AFTER THE DIVORCE
Chapter 26: Silent (Revised)

“Luka and happy have the same portion. They cannot be separated like poles in a magnet.”

Chapter 26: The Silent

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The thing that made Yuan in disbelief was when he found Keinya behind the door of his apartment, when he opened the door. Even by itself, a sincere smile graced Yuan's face along with a hot hue that instantly struck his cheek. The man is sure, his cheeks until red blush, due to the happiness that is being shared.

A nervous Keinya immediately said, “I lost my house key and seemed to be left in your room.”

Yuan who was still smiling, looked at Keinya lovingly. “Hopefully your home key never met.”

Yuan's reply left Keinya shocked. But he immediately broke through the man while saying, “I will look for him.” Keinya gradually glanced while puffing his chest without being able to hide the nervous even tense that immediately mastered it.

Keinya's tension grew even more, when he heard Yuan's quick steps following him, shortly after the man closed the apartment door. Keinya deliberately sped up his pace despite Yuan asking him to give the Rainbow to the man.

“Give him to me. Pity if it has to be carried on.”

“Nothing. Just get your job done because I'll put Rainbow to sleep, if it takes time to find the key.”

Yuan ran and blocked Keinya from entering his room, standing at the door. “First, don't look for your house keys. Let's just say your house key is gone, and you have no choice but to stay here.”

“You're pretty always with me and say what you want. I'll give it all to you.”

Yuan's gaze was completely filled with sincerity. That made Keinya pull him over. However, the man actually took over the Rainbow from Keinya sling.

“And second ... besides always missing your mama, I also always miss Rainbow.”

Yuan looked anxious at the rainbow, then fondled the boy. “Darling, how about we play? We go to the balcony to see the scenery, or want to watch a cartoon?”

Keinya. Before Yuan went any further, he immediately said, “Yu ...”

Yuan stopped his steps and then turned back. He looked at Keinya who had turned back and even looked at him. What happened now is believed to be quite serious Yuan. Strange enough the woman would look at him except for being forced to do so for a very urgent purpose and usually, to refuse and scold him.

“Actually my house key is not lost.” Keinya looked confused.

Yuan looked at Keinya with a forehead decorated with faint wrinkles.

“I purposely came back here to use you. Sorry ...”

His confession of Kein was quite shocking to Yuan. How can a bad person confess his crime? What does Keinya mean to be blunt to him? Why is that woman so innocent?

“I just used you to avenge my pain to my ex-husband and his affair.” Keinya immediately shook his head quickly while sighing. Through quick steps, he approached Yuan and attempted to take over the Rainbow from the man. For him, his way of revenge against Athan follows Tiara by utilizing Yuan, wrong. How could he take advantage of a man who always tries to convince if the man loves him, while Keinya has a Rainbow who could have been a victim? Children are always victims of divorce parents, especially girls are very prone to feel the impact, right? Not only about the separation of his parents, but outside threats such as social irregularities, especially sexual harassment!

Keinya condemned his recklessness which was so thirsty for revenge to Athan and Tiara without thinking about the impact it had on the Rainbow. At the very least, Keinya should be looking for someone who would accept the Rainbow in his life, selflessly. While Yuan? Although the man always tried to convince Keinya following the accompanying evidence, but Keinya had only known the man for a few days, regardless of the background Yuan existed in Keinya's life. Athan was so easy to lie to even dump Keinya, let alone Yuan who has everything and only Keinya knows in a matter of days?

Keinya picked up the Rainbow while scattering tears without looking at Yuan. Yuan himself kept staring at Keinya and let the woman take the Rainbow from him, although before long, the same thing he did. He took the Rainbow from Keinya which this time looked very ruined. To him, Keinya was at a point where the woman was feeling very bad and prone to acting out of reason.

“Do what you want to do. Let the rainbow be with me first. I'm not sure he'll be okay if at any time, you forget, you love him so much.” Yuan could not hide his sadness. In addition to his voice that became stingy, his eyes that became hot had also gotten wet.

“Actually what's my fault ..?” Keinya continued to scream in his heart. “Why Athan is so brave to me! Why Athan doesn't care about Rainbows at all!”

Keinya's head feels hot even dizzy. The numbness paralyzed his life slowly, as his vision darkened. Soon, Yuan's anxious call ended the last thing Kein could hear, before everyone became a sifter.

“Kei ..”.

Keinya fainted. Yuan immediately put Rainbow to sleep in the cot, then returned to carry Keinya's body to his bed.

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When Keinya regained his senses, he found himself wrapped in a blanket on Yuan's bed, while in the middle of the dimly lit room atmosphere, he found himself in a blanket, no one he found included a rainbow that was not in the cot. This fact made Keinya very confused. The woman with back hair immediately removed the thick blanket from her body, then moved outside in haste.

Keinya searched all the rooms of Yuan's apartment. From the living room, lounge, sports room to even the kitchen, there are no signs of life there. “I have to call Yuan!” he said as he half ran towards Yuan's room to pick up his phone. However, when he passed the room next to Yuan's room whose door was not closed perfectly, the room that Rara had occupied yesterday, Keinya found the back of a long-sleeved shirt in salted egg blue, snuggled up on that bed.

Keinya's heart rippled and felt a little pained. He recognized the back as Yuan, because the last time he remembered, the man was indeed wearing a similar shirt. It's just that, now the look of the shirt is fairly shabby, while the hands are folded original up to the top of the elbow.

Keinya made sure carefully from behind the door of Rara's used room to stay. His guess was indeed correct, it was Yuan's back. The man fell asleep curled up against the rainbow. What made Keinya even more incredulous, was not the obvious look of Yuan looking exhausted. Due to the presence of diaper bags coupled with three bottles of milk and two of them used, indicating the man takes care of the rainbow. Including rainbow clothes that have been changed. Rainbows no longer wear yellow knee-length dresses and matching colored headbands. Because now the adorable baby who inherited Keinya's beauty, has been wearing long sleeves along with matching colored trousers with the shirt that Yuan wears.

He did shed tears. But her tears this time, were happy tears accompanied by a sincere smile. The scenery now really made Keinya feel very moved. “Now I am aware, hurt and happy have the same portion. They cannot be separated like poles in a magnet.”

The sight of Yuan being so concerned for the Rainbow made Keinya sob. What happened now was enough to make him believe that Yuan was sincere to him and Rainbow. Keinya, however, is hopeful that Yuan's position is now occupied by Athan without any other women in their relationship. Keinya willing to give up his life for writing that has become his livelihood as long as his relationship with Athan is fine, for the future Rainbow. Even Keinya did not mind Athan's cold attitude that was never romantic to him, as long as the man wanted to give care to the Rainbow. As simple as that, even though in reality, it is impossibility that becomes the result.

Keinya silenced his mouth using both hands, for the sake of muffling his cries. He hastily left Yuan and Rainbow's room of existence. So, what should he do? Yuan really gave sincerity in the midst of the reality of Keinya who was in a difficult position.

“You till when? Will crying and missing a guy like him, make your life and Rainbow better?”

From behind, Yuan's voice sounded a typical heavy new wake up. Keinya who was already surprised, reflexes back in body and make him find a tired face Yuan was looking at him. The man stood loyo behind the door of the room that Keinya forgot to close.

“I didn't ask you to reply me directly. But please, don't leave me let alone let another man be with you.”

Yuan's eyes were so sad. “You are only mine!”

What Yuan said just now was certainly not just an ordinary affirmation. The man is serious. Even very seriously. With staggering steps, Yuan even gradually approached Keinya who was sitting on the edge of the mattress near the nightstand.

Keinya brushed off Yuan, for not daring to look the man in the eye. Yuan thrust out a tissue box from the nightstand next to Keinya. After Keinya pulled out a few pieces of tissue, Yuan placed his fist box to its original place. The man gradually squatted down and clasped Keinya's body very carefully as well as warmly. Next to his hand held back, while the other hand held back Keinya's head.

“If I can't touch you, but you have to keep ngizinin I make you, especially when your mood is not good. At least a hug can make your mood a lot better,” Yuan said.

Sometimes, closeness in a relationship does not require a reason. It doesn't matter if that person has a blood bond with us. Having social status following wealth. Having a beautiful face includes the length of time that person has been in our lives. As long as you feel comfortable, everything will definitely run in positions according to portions.

Keinya has been with Athan for approximately six years. Four years after their relationship, they decided to get married. Shortly after marriage, Keinya became pregnant and things began to differ. While Kaiya, even though they are twins and still communicate despite the distance and time is always a gap, but Kainya always tries to prohibit Keinya from doing everything, and asks Keinya to always depend on Kai. Keinya understood that his twin wanted to protect and provide the best for him, but, the situation actually made Keinya depressed in addition to feeling useless. 

Another case with Athan and Kaiya, along with Yuan, Keinya found a sense of comfort. Even with Yuan as well, all the resentment following the wounds that Athan and Tiara inflicted as if weeping. So, Keinya secretly agreed to the whisper of his heart to give Yuan a chance. Keinya will learn to believe in Yuan even though maybe that reality also takes time.

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