
Anger and vengeance are like double-edged knives. He will hurt others as well as himself. Not only does it hurt but it destroys. Like Gayatri who was finally destroyed, she left with an unsettled soul.
I let out a long sigh, still imagining the incident I saw in the warehouse. Gayatri's fear that was clearly reflected through the tears that flowed made me feel without tears as well.
"Han, are you okay? Why are you crying?"
I was in a hurry to wipe away these tears. I can't possibly tell you about the horrible thing I just saw in June. "Hanna's okay. It was just fitting in the warehouse there was a lot of dust flying so there was sneaking into the eyes. These eyes are itching and sore. "I rubbed my eyes acting as if these eyes were twinkling. My eyes are fine.
"Try here, I blow up the trapped dust immediately."
That thirty-year-old woman blew my eyes. In the third blow I pretended to have lost the dust.
"Recured, is it healed?"
"Yes, thank you, Ma'am."
My job is almost done just put the report on the computer so that it can be checked by the office. The bell of the break sign rings loud and deafening. A piece of the night breeze like it's been a friend to us every night shift worker.
"Han, how are you in this factory, right?"
"Reply, Ma'am. Working in a big garment like this is not as scary as the stories of the people out there. Here the guy's fine."
"What do people say about our factory?" Ma'am Jun looked at me, Beautiful also looked at me making me go awry.
"A-anu, said my friends who have worked here. This place is like a rogues' nest. Just a little wrong, the whole zoo. If it's not mentally strong then it won't last long."
"Keep what do you think after a few days of working here? Are the rumors true or not?"
Of course I shook my head, not out of fear but indeed from the beginning I entered, never any harsh words came out. If there is a mistake then the boss will rebuke it appropriately but if it continues to make the same mistake the boss does not hesitate to scold even though it is in front of the public. However, if the worker is still like that and does not change a little, of course, HRD does not hesitate to remove the worker from the company.
"Everyone was treated according to his own actions. Being angry means something is wrong with him. The key is to do all the work well. Wherever we are, we must be good at blending in and carrying ourselves."
I agree with Mbak Jun's remarks, wherever we are we have to be able to adapt to the environment. Ma'am Juni and I are also back in silence while enjoying the last break at the sift night.
"Ndah, I'm going to the toilet first. Wait for me yeah, don't go into the building first."
I chose the toilet beside the musala instead of having to go into the building myself. Ever since there was a woman similar to me coming out of the mirror at that time, I did feel a little scared when I was there. I wash my hands and I wash my face to remove the sticky feeling of sweat. As I was about to exit the bathroom, I could clearly see that a black figure was darting rapidly in front of me. The figure disappeared in the spinning building. There is a sense of wanting to follow him, why from the first I seemed to be interested in the building that is always in complete darkness.
"Han, don't daydream!" I stared at the owner of the voice that warned me. Apparently Ridwan also just came out of the bathroom of the man next door.
"No, I was just... Ah, nevermind. I'm going to go ahead first. Beautiful and Miss June is waiting for me." My hurry passed, not wanting to linger near her. I don't want to be disappointed if it's true that Lovely said that this guy in front of me was just bragging about his feelings for me. I don't want to respond to seduction and love words that are just sweet in the mouth.
Just a few steps, Ridwan spread his hand to block my steps. I walked to the right, he shifted to the right, and vice versa.
"I want to go to a beautiful place, you step aside. Don't stop me like this!" pissed me.
"Don't be angry, baby. It will be more cute." In my eyes, the laughs are not funny. I started to hate that sweet word.
"Dear, I have a name. My name is Hanna and not my darling. I'm going to go!"
I deliberately spoke in a high tone, hoping Ridwan realized I was not a cheap woman who easily melted just because lulled sweet seduction. Ridwan seemed surprised by the ketus attitude I showed. He lowered his hand and slightly brushed his body away as if he was giving me a way. I passed, left him. However, just a few steps away, Ridwan pulled my hand. In her body, I had thrashed but the gaze of her eagle eyes made me silent. His heartbeat was clear, because my height was only the chest of his field.
"Listen to my heartbeat. You know, Han, these two days of piling up work has forced me to hold back my longings for you because my time is drained for work. Don't you feel the same way, Hanna? Why is it that when we meet you change as if you want to stay away from me."
"I-I was trying to stay away from you so that I couldn't hurt you. So let me go!"
"Why?"
Ridwan took off his embrace and then lifted my chin, the look in his eyes making me blush. "Who said that? You ask Mbak Jun or Bu Ning, or anyone, especially the old workers. They know how I am. I like to joke, but my feelings for you are serious, Han."
These eyes keep looking at me sharply. Anu did not find a lie there, only sincerity in the eagle's eyes.
"You believe me, don't you?"
"Eitherway. I'm confused as to who I should put that trust in." Slowly I let go of Ridwan's embrace. "Wan, I'm going first."
Without me caring anymore about his call, I continued to step forward towards the front of the building. From behind I heard the sound of footsteps like a man running, whether or not it was Ridwan. I looked back. Apparently it wasn't Ridwan who was behind me. I could see a girl running fast, her sweat pouring down her body. The closer I get to realizing who he is. He was a Gayatri with a part of his face blistered. He was chased by a partially chipped-faced dancer. I also thought I had met that dancer. I remember, I met them while lost in the invisible village.
"Gayatrii!" call me out loud but Gayatri keeps running and doesn't hear me. Right in the spinning building, he fell from a rock. The dancer, half of her face peeled off, poked her shawl at Gayatri's neck and strangled her. As Gayatri's breath began to sting, the cloth was taken off. The fabric that was released should fall to the ground. The cloth that snared the neck of Gayatri, flew while carrying the girl who was struggling and then coiled on the mango tree, where the kunti ganjen lived. It was as if Gayatri had committed suicide.
"Gayatrii! Help me!"
Suddenly from behind me, a man came and immediately climbed up the tree and cut off the shawl. Gayatri's already weak body and almost lost her life fell to the ground, fortunately she was hanging not too high. The man who came like a hero immediately embraced Gayatri's body which was still limp. With tears in his eyes, the man said that Gayatri open her eyes and promised to make amends, she would marry Gayatri as her responsibility.
"Gayatri, I love you sincerely. It wasn't my guilt for hurting you back then. Please, don't hurt yourself for a misstep like me. Punish me, even if you have to kill me, but don't torture yourself like this."
I looked at the man's face, I was surprised that he was one of the three men who took away the sanctity of Gayatri. I want to be close and make sure Gayatri's breathing is stable. However, just a few steps someone touched my shoulder.
"Han, what are you doing here?" Apparently Ridwan was already behind me.
"That's it, I want to see how things are. I have to help her "
"Help who?"
"That-that!" My hand pointed under the mango tree where Gayatri fell.
"There's nobody, Han. Who are you helping?"
I hesitated to answer Ridwan's question because after I saw him again, Gayatri and the man were gone. How could I forget Gayatri was dead and maybe it was just a piece of the picture in the past.
"I want to help the fallen mango. Dear, if it is so redundant," I replied accordingly.
Ridwan seemed to scratch his head, maybe he was confused by my words as if the origin of the sound alone.
"Yes, I'm going back to the building first. Scared Beautiful and Ma'am Jun looking."
"I'll take you back, I'm afraid you'll be dumb because the mangoes are falling again."
I walked with Ridwan. Every word that Ridwan spoke I did not ignore because my mind was still imagining Gayatri. In front of the building is waiting for Indah and Mbak June.
"Where are you guys from? You, Han, go to the toilet and meet the cypress," said Mbak Jun.
"Bu-not so the story, Ma'am. I'm the same she was meeting her accidentally, keep going..."
"Here you go, come on, let's go to bed!" Ma'am Jun pulled my hand inside leaving the man. Beautiful looking from behind.
When I lay down my body with cardboard, Beautiful said to me with a sour face.
"Mbak Hanna, yesterday it was beautiful to say do not be close and do not believe the same Mas Ridwan. Lovely don't want Miss Hanna to be hurt by a playboy like her! If later Hanna ngeyel continued to be hurt by him, do not look for Indah to vent because Indah has reminded!"
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