
I could only close my eyes because of the light coming from the fast-moving train. My tears came down because in a matter of seconds my body would crumble, just like the train crash victim I saw. I don't know which part of my body will be a delicious meal for the herd of shrews. My heart crumpled to imagine the face of the father who was sick must hear his favorite daughter died crushed by the train. The sound of the horn began to echo, the ground shaking increasingly vibrated violently. This is the end of my life as Hanna who hasn't had time to buy a tombstone for my mother.
My chest was tight when the train hit my body, my breath was wheezing as hard as it felt. There was no pain at all, although I was sure that my body was now torn apart. I remained standing in the middle of the tracks as the sound of the train was getting heard going away. I did not dare to open my eyes because for sure at this time I would see fragments of my own body being scattered.
Slowly I opened my eyes, my body was not scuffed at all. Ah this must be just my soul, while my body somehow exists. I ventured to look back there was nothing to be seen there but darkness. The train has left me far away. Even the light was swallowed by the darkness of the night.
I am confused by this situation why there is no crowd when usually if there is a tragedy such as a train accident or anything, people will flock to see and perpetuate this terrible moment. One more thing, if a train hits someone the driver should stop the train but why they leave my body just like that, whether they do not see me or perhaps my life is no more precious than the lives of the wretched, who often die from being crushed by passing vehicles.
I'd better go down the train tracks who knows I can see my body. I swung very carefully because I was afraid that I might accidentally step on my own body fragments. My eyes kept looking for about where my body was splattered. It feels like my feet have gone very far but still I did not find anything even spotting the area there was not a drop.
Suddenly from my front, the train lights came back. The sound of the train is clearly heard. The train is heading towards me. The legs are too trembling to be able to move.
The second time I was hit by a train. The sensation felt the same as the first time I felt the chest feels tight and my breath stinged. To neutralize this taste, I had to scoop up as much oxygen as I could. When everything started to recover, I went back to searching for my body.
From beside me I heard someone laughing. "What are you looking for?" I glanced at him, the bedwet man whose hands stayed one.
"I'm looking for my body that just got hit by a train. Can you help me find him, so that at least my parents can bury me properly."
Instead of helping, he laughed again. "You're not a corpse yet. It is only your soul that we bring so that you know how we died and we must serve the ruler of this place. It's better now that you're back in your world before you're stuck here forever. Go to the source of light that is there. You'll find your way home."
So this is the reason why she's not in the dance troupe in that magical village. His soul already belonged to the master of the crossings of the railroad without a crossbar and helped the greedy humans who wanted to sell their goods in a dirty way.
The man in the coat just disappeared after saying that. Leaving me still in confusion. Ah, I better follow his advice and walk towards a light so glare, that I should close my eyes in order to penetrate that bright light.
Slowly the glare dimmed but my sense of hearing heard a loud cry, I don't know who was crying. I blinked and slowly opened my eyes. Samar I saw two people holding my hands. From her stature I knew her, but why did both of them cry sobbing like this.
"Lan, lovely," call me soft.
The two women looked up at me. I don't know why my head is so dizzy when I wake up.
"Hanna, are you conscious? How, does anything hurt?" Wulan seemed to wipe her tears with her arms. Beautiful was the same as directly wiping tears with the back of her hand.
"Mother Hanna, she's conscious. It was beautiful really afraid that Sister Hanna would leave us," said Indah while hugging.
"What is this really about? Why is everyone crying again, where are we now? Didn't we just eat?"
"Let me clear what happened, Han. Beautiful can ask for help call Ridwan, because he had a message to be called if Hanna was conscious."
Beautiful soon passed out, meanwhile Wulan told me why I was here. According to Wulan I was in the bathroom for a long time. He followed me out of concern for me. Sure enough, I was found unconscious in the bathroom. My body has a high fever, my pulse is also weakening. They rushed me to the hospital to be treated by the doctor immediately.
"God! I'm sorry, I always trouble you. I myself am surprised since living in the bloody index always happens strange things even though during in Ungaran, I have never experienced anything beyond reason like..."
My words stopped when Ridwan came. "Who, where's sick?" The man's hand rubbed my cheek gently.
"none. Just a little dizzy. Sorry I keep bothering you."
"It is my duty to protect you. Let's wait for my mother to recover in a moment, then I'll come propose to you and marry you. So I can take care of you for 24 hours. I promise."
My heart warms to hear the words of the person who has just been my lover for a day. Although the fact that his promise will not be possible in the near future but still the man who has managed to conquer my heart in fact managed to make my heart flowery.
"In the meantime the doctors and nurses will visit here. You tell the doctor honestly. Don't cover it up if it hurts, say it hurts, okay?"
"But I'm going home, Yang. I don't like the smell of hospitals. It reminds me of the day my mother died." My tears trickle down every time I remember the toughest woman in the world.
"Well, I'll talk to the doctor who handled you, hopefully he can let you go home today. If for example the doctor insisted on hospitalization, as much as possible I will make you comfortable here." Ridwan kissed my forehead gently to make Wulan and Indah beat a little tight.
"Why are you two? His throat is itchy, isn't it? Sourced there with kedondong seeds."
"Basst the burik lizard, try it yourself first. Your throat is safe not when scratched using kedondong seeds. Indiscriminate by the way!"
"You know what the hell!"
"Brand knows. Hanna's mommy your mamas like naughty." It was beautiful to complain to me like a child.
"Well, don't bother Beautiful. Poor him."
I kept laughing until a doctor came along with a nurse. After talking for a long time, the doctor let me go home. Yes, even though he had to fight with his mouth first, he allowed me to go home.
It was almost morning, we decided to take Indah first so that her parents would not worry. About the bike, let me pick him up later at work.
"L-anu..." My mouth was choked when I heard the offer of Bu Yuni, her mother Indah.
"Let Hanna be there. This woman must indeed reveal a great secret regarding that place."
My eyes turned to look at the old woman who came out still wearing the face. "Mom, how's it going? Healthy, right?" ask my grandmother Indah while kissing the reverent hand full of wrinkles.
"Alhamdulillah. Anyway, Nduk, you must be strong to face the reality of life. It will be exposed to things that have been covered by the world for decades. Strengthen your heart and your steps. Go to the Gusti of God."
I just nodded with the wit from the always wise woman. I remember very well when I met Intan for the first time, he immediately mentioned about betrayal, in fact there is a great betrayal being done Intan. Now Grandma is talking about a big secret that later only I can uncover, whether it's a secret about what.
Grandma was seen smiling broadly when she looked at Wulan.
"Your heart is beautiful even more beautiful than your face. Nduk, every thing that is determined becomes your right even though it is currently in the hands of others. He will remain yours and come back to you no matter what, he will go home. However, if he never comes back then you deserve better." Grandma said as she rubbed Wulan's hair.
Grandmother's delicate face, turned so sharp when she saw my lover.
"Who is this, Han?"
"He is Mas Ridwan, Mbah. He's Hanna's boyfriend. Yesterday he was here when he wanted to take us to the village. Has uti forgotten?" Lovely hurriedly replied before I spoke while raising a smile.
"Forget. I thought he was your future husband, Nduk. It turns out Hanna's candidate. Then why is there..." Grandma's words stopped later. It seems that he had thought hard that it could be seen from the way he knitted his eyebrows and looked at Ridwan a little differently.
"Good morning, Grandma." Ridwan kisses grandma's hands.
"Yes, may his body be healthy, strong, and healthy. All your business is made easy."
"Amin, thank you, Grandma. Make up your prayers."
After that, Grandma immediately went into the room again. Me and Wulan also Ridwan immediately say goodbye because the sun has risen in the east there. We also need to rest after going through a lot.
"Yes, you get some rest. Don't forget this is eaten. I have to go give her the medicine first. I don't want something like yesterday to happen again."
"I'm sorry, Yang. Because I often trouble you. You're getting more burden because of my presence."
The man put his index finger on my lips to keep me quiet. "Whoa, I'm happy to take care of you. You don't have to feel like a burden to me. Because I'm happy to be involved in your life. I'll go back first. Don't forget to rest."
Before leaving, the man rubbed my forehead at a glance. "Quick break. I love you, Beib."
"I love you too."
After Ridwan's departure, Wulan continued to tease me. "Well, I think I should get ready to find a new roommate."
"Why? I don't want to be with you anymore, do you?" I put on a face that I consider my own friend and sister.
"You guys are going to get married soon." Wulan said while chuckling, meanwhile my legs and Wulan walked up the stairs to get to the room and rest.
"Just pray, Lan. Even though Ridwan and I have not thought in that direction at all in the near future. He promised he'd get married when his mother stabilized everything."
"Why is Ridwan's mother the same?"
I explained to Wulan about the state of her mother Ridwan after she promised to keep this secret and did not discuss about her mother Ridwan especially when there was Ridwan in our midst.
"Well, you don't know, Lan."
Wulan and I ate the nasi uduk that we bought in front of the clinic while talking about many things including what I experienced while unconscious.
"It looks like the man in the coat shows how he died until he eventually became a sell-off in the stall. I also know why he's not in the dance troupe."
"Han, when did those ghosts stop bothering you?"
I don't know, I can't answer Wulan's questions either. If I could choose, I wouldn't want a life that just keeps dealing with them.
"Han, if the man in the coat is not in the dance troupe because it is already in the possession of the ghost of the railway crossing. Then, what is it that causes Gayatri not to be there either? Isn't he wearing a powder pellet too?"
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