Heart Words.
Chapter 33

Excuse me.

That one word is always ringing in Arif's mind and memory. Even when there are nurses, or patients or fellow doctors who say sorry to Arif it makes Arif feel upset himself.

It had been five days since Arif proposed to Kana who was rejected raw by the woman, since that day Arif did not or has not met with Kana again, but he knew Kana came to work, because the house is always neat and food is available at the table every time Arif comes home. Do not forget the rest of Kana's distinctive aroma. The girl seemed to deliberately wait for Arif to leave first then he came to work. Looks like the promise to come early is no longer valid. Kana no longer even sent her lunch.

I don't know!

Arif threw himself on the couch. The sofa on which she stole a kiss from Kana's lips. He closes his eyes, but what appears is the shadow of Cana's face that cries when telling stories about her former lover betraying his own best friend. Arif gave up on closing his eyes, he got up to take a bath. Cold water became an option to clear his mind. But in fact, after being touched by cold water, it was the shadow of Kana who laughed while with her family became a flash that filled her head.

Holy hooch! Is this like being in love?

This is not the first time Arif has fallen in love. But when he liked Yunia back then, he was never like this misbehaving person. He never felt frustrated because he kept thinking about someone.

Arif came out of the bathroom, after getting dressed, he sat down on the dining table chair, filling his not-so-feeling belly. But she realized that the only thing that connected her to Kana was eating Cana's cooking, that way she could still feel Kana's presence.

Ah, she's really in love. And the fall is too deep.

In the past, she had also fallen for love, and that broke her heart. But, the fall this time did not break his heart, but rather frustrated, indecisive, and even more infatuated, but he had to endure it. Withstanding all the sense that made his heart want to explode.

He tried, he was convincing, but Kana chose to leave. The girl chose not to believe it. Supposedly, Arif should have given up, hurt by rejection, but his heart whispered different words. His heart assured him that Kana's rejection was not because her heart was clapping one hand. Nope.

But because of something else that looks complicated to Kana. Therefore, Arif gave up for a moment. He gave space and time for Kana to consider her proposal.

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"When do you want to be so upset, Rif?" jodi asked while snacking on lollipops, after a few days later Jodi and Yoga noticed Arif's attitude that seemed to be concerning.

"You're a child, like an old ABG." Yoga chiming.

"Whisper!"

Yoga shaking.

"Lo didn't see Kana again? That's it to him, by the way. Sure again." asked Jodi.

"He's going to turn me down" replied Arif.

"Yes, you're crazy?" ask Yoga.

"No. Do I look like a bright guy?"

"You don't realize anyone." Jodi.

"Lo's not like someone else, but like someone who doesn't want to live. Lemes is not passionate." Sahut Yoga's.

Arif rubbed his face frustrated with the rants of his two sohibs.

"Gue is not blushing. Okay?" Arif assured despite the sight of two men in front of him looks skeptical. "Gue just gave Kana some distance, gave her time and space so she wouldn't feel forced or forced to accept me."

"Trus succeeded?" Surprisingly the question was simultaneously coming out of the lips of Jodi and Yoga.

"I don't know, I haven't seen Kana yet."

"Well, that's what we're worried about" said Jodi inviting a frown on Arif's forehead.

"What?"

"We even fear that Kana is stabbed by someone else. Indeed, you do not think about the appearance of Kana who is now, will many wasps who snedeketin?"

The incident at the club was a reminder Arif returned. How the fuckin' guy tried to harass Kana, if only he didn't come on time maybe....

"Ah, fuck!" Arif immediately got up from his chair, without taking off the white robe of pride he darted out of his room until making Yoga and Jodi gawk, looking at each other and then chuckling together.

"Hadeh, basic ABG labile."

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If there is another man who is more leverage to approach Kana, the maximum effort to convince Kana, it is not impossible whispers of his heart could be deviated if Arif himself did nothing.

Arif took a deep breath to let down his groin. He came out of the car, still wearing his doctor's suit which seemed to him to forget to be removed so his focus was on a person's heart.

Arif knocked on the door of Kana's room, not waiting long, the door moved open. How surprised each of them was. A startled Arif sees Kana's face being masculine with Charcoal mask, and Kana who doesn't expect Arif to see her with such a grayish mask.

Implusive Kana instantly closed the door even without Arif being able to hold it in, as she herself was still in shock.

"That's Kana, right, huh?" ask him to yourself.

Five minutes later, the door was opened again by Kana, her face was back to normal without a mask. Arif smiled clumsily at Kana who looked wrong because of the mask earlier.

"Sorry to interrupt" Arif said.

Lousy.

Crick. Crick. Crick.

Know you heard the crickets.

"What's the Doctor here for?" ask Kana. It seems like he has mastered himself to no longer feel embarrassed because of the mask earlier.

"I want to see you."

"Yes I know, there's no way the doctor's here to see Mom boarding."

Arif smiling. Even though it was spoken in a loud voice, but somehow it sounded funny.

"I think I need to talk, ah no, but we need to talk."

"About?"

"We."

There was something rustling in Cana's chest as Arif called the issue to be discussed was about them. But, unfortunately Kana was still caught up in the complexity of her own thoughts.

"What's wrong with us?"

"Can we talk while we sit?"

Kana nodded, then directed Arif to sit in the front yard of the boarding house, there are three plastic chairs commonly used to sit around in the morning sun.

"So, what else do you want to talk about us, Doc?"

"I will no longer convince you of how serious I feel about you. How much I am really like you. My feelings are sincere, and what I do for you is not for mere imagery. Everything is still in the same portion of seriousness and will not change."

Kana silence. He was just playing his fingers on his own lap.

"I want to ask, why do you always reject me? Is it because of the feeling I just clap one hand? Are you still not moving on from your ex? Or do you like other people?"

"Do I have to answer?"

"certain. It is not just relationships that need certainty. Rejection also needs certainty. Your answer will lead me to my future attitude towards you."

"I mean Doctor?"

"If indeed my heart claps one hand, then I will try even harder to convince your heart. If indeed you have not moved on from your ex, I will open your eyes to see how much of a jerk he is. And if you turn out to like someone else I'll..."

"Doctor will what?"

"I'll step back slowly. I will not bother you anymore."

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