Missing In The Heart
Chapters 119. Waiting Each Other.

Rachel pecked at the appearance of her plain body in front of the mirror. The gentle rubbing of her stomach that she felt was already slightly protruding. It appears that in some parts of his body is a little more contained and the areola part becomes darker and larger. There is also a dark line that began to appear stretching from the middle of his stomach to the bottom of his kemal* bone.

Even so happy twinkle is very clearly emanated from his face which began to look chubby. An amazing gift he could feel the pregnancy back after his carelessness that could not keep the previous pregnancy.

Said the doctor who examined him, his fetal state is very healthy. Maybe because he regularly consumes healthy foods and vitamins and milk pregnancy. Even though every time he saw food, he felt very unappealing to eat. So heavy it feels even if just tasting the food. But even so he still forced himself to always finish his food. He always reminded himself not to be selfish. There is a small fetus in his stomach that needs nutrients. He no longer wants to lose. For that, her current pregnancy she would desperately take care of him.

Her gestational age has entered the thirteenth week. That means about three months. And all that time he continued to cultivate longing in his heart. The yearning for a male figure that increasingly makes his heart scream pain every time he remembers it.

Her beautiful smile suddenly flashed feeling something pulsing inside her stomach. Hurriedly diverted his momentary sad thoughts, then rubbed back his stomach with both hands while inviting his fetus to speak.

"Hi honey...." Apply it with a tone of voice made as soft as possible.

"You must be looking for daddy yah?"

"Yes, Mommy is just as dear..."

"But we are patient well, his daddy may still be sick. But Mommy's sure she'll be with us soon." He smiled satirically.

"Now we pray for his daddy well baby.may he be there okay."

"You're good in there toowell, help Mommy get through this. Strengthen Mommy. You're Mommy's only encouragement right now......" Say it with teary eyes.

"Because you are the new world of mommy. Mommy loves you so much...." She was saddened by a drop of tears that escaped falling from the corner of her eye. Quickly around the tip of his eye, looked up and opened his eyes repeatedly to ward off tears that forced him to come out. Swallowed his saliva many times and re-developed his smile. He felt a twitch from his stomach, maybe the baby's response to his words.

Not wanting to dissolve in sadness, Rachel hurriedly dressed up quickly. This time he is no longer dressed like before who always seem sexy and glamorous. He began to get used to wearing a simple dress that feels comfortable on his body with the addition of a thick knit coat made of high quality wool. No more high heels that support the appearance of the legs, there are only flat shoes that look light on his feet.

Merry who welcomed his arrival at the Fashion Runway location was made to gasp at his new appearance. No more elegant perfectionist impression, but change the style of simple and girly with hair that is freely stroked down.

It looks sweet and cheerful from the outside, but not with what's inside.

Today is the day of Rachel's fashion show held at one of the star hotels located in the Westminster Borough area.

The snow is still falling slowly, but it is no longer intense. The cold air that blows does not dampen Rachel continues all the preparations for the fashion show.

The fashion show was successful. Several leading fashion media covered the event. Likewise, the BBC News Channel TV station that specifically aired the show.

Rachel smiled as she received a bouquet of flowers from her model. Inhaling in the fragrance of the flower while speaking in his heart,

Vir..thank you all this time you've always been behind my success. And the success of my show this time I present to you... As proof that you've managed to take me to my dreams all along...

I love you Vir...

And I miss u very much...

On the deck of the bouquet of flowers while smiling gently towards the camera.

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While far away in Manhattan, New York-Americans there. Precisely in the high-class treatment room of an international hospital, Mahavir lay half-sitting limply without any spirit in his life. Eyes glazed. He is still wracked by an inner war that is so fiercely raging in the space of his heart.

A few minutes ago he had just watched a virtual show Runway held by his wife in London through the BBC News Channel website. A Runway that is quite attention of Fashion activists and invite applaus because the clothes design is very detailed and has special characteristics that are not owned by most designers. His wife was able to succeed without any help from him.

Either now he must be happy for the success of the woman who is still his wife status or vice versa. He should be happy to see the success of the woman, he should be proud of that fact. She should be thankful that she looks okay. But do not know why there is a sense of tightness that squeezes his chest.

She saw Rachel looked very beautiful in a baby doll dress made from bright peach colored cutouts below the knee, very contrasting with her style so far. Could this be one of the changes he made after parting from her?

The beautiful woman walked gracefully on the catwalk stage and received a bouquet of flowers from the models, looking to unravel her smile so loosely without any burden. So radiant. Mahavir could also see the woman's body which seemed to be slightly contained from the last time he saw her.

His conscience asks not to believe all that. His conscience kept asking to hold on to his hard stance all along. But all the information he's received from his father's informants in recent days could break his fading beliefs. The woman was able to travel around the city of London taking care of her Fashion show needs but could not take the time to visit it at all.

All this time his dreams and desires were only to edit the girl who had been firmly attached to his mind and heart. The girl has been successfully edited, had also managed to have her whole body. But he also can not deny, if until this moment he himself can not know what the heart of the woman like. He had only heard his heart speak shortly before the fateful incident that befell them.

Is living your dream that much more important than me?

I wait for your presence here, is it so hard for you to visit me?

Mahavir sighed slowly. Feel the disappointment and the overwhelming fear. Disappointed about the attitude of the woman who was able to appear in front of the media without burden. Also fear if what his father says is true.

His confidence was further eroded given his current state that also could not do anything.

Dear....Have you really forgotten me? Was your promise then just a joke? Is it true that until this moment I have not become anything to you?

Are you happy without me?

Mahavir stared blankly at the ceiling of his treatment room. Remembering the times when the woman tried to run away from him. Drop by drop of clear liquid fell from both of his eyes.

Hannah who was sitting in a sofa not far from where she was lying could only sigh repeatedly to see the condition of the man who was always weak when faced with the figure of a woman named Rachel. I don't know what the woman did that could make the man fall like that. For years he had seen his best friend struggle in approaching Rachel and only the heartache he had experienced until now.

Hannah knew the man's love wasn't there for her. But looking at her current situation, Hannah no longer wanted to stay silent to watch the man she loved suffer. It may sound evil, but with Mahavir's current state and his father's request, Hannah will be determined to keep Mahavir away from his wife and slowly seize his heart.

"Have it been Vir.., don't make yourself look pathetic."

"I was pathetic long ago..." He spoke with a stifled voice in his throat. Then turned to face Hannah and looked at her with pleading eyes.

"Hannah, can I ask you a favor?"

"Want to contact her?" Ask back. The woman could already guess the man's request.

"Hmmm"

"For what?"

"I want to talk to him directly. I can't just stay quiet like this. I want to hear what the reason is for him. I want to believe it."

"Then?" Hannah's question was full of emphasis. "If it turns out he wasn't expecting you? What are you gonna do?"

Mahavir. Closing his eyes and swallowing his saliva was hard. "At least there's no misunderstanding between us." He spoke with his eyes still closed.

"It turns out you're a very stupid man, Vir! Do you have to lower your self-esteem that low? What exactly did you see from him? Conscious Vir. You've been hurt enough by it."

"Shut up!" Open his eyes and look at the woman in front of him. "You don't know anything about us...!!" Added.

Hannah sighed softly, staring at the Mahavir. "I really don't know your story with her. But I know that she will only always hurt you...."

(i don't know your story with him, but I do know that he'll always hurt you)

"If you don't want to help. Don't mock her in front of me. I'm tired, I want to rest." He turned his face away from Hannah.

"Not not unwilling, but my phone was seized by the bodyguard in front. Everyone who comes in here can't bring a cell phone."

"You're just like my father!"

Hannah rolled her eyes off guard with Mahavir's attitude towards her. But he was not at all hurt because he was used to the man's cold attitude.

"Do you want me to put the bed down?" He asked as he got down from the gurney and grabbed the controller lever.

"No need. But please untie this." His ink with a glint of eyes pointed at his wrist that was still tied.

"Sorry, I can't open it. Uncle forbid me."

"Do you think I can rest comfortably in this bound state?"

Hannah was silent for a moment. Seemed to be concerned about the man's request.

"What do you think I'm gonna do until it's tied up like this?"

"But....." Hannah looked at Mahavir's whole situation. "All right, I'll open it, but please work together to not make it hard for me."

Mahavir just nodded slowly. As soon as the bond of his hand came off he immediately closed his eyes. For a long time he seemed to fall asleep until he finally woke up and called Hannah. Ask the woman to buy him food in the hospital canteen because he is hungry. Hannah was suspicious of Mahavir's attitude, but the man's rumbling stomach made her chuckle and trust him.

After Hannah left the room, Mahavir pressed the Nurse call button on the head of her safe bed. A second later a nurse ran into his room.

"sorry I just want to ask for help brought to the orthopedic poly. I made an appointment with the doctor there." (sorry I just wanted to ask for help brought to the orthopedic poly. I made an appointment with the doctor there.)

The nurse frowned in wonder. "sorry but you can't go anywhere. Let the doctor come here later." (sorry but you can't go anywhere. Let the doctor come later.)

Mahavir reviewed his smile trying to convince the nurse. "I have made an appointment with him. You can call the doctor if you don't believe me." (i've made an appointment with him. You can call the doctor if you don't believe me.)

The black-skinned nurse looked hesitant but finally nodded. The nurse came back out and came back in while pushing the wheelchair. A bodyguard standing guard at the door held Mahavir back as he was about to leave his room, and Mahavir finally asked him to accompany him in disbelief.

The three then walked down the long corridor of the hospital to the elevator to get down to the poly orthopedic room. But a few meters before reaching the elevator Mahavir asked the bodyguard to take a photo X-ray of his spine left behind.

Before getting into the elevator, Mahavir dropped his wedding ring on purpose. Then just before the elevator doors closed he asked the nurse to get his ring that had fallen off. As soon as the nurse bent down to reach for her ring, the elevator door closed and carried Mahavir alone inside.

Mahavir went down directly to the ground floor. Pushing his wheelchair painstakingly through the deserted corridor. While crossing the medical storage room, Mahavir replaced his wheelchair with a wooden stick. Remove the support of the collarbone in his neck and resume his steps.

Several times he fell because he was not used to using a stick, but he continued to try to escape from that place. His steps finally came to a halt as soon as he saw the phone that was on the counter table of the Nurse station. With a bit of acting, Mahavir was finally allowed to use the phone.

Mahavir hastily dialed Rachel's phone number, but repeatedly tried not to connect. Same with the phone number in the penthouse. Mahavir thought for a moment and tried to contact Rey. But just the same, because the call is not also connected, Mahavir realized that the time in Indonesia is now in the early hours. It's likely that Rey has fallen asleep under her thick blanket in Alister's hotel room as was her habit all along. Mahavir repeated calling his wife's cell phone many times, until he finally saw Hannah running towards him.

Mahavir threw the phone from his hand and rushed away in limping steps. Ignoring the increasingly gripping pain in his spine. He kept trying to run until his eyesight blurred and his body collapsed to the floor.

Faintly Mahavir saw Hannah screaming hysterically hugging him.

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