Heart Words.
Chapter 35's

Kana took a deep breath, she had strengthened her heart to stop working and go home, she would go back to help her father in the rice field, well despite the risk of the treatment of blood bye bye bye. But it's okay, the retaliation to Danu has been realized. Without him knowing and thinking about it, if he continues to be stubborn like that, it is not impossible that his short romantic story when introducing Arif in his village could be the specter of ridicule later.

Ah, Cana....

Kana opened the door of Arif's apartment, she knew so early Arif was usually still in the apartment. And sure enough, when Cana said a greeting when entering, his greeting was answered by someone who was none other than Arif.

The man was tidy, with a suit and suitcase in his hand.

"Where's the doctor going?" kana asked innocently and implusively approaching. There was a look of worry and also fear in the look of Kana's eyes. But, Arif had to hold back his smile.

Ah.. adorable at all.

"Why really? Wouldn't you be happier if I left?" arif asked with a tone of voice that he made flat.

"Don't..."

"Don't you?" Arif shakes his head. "It's not you yourself who say that you have no taste for me. And you like other men too. So, what else am I waiting for you here for? Yeah, right?"

Nervous. And don't want to. But prestige and stubbornness still enveloped him.

"Not."

"Didn't you? So you like me too?" ask Arif quickly.

"Yes, uh, no." Kana hurriedly answered her answer as well as her heartbeat which suddenly felt sad instead of playing.

Arif smears a smile. Arif took a step closer.

"Why are you still evading?"

Kana turned her face. It can melt if seen as sad and sticky like that.

"I'll only be gone in a few days" Arif said later. The statement again invited Kana's face to look at him.

"meaning?"

"I have a seminar out of town."

"Oh." Brief response came from Kana's small and thin lips, but not with a sigh of relief that was seen by Arif without Kana noticing.

"And, during my seminar, I want you to keep this." Arif grabbed Kana's hand and put down a ring that was made into a pendant like a necklace. A simple beautiful ring that fits perfectly describes the personality of the girl.

"I haven't given up, Kana." Arif continued. He looked into Kana's beautiful eyes. "How much you try to find excuses to avoid my feelings, no matter how much you try to avoid me, I will not give up. Even if you admit to liking other men. I think, as long as you haven't been betrothed, I still have the right to keep trying. And this will be my last resort."

"I'll give you time to absorb your heart. I know you're not a selfish girl who thinks about yourself, you always think about others first. But this time, this time alone I really ask you to just once be selfish and follow what your deepest heart wants." Arif took one more step forward. Inhaled in the aroma of opiate morphin from the scent of Kana.

"I'll go back to see you. And if when we meet again you wear this ring on your finger, then I will immediately take you to the nearest KUA right then and there. But, if you still don't want to give us a chance, you can just throw away the ring, or you sell it, whatever."

Kana was still speechless, her eyes were shining with all sorts of flavors that seemed difficult for her to truly express.

"And by then I will be completely gone from your life. I will go back to living my life like I never knew you. Although it would be very difficult, and probably would make me always stay in the hospital to find busy." Arif continued with the tone he made dramatized, and seemed to be quite successful at picking up the girl's detained selfishness.

"I go first." A thin but melyot smile was formed by Arif on his face, then pulled his suitcase and set his foot towards the door.

"Oh, yeah, one more." Arif turned his body, looking back at Kana. "I've been wanting to fire you for a long time."

"What?" Kana's eyes are rounded. Finally, after a thousand languages were silent, the lips made a sound.

"Yes, I just felt it was inappropriate for the woman I love to work as ART for me. But, I don't know how to keep in touch with you if you don't become my ART, so I'm still keeping you. But today I allow you if you want to stop and go home. Because I'll be the one who'll pick you up." And after making Kana's heart have to pump blood four times in the morning like this, Arif went to leave Kana in his apartment.

Kana lifted the necklace with the ring that was made into her pendant. His breath was drawn in and his breathing was exhaled strongly. He pulled the dining chair, sat there to look at the ring for longer.

All Arif's words re-echoed in his head, over and over, like old cassettes with tangled ribbons.

The steadiness of his heart to go and bury his own feelings became a dilemma. She's worried.

On the one hand, the sense of insecure really hit him with the fear of his inability to be a suitable companion for a young and successful doctor and also a good looking bonus like Arif.

But on the other hand, he also wants to be selfish, he really wants in his life not to think about what people say, no need to think about the fate of others, no need to think about the fate of others, there is no need to think about how others feel if they fail, if they disappoint others, the important thing is that they achieve their wishes.

But, come to think of it, Kana would not be selfish even if she accepted Arif. Because Arif wants him. Even if maybe he will embarrass Arif's image for marrying a village girl who has nothing, it's not his fault, not for his selfishness, because from the beginning Arif had accepted Cana with all its shortcomings. Unfortunately, Kana's brain is too complicated with baseless fears, so the logic stagnates.

"Why am I afraid, if Doctor Arif is really gone from my life?"

Yes, because it is also a leech... It's so gurgling!

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