The only thing I want
Part 162: Cold and Hurtfull - 2
Like singing: "Don't leave me, leave me, take me where you go .." (can be searched on ugel or utub old song haha)
That phrase was what Claudia should have wanted to say, as well as Egnor. Two people who are stuck in the wrong past. Feeling the ego is more important and the sense of winning itself is held in high esteem. There may have been struggles and sacrifices, but how did their relationship end? Should I hold on or let go?
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"Mr Egnor is too weak to see you with Mr. Richard. Because Mr. Richard took his place when you left him. Mr. Egnor owes Mr. Richard a debt so he doesn't accept that you're with Mr. Richard. Whatever the reason. Forgive him Clau. Ever since you left her, Miss Viena said that her nature had changed. He is rarely cheerful and very self-close.
He just wants you to be the only one. Not sharing with anyone. Please understand him too. Frank and I are in your midst. You also want to protect your son, on the one hand Mr. Egnor desperately needs you even though he can finally get up to it all because he does not want to be weak in your eyes when he is fragile, Clau," said Grace tried to explain from her side through a story from Frank. Grace puts Louise on the baby bench next to her.
"Can't! I have to meet him! I have to explain it to him! Not everything is as it seems, Grace!" Claudia said expectantly.
"I understand, Clau. Just meet, I support you. He's been hiding in Frank's room all along. Sometimes he goes back to his room. You can definitely meet her," Grace replied holding Claudia's hand in support.
"Thank you Grace!" Claudia hugged Grace.
"I pray you guys come back soon. To date his divorce papers have not been signed by Clau. Maybe it was just a bluff in him. Indeed, he will not be able to escape from you," Grace replied again rubbing her best friend's back.
Claudia nodded and rubbed her eyes.
However Grace and Frank understand them but they are still subordinates who must still respect and respect their superiors.
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"Son Egnor!" Call Claudia into Egnor's office. Egnor had just entered after making sure Claudia was gone, it turned out that Claudia was waiting for Egnor to come out of Frank's room.
Egnor turned his head and was surprised why Claudia could meet him. Namu, she actually misses Claudia. Every afternoon has enjoyed the provision of the woman was very happy even though her heart was tormented. Many questions that reverberated in his heart that he did not understand but was also lazy to ask him. All the disappointments are still stored and have not been understood by his wife.
In the end, Egnor simply turned around and took a breath. Put a hand in his pants pocket and bow his head.
"Sir Egnor, why don't you let me meet with Wil Wil?" Claudia asked the road approaching her husband. Egnor turned his head to the right.
"Sir, answer!" Claudia said that she was in front of Egnor and facing the face like a block of ice in front of him.
"What can you give me to bring you to Wil Wil Wil?" asked Egnor holding onto Claudia's wrist which was holding her face.
"What can I give you? I can't give you anything but myself, brother, I have nothing left, if you don't consider me for what I consider all your possessions?" claudia replied not quite understanding what her husband's question meant. Her husband is like asking for something in return for something he has and something he wants.
Egnor looked at Claudia inside. He stretched out his hand holding onto Claudia's cheek.
"Heng, it looks like you gave yourself to Richard so you're always together, don't you think? You guys are so close, so close !!" Egnor's cynical grimace left Claudia's heart breaking upon hearing her husband's words.
"What do you mean, brother? You think I willingly want to be close to Richard and I willingly give myself away? What's on your mind, brother?" claudia replied with a million questions that she did not understand.
"Make you understand one thing!" Egnor pulled Claudia's arm out of the room quite roughly.
"What brother? What do you want to do?!" claudia asked a little horrified by her husband's treatment.
"You want to see Wil Wil, right?" egnor was half looking.
"Yes, don't involve your jealousy with the relationship between mother and son! You misunderstood me!" decak Claudia ventured to realize what Egnor was thinking.
Egnor stopped hearing the word jealousy blurting out loud.
"Jealous you said?!" egnor said pulling Claudia's body into his arms so quickly that the woman's body jolted violently in front of her chest.
"Yes, you're jealous to see me with Richard out of the bridal boutique right? I was accompanying her to choose a wedding dress for Lisa sister, they're getting married!" claudia said she was now trying to explain to her husband in a fishing tone.
"Okay, I'm gonna show you how jealous I am of you!" Egnor's hiss pulled Claudia's arm back into the elevator that led straight to the basement.
Egnor takes claudia into the car and she heads to their apartment. There Egnor vented his frustration and yes, his jealousy. As Claudia said. Egnor tried to escape this uncertainty but he could not lie to himself if he did not like Claudia close to Richard.
Egnor takes Claudia's clothes off violently. Claudia was a bit scared but she followed her husband's play. Egnor's gaze was blank but his hands nimbly treated Claudia in such a way. Egnor kissed Claudia's lips while looking at her whole face was sad, disappointed, angry, yes indeed jealous, confused, anxious, longing also love mixed.egnor to bite the little lips of his wife was.
"Sick brother! brother, come back the way you used to, we can do this gently and lovingly, not like this!" claudia lamented that she was still trying to resuscitate Egnor when her heart had been slashed.
"It doesn't seem like I hurt you too much and you trust others more!" egnor's reply paid him no heed, instead he crushed his wife's two chewy chunks tight enough that Claudia shouted.
"Sister, what do you want to do? Can't it be a little soft?" claudia said she had shed her tears.
"Shut up! If you want to meet Wil Wil, serve me like you helped Richard! looks like you're happy to help and listen to your ex-husband who's SO MUCH BETTER THAN ME!" hiss Egnor now opened Claudia's breastplate quickly and buried her head there with his heart as he liked to stumble and master the chewy circle.
The deg!
Claudia's heartache is growing again. She compared this to her self who only helped Richard choose a wedding dress that wasn't even for her.
"Sister! You're so mean to me, you compare me like a cheap woman, argh!!!" Claudia could not help her screams anymore. Egnor was prepared to do so in the midst of Claudia's bitter thoughts. Egnor does that with a quick, slightly brutal movement and forces Claudia to follow the rhythm of the movement. There were tears piled up on her eyelids and said sorry to Claudia.
'It looks like I've had a mental breakdown because of you Clau! I can't see anyone better than me being more happy for you, being your refuge in your own time and being your savior when you call my name. I'm sorry I can't be all that for the rest of your life! after this either you will be angry or not or even hate me so I can still feel love and all this from you, although it seems like it will be difficult, I'm sorry!' egnor said in his heart how difficult it is to say this excessive obsession.Maybe only a few people understand his position. furthermore, he may be considered a lawyer who fails in love and thirsts for self-esteem for the rest of the people.not only that, he retains his ego and thoughts.
It's true that Claudia's heart's decision. Now turning around it felt disappointment piling up on his back. After Egnor was satisfied with his frustration, he did not keep his promise. The first time he did this to Claudia. He put on his clothes and got out of bed.
"Sister, Wil Wil," Claudia still called and reminded Egnor.
"That's how my heart aches, Clau! It's unreasonable for the reason that I've survived only you but it seems I'm nothing to you. You haven't known what I hated all this time. If I just want me to be next to you. But when that sense of intent did it, you left, you left and you brought someone else into your life. I'm sorry I hurt you and my ego is bigger. If we're not together, it's okay. Have fun down your little heart and don't think about me and Wil Wil. Wil Wil is my son. I'll take care of him as best I can, you take it easy. Just think about yourself," said Egnor in a slow tone and left Claudia crying here.
Already lost all hope Claudia and it feels all free. Egnor really didn't want it.
"It's enough, Claudia, it's enough. Forget her. Live your own life. Consider Wil Wil your most beautiful memories with him. No more chasing that guy. That man doesn't deserve you. You should've realized long ago, you didn't deserve to be the wife of a great man like her. It's time to move on and don't turn around" cried Claudia to let Egnor go. His entire body was sick, but the one that hurt and languished the most was his heart. It felt like every day Egnor had scratched a little red ink, a little bit and now it seemed like there was no place for the lawyer to scratch his sharp pen in his heart as it was already scratched full of his red ink.
Claudia was asleep there. The night he got out of that apartment. His face was gloomy and his gaze was blank. He went back to Lisa's house. He told Lisa and Lina everything. Lisa knew what Claudia was feeling, whereas Lina knew these two separated hearts. Egnor with his selfishness and unwilling to be defeated while Claudia with her million struggles in fact could not defeat it. Claudia knew it was over and she understood it. She was just an ordinary woman, having an end limit that had to be stopped before the pain got more painful.
From then on Claudia would no longer send Egnor lunch. He just went to John's house and silently looked at Wil Wil. Claudia did not show herself, only looking from a distance accompanied by Lisa or Kevin. Claudia also kept her distance from Richard because she did not want to talk or was afraid to be seen by anyone Egnor acquaintances. He was waiting for a divorce from Egnor. He wanted to part well.
While Egnor was clearly asking Claudia of Frank. Did Claudia come back, did Claudia give him lunch? Did Claudia ask? Everyday questions Frank gets and Frank just answers NO. Egnor was quite upset but he tried to calm down and still maintain a painful stance himself. Egnor himself has not given his divorce papers to anyone, he still holds them in custody and is still considering this. I don't know what he had to do let alone one Sunday he did not meet with Claudia. occasionally he passed by Lisa's house alone but never did he see Claudia's nose stem in the slightest. the feeling of giving up, the feeling of giving up, the search continues to wander until he finally gets a letter of invitation to Richard and Lisa's wedding.
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Three days before Richard and Lisa's wedding, Claudia reads a news story inside the newspaper with a middle-aged woman being the picture of the news.
*A POET WOMAN WANDERS THE ENTIRE JAPANIS REGION. SOMETIMES IT BECOMES THE SUBJECT OF OSTRACISM BECAUSE ITS VERSE INSINUATES SOME CIRCLES. YOU CAN ALWAYS AVOID IF THERE ARE TRAFFIC POLICE WHO WANT TO ARREST YOU.*
Claudia's feelings raged. Is this a sign that Claudia must leave this country and find her purpose in life. It is hard to forget the lawyer who still crossed the media because he had become the Savior of Honolulu.
"Mom!" Call Claudia. He remembered that face. Yes, it may have been about 14 years ago the plane crash happened. The accident caused him to become an orphan and was forced to leave Egnor.
"Mommy, are you alive?" claudia muttered stroking the picture on the newspaper.
"Claudia, what's wrong?" asked Lisa who happened to be approaching Claudia that afternoon.
"Lisa, is it possible that someone who crashed a plane and was declared missing could survive?" ask Claudia to make sure.
"There are two possibilities, if you don't find the suit or suit coming with a formless state," Lisa replied.
"Haiz, my body shuddered at the word. Don't discuss it anymore. It's look! It looks like my mother!" claudia said she showed a picture of a middle-aged woman with a dress and a broad fedora hat sitting on a park bench and a small handbag nearby.
"Your mother? You sure?" Lisa ensure.
"Just a second!" Said Claudia moving up and grabbed the notebook that Egnor had given her back then. There Claudia had already moved an important photo photo from her wallet.
"This is my mother, my father, me, and Egnor's brother!" Claudia said she had taken a picture of Claudia's 17th birthday. There was a tinge of sadness when mentioning Egnor's name.
"Claudia you're really skinny huh and Egnor's hair is so long, you're both cute. It turns out that you've known for a long time," Lisa murmured still paying attention to the pretty outdated photo.
"Not to talk about Egnor. My heart has begun to forget it even though it feels so hard! so painful! my body became hot when I just saw him walking while on television. I wanted to come and hug him but at that time I also remembered how much he was indifferent to me. although it makes me anxious, the aura makes me cold and frozen, Lisa's pain!" claudia was tormented and frustrated.
"Clau, relax, he'll be looking for you soon! Tomorrow I'll give her my wedding invitation.I'll just take her tomorrow," replies Lisa, who is very sure that they both still have a lot of hope.
"Forget over! I did not expect! I was discussing the woman in the paper with the woman next to Egnor!" Claudia compared it to Lisa. Lisa tried to understand and there was indeed an identical resemblance.
"True Clau, they're similar, so your mother's probably still alive?" lisa said later.
Claudia nodded.
"Indeed yesterday we received his body shape that was not because of it. It's possible that they're wrong" Claudia explained.
"It could be Clau. So what's your decision? don't you want to see him?" lisa's looking a little scared.
"Hem, like I have to see him, Lisa! Even if I can't be with my husband and children, I can be with my mother. Doing good for the rest of his life, for the rest of my life, yeah like that!" claudia said she smiled wryly at Lisa. Lisa knows how Claudia's heart is. She will do the same, even when the man has rejected her. However, Claudia is indeed a strong woman.she still survives even though in the end she was in vain.
"You want to go to Japan?" ask Lisa at last.
Claudia nodded. There is sadness, doubt, regret but he must still set something for his life and his heart.
'Goodbye Egnor, my love, my one and only, I'm sorry, I give up, may happiness always menauingu with our children," said Claudia in her heart and bowed.
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