geck... Geck...

Bik Inah knocked on the door before finally entering the room bringing lunch to her Young Madam.

"How do you feel, madam? Is it okay?" He asked while touching Rachel's forehead to ascertain her body temperature. Well, almost a week of this Rachel was deman and not feeling well until it had to bedrest a total. Maybe the effect because of the slow silence under the cold shower. But even so until now there is no news from Mahavir.

"I'm fine Bik..." Say it by trying to smile.

Bik Inah sighed heavily and then sat on the edge of the bed. "Sorry Madam, may I speak to you for a moment?" Her question was immediately replied with a soft nod by Rachel.

"Sorry if I'm a little presumptuous, but don't you miss Young Master?"

Rachel's face suddenly turned sad. His eyes suddenly glazed. And Bik Inah can sensibly catch it. Bik Inah grabbed her Young Madam's hand and gently rubbed the back of her hand.

"Madam, I don't know what you're going through with Young Master. But if you can't let it drag on. Hate and love are so thin in between. We don't feel pain if we don't have any feelings. And the mistress's tears during this time are enough to prove that you also love Young Master. You can't be this sad if you really hate it right now. I say this not because he is my Young Master, but I am just trying to find a middle ground for you both."

Bik Inah moved one hand to Rachel's back and rubbed gently there.

"Mrs...Do not regret it later on. Young Master has already succumbed like this to you. Now it is your turn to give up. Put your ego aside. When are you going to be like this? You also feel empty without him? What about the current Young Master? Is not your heart moved to just know the news? It could be that he's suffering more than you are right now."

Rachel fell silent, looking straight ahead with her blank look. In his mind he was monologuing himself.

Was I really wrong all this time?

Why is everyone always on his side?

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Rachel stepped foot into the lobby of the Alister hotel so gracefully. Wearing a beige knee-length dress with matching longcoat and necklace dangling beautifully at the neckline.

His leg paused in front of the receptionist and asked one of the staff to deliver him to Mahavir's room.

Finally, after thinking about Bik Inah's words all day yesterday, he decided to put his ego aside.

Inside the elevator that took her upstairs, Rachel unceasingly took a deep breath to minimize her nervousness. The further the elevator moved up, the more his heart was racing. I don't know why he was so nervous to meet this guy.

"Please, This way Mrs. Alisters." The hotel staff who delivered her let Rachel follow her as soon as the elevator door opened.

"Let me enter it myself. Thank you.." Rachel said as soon as she was close to the door of Mahavir's room. The staff bowed respectfully and left him.

Rachel stepped to the door. He took a deep breath many times before opening the door in front of him. However, his hand suddenly came to a halt in the air as it was about to open the door before him. The voice of the conversation of the two people inside there made him goosebumps to enter.

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Minal Aidin Wal Faidzin 🙏

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