Not Salihah's Wife
Where Are You?

Randy asks Amara whereabouts to Juan and Melly his wife's friends but no information is available. Melly and Juan also lost contact with Amara. After checking Amara status on campus, the woman had applied for leave for two semesters.

It felt like Randy was desperate and feeling guilty considering not knowing his own wife. Even Amara's favorite food she doesn't know. Randy is currently in the room Amara previously occupied.

There's a picture on the nightstand, a picture of his smiling wife. The face was so longed for and Randy could only hug a picture of his wife. One by one the nightstand drawers were opened, hoping to find information or keys to find the whereabouts of his wife.

Randy's gaze was fixed on a smiley picture diary. There were a lot of scratches on his wife's pen. Reading sheet by sheet his wife's outpouring of heart, not just about joy but more strokes of sadness.

“Amara, forgive me.”

Randy's gaze was fixed on the frame inside the drawer. Contains folded and decorated money sheets.

“This is my wedding dowry with Amara.”

...***...

“Buntu Pih, I can't find Amara. Even Mirna's mother doesn't want to open her voice,” Randy told her father's – Pram.

“That's so proud of the family. You were ready to divorce Hana but left. Never mind, you granted Amara's request. Divorce her,” Imelda's word.

“Mih, don't make things more complicated. It's all our fault, if you don't announce Randy and Hana's marriage it won't be like this,” Pram said.

“Randy, it's best if Hana's healed you're back together again. Will definitely be as happy as your plan used to be, have a child and ..”.

“Mih, Amara has been hurt by me. I've promised to divorce Hana and come back with Amara.”

Imelda still does not know Hana's true state, she only knows Hana is injured and traumatized which is likely due to having to live with sharing a husband.

“Imelda, you should be quiet if you do not know the real problem. Hana and Randy's problem is more complicated than you think,” Pram said.

Pram already knows Hana's condition, not from his iron family but from his man. Already seen a strange scene especially when Hana tried to commit suicide and the arrival of a man named Akbar.

“What do you mean, Mas?”

“Hana is not what you are proud of, even though it is not his fault.”

“White, no,” said Randy.

“Maybe you promise you won't keep this a secret but Papi doesn't promise anything and Mami you need to know so as not to constantly blaspheme Amara and consider Hana as an angel.”

Pram finally uncovers the reason for Hana and Randy's marriage which is only disguised to save the woman's status and honor. A woman who has been deformed and touched by another man.

“So, don't talk about Hana anymore. We're sorry for her condition, but defending Hana is not a good thing for her. He should be able to fight his trauma not always get protection and defense from you,” said Pram even while pointing at Imelda.

“After the doctor declared Hana stable and healed, immediately say talaq. Papi will scatter people to look for Amara, you continue to persuade Mirna and convey your regrets and guilt.”

“I'm worried Pih, because Amara is .. pregnant.”

“What?” ask Imelda and Pram together.

While in a different place, where Amara is. The woman was on the veranda of her room leading to a garden. There was a maid who specifically accompanied Amara, not even moving as long as Amara had not slept.

“Mbak Amara is sleepy?”

“But.”

“It's better to rest, it's night. Not good for your health, let's mbak.”

Amara relented and obeyed what the servant had asked for her own good. After changing clothes with pajamas. The waiter is still there and ensures the room atmosphere is comfortable and safe.

Amara lay on her side after her servant left. Every night she would come back with her grief considering Randy as well as her son's future later. Sometimes Amara cries, maybe the effect of her pregnancy hormones but she has promised to be strong.

Tonight Amara could not close her eyes, she was only able to fall asleep before dawn and when the morning woke up because of the nausea she felt. Just like the previous mornings, Amara experienced morning sickness.

“Honey, don't be this dong, we have to be strong and prove that we can without your Papa and his family.”

...***...

A few months later, Randy still can't find Amara. Mirna remained silent even Pram who asked for information still had no answer. Randy is currently on campus, remains a professional of his duty and remains in search of Amara's whereabouts.

The man read the letter of duty as KKN supervisor for several groups, some are already running and this is the last group to be escorted to the location.

“The file is ready?” randy asked the group representative in front of him.

“Already sir.”

“Yes already, we leave on schedule. Tell your group, don't be late.”

By late afternoon, the man returned home and spent more time in his room. After cleaning up, Randy will lie on the bed and stare at the walls of the room that many hanging picture frames Amara.

“Where are you, baby? I miss, I miss you so much. How is our child, is it born?”