AFTER THE DIVORCE
Chapter 70: Sorry

...“Because even though the word sorry has been said, but the wounds that already exist cannot possibly heal just like that.”...

Chapter 70: Sorry

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Although Keinya did bring some of his belongings following Rainbow to Khatrin's house, Keinya only stayed for some time without actually moving. At the very least, Keinya did that while Yuan was out of town, where Keinya also secretly had the goal of monitoring Kaiya's progress.

Which makes Khatrin inexhaustible, on every occasion even while eating, Yuan so routinely contact Keinya and Rainbow. They always do video phones where the Rainbow is so cheerful and responds strongly to the Yuan. Different when Khatrin tried to steal the attention of the boy who certainly still inherited the gene from Khatrin. Rainbows really do not want to follow or just respond to Khatrin. 

Surprisingly, the Rainbow just did not want to follow Khatrin, because when Philips invited, Rainbow also wanted to.

“Oma evil anyway, yes. So Rainbow don't want to come!”

“That little boy can't be lied to, honey. A child is like a very sensitive heart. If we are sincere, even though the distance separates, young children can still feel our sincerity.”

Such words are also often thrown from Keinya and Philips. Both are so good at insinuating Khatrin.

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“He still doesn't want to get out of the room too?” keinya asked in amazement at Khatrin.

Khatrin sighed with her face lowered.

“Strictly why, Mi? Just break down the room if Kainya does not want to go out too. If only to me and Rainbow Mami can be firm, Mami has the heart! Even Rainbow until it hurts because it has to be far from Yuan, why is Mami to Kai instead soft?” Keinya could not stand it. Four days of his move, even Yuan would come also not allowed by Khatrin, but on Kaiya his mother was always submissive.

“How can Yuan and I change Kaiya, while the ones that have to be changed have no intention to change even Mami to support?” His chest started to hurt. With that vexing vexation, it passed from before Khatrin.

Keinya ran up the stairs to his room. He left the Rainbow on the lower floor in a toy-filled crib where the Rainbow's forehead was still adorned with plaster of hot-descending compresses. A reality that has become a striking sight, since their move to the Khatrin house. Since Keinya and Rainbow must be far from Yuan.

“To him, let Kaiya calm down first!” khatrin shouted from the front of the lowest stairs.

Keinya did not heed Khatrin's reprimand. His right hand that clenched fixed he hit on the door of Kaiya's room.

“Kai, open, Kai! Still don't want to open, too? When are you going to torture rainbows? Not enough of you to torture me and Yuan? Just because you hurt me, because no one recognized you? Just because of that?!” Keinya continued to shake the coffee door of Kaiya's room. “If you don't want to be seen as me, you should have told them. That easy!”

Khatrin walked in haste. “To him, already, enough. Don't do this. This way you will not be able to solve the problem!”

“Then tell me how to solve this problem, Mi? Mami thinks only Mami loves children? I love my son too, Mi! Rainbows are still babies, I don't even know what Rainbows feel. And Kaiya? She's like Mami! Selfish! Don't know yourself!” Keinya looked at Khatrin with great disappointment.

“Mami choose love! After twenty-seven years of abandoning me, I thought my meeting with Mami would make me happy and could gain Mami's affection. But what is it? Mami only loves Kaiya!”

“Here I am the real victim! Rainbow, let alone Yuan!” He could no longer hold everything. Not only tears and emotions, but also his belief in Khatrin. 

“Better I remain a banished child than I should make people who sincerely love me hurt. Son, the man who is so sincere to me, they all appreciate me much more!” Keinya's still explosive.

“If Mami stays like this, I'm willing to never exist in Mami's life. I'd rather have no family than my son suffer even more!” sternly Keinya who returned passed with a step much faster than before.

“To him, Mami is like this to you because Kanya doesn't have what you have!”

“So Mami wishes I had nothing? Sorry, Mi. I can't. I have a big responsibility on the rainbow. Even if I don't have a rainbow yet, for God's sake, I'd rather never know who I am than have to live in a restraint like this!”

“Sorry because I had to be born from Mommy. May Mami be happy with the way Mami lives!”

“Don't go and stay here, Kei!”

For the most part, Keinya ignored Khatrin. He immediately approached the rainbow and carried it. He packed his luggage, which was still in the suitcase, although Khatrin had repeatedly asked him to arrange it in the closet. Or at least let ART there to structure it. However, Keinya, who had been suspicious of Khatrin from the beginning, remained with his decision. In this house, his own mother's house, Keinya prefers to be a guest.

Keinya stepped up, carrying the Rainbow while pulling his large suitcase. When he came out of his room which was indeed on the lower floor and happened to be straight with Kaiya's room, he was surprised by Kaiya's whereabouts. His clothes look so pale. Her lips were always polished by Kai's red lipstick, dryly chapped with some fresh and dried blood that looked so striking.

“Don't leave here. And don't be mad at Mami.” Kai's tone of voice sounded very floating. The woman seemed to be learning a foreign language that to pronounce it was still far from true.

“I don't care!” firmly Keinya with a tone that was also like he was spelling.

Keinya passed leaving Kaiya following Khatrin who stood at the bottom of the stairs while carrying a tray filled with food, as the beginning of their debate.

“I beg you not to go. Two days ago I would have almost died by suicide had Mami not come!” hold Kai still standing in place.

Keinya who reflexively turned his body looked at Kai with trembling eyes. A sense of disbelief as well as pity radiated from his gaze. “I don't care either. You are an adult and know what is right or vice versa. If indeed you always feel dissatisfied with what you get, please look at yourself before you blame everything that happens to you to others!” Keinya said that with emotions returning overflowing. “You are not an angel, Kai .. Even an angel can be wrong let alone you?” tears rolled back over Keinya's cheeks. “Logicya, Kai. I truly love you the simplest understanding ... Yuan, had he really chosen you, he couldn't have possibly chased me this far. And if the reason you hate me is because you feel like you're just my shadow, you're smart, a fool can explain who he is, let alone you!”

Kaiya looked down sadly as her body rolled and sat on the floor. “I'm sorry, Kei. Please forgive me! But please don't leave here! Let me make amends for my mistakes! Let me make this family completely intact!” her crying. “For God's sake I promise, I will never disturb your relationship and Yuan again! Mi, Mami is the witness, Mi! I'm serious, for God's sake ..”

Hearing the cries of Kainya who thrashed, Keinya so heartless.

“I beg you, Kei ..” cried Kai while trying to move on. He crawled long enough because of it.

Finding Kainya struggling to stand up, Khatrin immediately pulled her tray over to the piano table right next to her. Then he ran to help Kaiya stand up. Kainya stepped forward to Keinya. And when it was in front of his twin, Kainya immediately gathered to clench Keinya's knees.

Kainya continued to sob even though Keinya had already helped her wipe away the tears. Finding that, Khatrin could not control her tears to not flow. It's just, tears this time because he felt very happy because finally to his two children want to open their hearts. This was what he expected from his two daughters without any misunderstanding let alone envy. Not to mention, as a mother, Khatrin was eager to wish her children the best. He always tried to understand his children and what he should do. Although for Keinya's business, she also could not take it off just like that especially if considering Keinya's status as a single mother. 

Khatrin does not want the status that has burdened Keinya, will make Keinya more underestimated, if people know Keinya lives next door to Yuan even they often spend time together, if they know Keinya, they are not yet bound in a clear bond.

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“Why should care about the word people, Mi?” keinya insisted when Khatrin expressed his reasons. “When I was sick, when I was down, when I really didn't know what to do, people's words didn't help me at all let alone solve my problems or our problems.” Keinya said firmly no different when he was leading a meeting or explaining the details of things to his client.

They have sat on the sofa of the living room where the Rainbow box, on the same sofa as the longest sofa there. Keinya sat in the middle while holding Pelangi, while Kainya and Khatrin on his left right. Naturally, Keinya who was in the middle became the focus of attention there.

“So, when Mami kept asking me to wait for Kaiya, it felt like I wanted to go berserk. Where can Yuan or I change Kaiya, while Kinya alone has no intention to change?” Keinya back nagging because carried away the atmosphere earlier. His emotions turned out to be only dim for a few moments when he remembered the madness of his twin, his emotions reawakened.

When Khatrin reflexively patted Keinya's back, Kainya as the defendant there immediately looked down regretfully while apologizing.

“But you are sincere, right, Kai?” ask Keinya who suddenly felt suspicious. How not, for years Kainya lied just because of his own stupidity!

Khatrin lost her expression. The fear also could not bear, making him become agitated that second as well.

“For God's sake, Kei. I'm really sorry. I swear, I am ready to accept the punishment if in fact, my regrets and apologies to you guys, just pretend,” Kunya said while holding Keinya's hand.

“You don't have to be insecure let alone constantly confine yourself, Kai. What you have to do now has changed. Show that you are seriously changing. Start by doing more positive things.” Khatrin looked anxiously at Kaiya.

Kaiya nodded with the sadness that still accompanied her.

“Remember, life becomes you, not me let alone the shadows!” timpal Keinya is still upset.

“Iya ..” Kaina sighed softly. Tired Raut still gripped him who two days ago tried to end his life by hanging himself on the bathroom door frame. Given that, he was really even more ashamed of himself having a very narrow way of thinking.

Because Rainbow was crying again, Keinya resigned.

“This is the same Oma,” said Khatrin who still does not change the state of the Rainbow for the better.

“We phone Papa ... Papa phone, yes ...” Keinya pulled out the phone from the side pocket of the pants worn.

“Isn't Yuan not his father? Already, do not get used to the dependence on Yuan!” Khatrin is still trying to persuade the rainbow.

“But Yuan loves Rainbow more than anyone, Mi!” reply Keinya a little sanction. An upset always comes with it if anyone is concerned about the Yuan and Rainbow relationship, whoever it is.

“Where is his real father?” khatrin. “You haven't told Mami, Kei.”

Discussing Athan, Keinya's mood went bad again, because all the wounds inflicted by the man were really deep. 

Everything Athan did was imprinted without being able to completely disappear from Keinya's memory. Because even though the word sorry has been said, but the wounds that already exist cannot possibly heal just like that. There will be scars, even severe trauma. At least, in order to find a safe position so as not to be constantly upset, Keinya better reduce communication with Athan if not for a very important affair.

“From the beginning his intention was not good, Mi. Although he was sincere, but he conspired with his cheating to destroy my business. And after the disgrace of his affair was exposed, I do not know how it is,” reply Keinya try as relaxed as possible. At least he should be grateful for his release from Athan, God gave him a Yuan that many times better.

“Unloaded how?” Khatrin was curious.

“Women are cheaters. In addition to having many husbands, she has also become a fugitive police officer,” said Kainya while rising from her seat. “Do not discuss the people we do not expect, because usually it can be a common thread they come back to us,” he added while crossing.

Keinya shuddered in horror while Khatrin immediately interrupted, “amit-amit,” while tapping his head.

“About your house, belongings, have you been running?” connect Kaiya.

Keinya back shudder. “Yuan asked me to forget it. After all, God has given me more than I should have. Including the happiness that Rainbow never got before, before my divorce and Athan.”

“One more, Mi. Never have a match!” kaiya suddenly.

“Mami no matchmaking for you, or you,” reply Khatrin confused.

“But Ben is busy calling me! He also sent a lot of messages! Just be careful if Mami or Papi just match me. Anyway, any of you who betrothed me, or received an arranged marriage, means that person who has to undergo an arranged marriage!” saut Kainya was annoyed even to the point of scuffling. His two hands clenched in front of his chest.

“If Mami who received means Mami who married the same man. And if Papi accepts as well. I think this is a very good idea!” timpal. Not long ago he said, the phone ring came in on the phone that was in his grasp and it was from Athan, immediately making him shudder.

Kaiya and Khatrin compactly asked through their curious gazes.

“Athan ...,” said Keinya reluctantly replied and gave his phone to Khatrin.

“Let Mami take care of!” khatrin was immediately enraged.

Kaiya and Keinya eye-coded reflexes. They can be sure, Khatrin will scold Athan all-out.

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