Love on the verge of suffering
Zara's Desire

In the morning, Zara woke up and was standing in front of the window. Maybe he was going to leave the room, but because Zifa's door was locked and she was standing in front of the window, waiting for Zifa who was still sleeping in the morning. Maybe Zifa will wake up later that day all because last night either he chatted with Kemal and Mother Anna until late at night. Zara stroked her already bloated stomach. Perhaps in his subconscious, he realized that in his stomach there was a life.

This morning he was a little calm and did not immediately cry asking for food when his stomach was very sore. However, the girl with the limitations still remembers what her mother said last night that she should not be naughty, pity the cape Zifa. The words were still very much Zara remembered so that now she had better endure her hunger for pity to wake Zifa who was sleeping.

"Aren't you awake?" asked Zifa who was still half her life gathered while her hands were rubbing her eyelids.

Zara turned to her sister when she heard her sister who was awake. A smile as usual always sprung from the lips of the woman. It was as if he did not feel sadness but in Zara's heart he also felt sorrow far from Zifa all because he could not express it, so it only became a huge rock hut residing in his heart, and he always covered it with a gentle smile.

Zifat felt his brother this morning was very different as if he was moody, sad different from usual. Although Zara usually there is also crying and also angry but after that she will be ordinary just to cry Zara like not expressing sadness on her face. "Big brother why?" ask Zifa, maybe her brother wants to say what makes her sad.

"Silver is hungry" said Zara, who has not been able to express what was happening in her heart. Zifa chuckled when she heard her brother's words.

"Sorry, Zifa, because Zifa woke up in the afternoon, she was starving. Why don't you wake up Zifa?" zifa asked as she used her hand to call her brother to sit next to her. Zara hesitantly stepped out and sat down beside Zifa.

"No food you want to eat?" zifa asked, maybe her sister wanted to eat something, he will buy it as a gift because his brother is always there for him and he also wants to pamper him mumpung he has enough money so it feels like taking the sheet of money given by the kemal it does not feel like it'll make him wrong. Only once did he waste the money to buy the food his brother wanted.

Zara looks silent and then looks down, because she is afraid that Zifa will be angry what if she says what she wants, because it looks like Zifa will be angry and sad after knowing what food Zara wants.

Zifa knew that Zara wanted to eat, but was probably afraid that her sister would be angry or even have no money. Zara had always held back her desire because she used to be a mother who did not have the money to buy her what she wanted. 

"Let's say what you want, Ifa must buy it, anyway also make the ponakan Ifa too," said Zifa while expanding her smile so that Zara is not afraid to say what she wants.

Zara again lowered her head somehow she still did not dare to say it with a thought that would later make Zifa angry.

"Sister, don't be afraid Zifa will definitely buy you what you want. Zifa has money and you don't have to worry about money." Zifa patiently and softly spoke up tried to persuade her brother to say what he wanted.

Zara lowered her head and put her fingers and lips in a bite, she was struggling to uncover the sense of what was preventing her from expressing her desire. Zifa let him until Zara can reveal and defeat the thing that made him upset, and can say what he wants.

Ifa's face immediately changed as if she wanted to curse Zara. And the girl looked down again. He was ready when Zifa would scold him, but it was indeed the food that Zara wanted to eat. Even in his dreams he often dreams of snacks with sweet taste, and also savory from the cream, making Zara like it.

Zifa did not answer anything else, she immediately got up from her bed and opened the door leaving Zara who was still inside there. While Zara shed her tears, she knew she shouldn't say what she wanted, because it would make her sister angry now her job is to apologize to her sister.

"Zifa, let's have breakfast! I've bought food for you guys," said Kemal who turned out to have woken up and even look fresh and tidy.

Zifa smiled, "I want to go to the bathroom first," Zifa replied, while applying to the bathroom.

Long enough Zifa in the bathroom. "Mom what's with me, why can't I follow Mom's patience. Why do I always get angry from Brother Zara. Teach Zifa to have a sense of patience like Mom," she says in her bathroom. Maybe with him complaining to his mother, he will be even more patient.

"Maybe this is a test for me, brother Zara as if coming to give me a test," Zifa said, after she felt calmer now she came out of the bathroom.

While Zara in the room sobbed sadly, she wanted to apologize but was afraid that Zifa would get angry again.

"Where's Zara?" asked Kemal, as soon as Zifa came and sat down before him.

"There is in the room," Zifa replied softly, her angry face still clearly visible.

"Sister Zara makes you angry again? Why?" kemal asked, maybe he could help her.

"I'm with him again, did I ask him what he wanted to eat? Maybe he wants something like that again, so ifa again there is money Ifa will buy, and it turns out brother Zifa wants to eat birthday cake. He's like he's saying I'm Mal, he knows I hate cakes, I hate birthdays, I hate celebrations, but why does he even want it all" Zifa sobbed faintly, his red eyes and reddened face from restraining his anger were visible from there.

Kemal got up from his seat on the sofa of Zifa, and now he sits near Ifa. He used it to stroke Zifa's shoulder. "This is your test, but you also get a great reward from this test. I don't know how traumatize you with birthday events, but as long as you know, your mother died it's not because of birthday curses, celebrations, or birthday cakes. It all goes back to fate, it's your destiny, and it just so happens that everything happens right on your birthday, so you don't get mad well, you don't get upset with your brother, you know, he's not wrong he doesn't know you hate birthday cakes. If you are rich gini continue to pity your brother is also sad, if his mind is disturbed continue with these things even later in difficult to follow teraphi." Kemal tried to advise Zifa, because that was all he could do.

Zifa again sobbed, his mind was still unstable, so often provoked trivial things that Zara did. Zara can only depend on her. If Zifa had such unstable thoughts how will she be able to take her revenge or even she who drifted and drowned with all her plans?