Love on the verge of suffering
Feel Alienated

"Ifa, where are you going?" zara asked confusedly, when she saw Zifa again carrying a suitcase, and a bag, as well as some of Zara's needs later as long as she was deposited in a special foundation, to do therapy.

Zifa whose heart was again weak even more so she had to go back to parting with her only family member. Although what happened to Zara was for Zara's sake, and all, because there was hope from Zara later all the mysteries that happened to her family were clear, although all was not as easy as Zifa's shadow.

But this is his toughest ordeal, Zifa must be strong parting with his brother. Zifa actually has a weak nature, it is easier to depend on others, that is why he seems to lose his strength, when one by one the people he considers the source of his strength leave him. Mother, Zara and Kemal so that in his heart Zifa felt afraid to live this all. Afraid that later he would actually do wrong in stepping, and make him who should be a spear of strength for the mission was actually killed and of course Zara would be affected.

The burden of his mind that makes Zifa easily panic, angry and often excessive anxiety, while he has not done it. Psychiatrist, Kemal asked Zifa to come to a psychiatrist or if not a pessimist, such as Mother Anna, to consult to understand her own nature and eliminate the excessive fear, so that Zifa can be calmer to control her feelings. Well, not only does Zara have to be treated, Zifa will also be treated like her brother.

"Sister wants to stay with Mom. Brother wants to, if you stay with Mom?" ask Zifa with a lebut.

Both of Zara's eyes immediately sparkled, when she heard her mother's name. "Mother, Ifa?"

"Yes, I'll stay with Mom, and Ifa will go to school" Zifa replied gently and hoped that her brother would know and understand why Zifa could make the decision to leave Zara at the foundation, not taking care of her own by taking a nanny to watch over her brother.

"Mau Ifa," whined Zara who instead seemed impatient to live with Mother Anna who was considered by Zara she was his mother who had died.

Zifa smiled wryly. "Even now that Zara is comfortable with Mother Anna, will my name be excluded from the memory of Brother Zara?" lirih Zifa, feeling sadness and grief, for fear that her brother will forget her over time and be replaced with his new friends.

"Sister, listen to Ifa well, (Zifa clutched Zara's face and their eyes met each other) But later if you live with Mother, and Ifa went to school, and ifa went to school, Brother Zara don't forget Ifa well. Ifa dear to Kak Zara," Zifa looked at both of Zara's eyeballs where Zara already looked so happy.

But the expression to Zifa's mound was either heeded by Zara or not, on her brother's face which looked just a happy smile. It was as if Zara was more focused on her heart that would meet Anna's mother, not listening to Zifa's words.

"Astagah, why hasn't this heart been so bad yah. What if later I come to the foundation and I am no longer remembered by my own brother. Is this the punishment of everything I've done to my brother all this time. I often snapped and made a brother standby, "Zifa's inner self while lifting the bag containing Zara's personal belongings, and taking her to the car, where Kemal was already in the car.

"Yuk Mal Street," said Zifa with a face that looks moody, while Zara actually looks happy. Kemal looked at the look on Zifa's face from the glass of the middle sponge, and noticed the face of the girl he loved.

"No" Zifa replied briefly, but it was precisely from that answer that she was actually telling him that she was having a problem, but she was reluctant to share it, with Kemal. Maybe he thought holding it in his heart was enough.

Kemal even leaned against the back of the chair and threw a rough breath. "I'm not a psychologist, and I don't really know that science either, but based on my experience. You are thinking about something, but I don't know why you want to close it and be okay. Try to eliminate that feeling, because however we need someone to express our feelings and at least our hearts are relieved and not stuck anymore." Kemal stared straight at the deserted streets.

"But not everything we tell about will be safe in the hands of others, many others who actually divulge what is our personal problem, and let it become public consumption. Add to the problem of the fall," Zifa snorted as she cast her gaze out the window.

"That happens if you vent to the same friends and even friends. Not everyone who is close to you likes everything you have, there is actually he does not like you, but still maintains a good relationship, and it's as if he's your friend, and when you tell him this guy will tell it to someone else. So next. Unlike if you tell with a secret skiater you are safe, and you also get the solution." Kemal advised zifa not because Kemal was an expert, but because Kemal had once felt mentally disturbed, depressed, wanted to make contact with his mother but did not dare.

But everything she says is always against her conscience. So that he in himself is at war with himself. As a result, it became a temprament. Angry with people at home, when at school or outside the house is his opportunity to remove chunks of frustration that he brought from his home.

Maybe for some people it is natural, but Kemal felt that it was not like that he felt it was unnatural, because more and more days just every mamihnya good just a light advice he will misinterpret it, and add to the anger of others, and so on. Until the theme introduced the figure of Anna's mother. Which can change the nature of Kemal to be this wise.

The man can now process his emotions so that he can fool his mamih, with its sweet nature in front of the mamih despite the rebel behind, but without hurting others.

"I'm going to a psychiatrist. But will I not be stamped by a madman? If my schoolmates knew I was going to a psychiatrist?" lirih Zifa's.

"Care what they are with our mentality. Who knows mentally we are not okay just us. We have two hands to use to cover our ears, keep looking straight ahead with our goals. The grapevine or the talk of people is just a sweetener to live this life. Precisely if there are no scathing words from those people. Our lives are flat, there are no challenges," kekeh Kemal.

Naturally Zifa was afraid at such a stamp. Because indeed for most of our society the existence of psychiatrists or psychologists is still associated with people who come to check themselves into that place.

Without them knowing the psychiatrist also handles the symptoms of anxiety that may later effect will make sufferers less confident and moody. Actually this profession is most important in everyday life, or healing a disease but many people still misinterpret. Psychiatrists are also often involved in the treatment of people with severe or deadly diseases. Because keeping the mental to stay calm and strong is the cure of all drugs.

That's why Kemal really wants to be a specialist doctor in psychiatry, or if he doesn't become a psychologist, he is very grateful, but his wish and ideals have not been seen whether it can be achieved or just an ideal that will be hung without being achieved. Because all of that is again contrary to the wishes of mamih and his family. Even to just learn the science, Kemal had to hide.