AFTER THE DIVORCE
Chapter 45: The Voice of the Heart

“Loving isn't a mistake, Kai. But loving who only hurts is also not justified.”

Chapter 45: The Voice of the Heart

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The last thing Kai remembered, he was thinking of a way to meet Yuan at once. He will do all he can even if he has to go back pretending to be Keinya. Kaiya would absolutely do anything to be with Yuan.

When Kaiya was thinking about the way he should go, he immediately came out of Keinya's room in Yuan's apartment because the ringing of a cellphone that kept repeating disturbed the silence of the apartment atmosphere which was very quiet without any other sound. It turned out to be Rara's phone lying next to the laptop on the family room table, while in addition to Rara who was not there, the caller was precisely with a contact named Yuan. Of course the reality immediately made Kaiya who was confused thinking of a way to be with the man, immediately answered him.

“Ra, Where is Keinya? Why is the number not active?” tanya Yuan sounded so anxious a moment after her phone hooked up.

Just hearing Yuan's anxiety asking for Keinya's whereabouts, Kaiya's heart became very painful. The hot hue instantly ruled over Kai's entire body without the exception of his two eyes.

After being silent for a long time, Kinya cleared her throat to set her voice, until she finally said, “ini me...”

After from across there was Yuan heard who was so anxious and often sighed, that very second, from across it just sounded the roar of strong wind. Kaiya thought it was because Yuan was outside a windy room. And since Yuan was only silent, Kaiya was sure that the man had already recognized him immediately.

“Yes, it's me. Rara is out. He didn't bring a cell phone. His phone missed.”

“Why are you back?”

The question that Yuan was asking was so striking Kaiya. His heart is getting sicker. Even Kaiya could make sure both of her wet eyes had started to tinge. Feels stiff and poignant.

“Tell me, where is Keinya? You're the one who made it hard to contact, right?”

He bit his lower lip. “Has there really been no chance for me, Yu? Ilove you. It all felt so hard after you left me. At least, even a little, is there really nothing? Although only a little, your love and longing are still there for me, right?”

“Sorry, Kai. I just love Keinya!”

“We exist because I love Keinya, other than because of the lies you did.”

“But while with me you are also very happy, Yu!”

“Enough, Kai! Don't be selfish! What you did already hurt Keinya so much!”

“You think I'm not hurt? I'm sick too, Yu! I'm really sick!”

“You hurt yourself through your lies, Kai. After this, I don't want any more drama! And if I don't see you as Keinya's brother, I can dispute what you did, to the realm of law!”

Yuan's reply, which always darted far from what Kai expected, made Kai not only dashed hope, but wanted to die that second as well and included Yuan in it.

“If I can't have you, you can't have or own either, Yu!” Kaina sobbed in silence shortly after Yuan terminated the phone call unilaterally. He asked her to find another love. Even the man also had time to pray for his happiness with the love of another man. But for Kaiya, forgetting let alone releasing Yuan who he loved so much is not an easy matter. It doesn't matter if you love the wrong thing. Even Kunya is not only willing to sacrifice everything including Keinya's sister as well as her twin. Because if Yuan continues to reject him, Kainya chooses to disappear forever and include Yuan in it.

However, Kainya did not believe in his current state. Why did he wake up after his own suicide attempt? After Kainya accidentally breaks the brakes of her car and soon catches up with Yuan whom she has been monitoring through her confidants? Then, what about Yuan who also accidentally hit Kaiya so that they die together without anyone else in their relationship?

Kaiya tried to get up and find out Yuan's news. However, his body felt so painful, stiff, unable to simply move.

“Kai?” sergeant Rara who immediately surprised Kaiya.

Initially Rara will only open the door to get out of Kaiya's ward. Kai even saw it. Despite not believing because Rara was awake for her, Kai was so expecting Yuan news from the woman.

“Yuan how? How's Yuan doing? L loved her. I love her so much, Ra!” Kaina. Trying to get up no matter how much pain he must feel if he continues to force to just move.

Rara's got Kai. “Do not do this. You can't be like this. You must rest so that you recover quickly,” persuaded Rara while continuing to convince and hold Kaiya.

“Yuan how, Ra?” kainya firmly growled. His eyes stared hard at Rara because the black-eyed woman never gave him Yuan news. The news as the only thing Kai expected for now.

Rara blinked while swallowing her saliva several times. He became quite nervous about what Kai was doing. Kaiya was so worried about Yuan, apart from the woman who also knew Yuan had an accident. Can Rara be sure, Kaiya is indeed related to the Yuan accident!

Kaiya was still staring intently at Rara who was clearly frightened at him.

“You ...?” Kaiya looked at Rara with a look. So much suspicion was emanated from his gaze on the woman.

Although she brushed off her gaze, Rara nodded.

“Stop, Kai. Everything is enough. You have to end it.” Rara tries to give understanding while convincing Kai. He looked at Kainya's sharp eyes which this time filled with hatred, fixed.

Kai immediately shook his head firmly with the sadness that accompanied his cry. “Cannot, Ra ...”

“But.” Rara said it was full of confidence.

The kayu back to shakes. This time much longer. “I can't let go let alone see Yuan with another woman even that Keinya, Ra!”

Rara sighed deeply while closing her eyes.

“I love Yuan so much! While loving is not a mistake, Ra!”

Kainya's appearance is so full of confidence, signifying clearly the frustration that the woman feels.

“Loving isn't a mistake, Kai. But loving who only hurts is also not justified.” Rara gradually squatted down, looking at Kaiya with concern. “I beg you, end it all. What you defend hurts you so much. You, Keinya, Yuan, even your family will get hurt, if you keep this up.”

Kaiya's crying broke. He forcefully closed his eyes with a shaken body while his hands clenched in his lap. Kaina. Making Rara crisp and immediately calming her through a hug.

“Why does the man I love prefer another woman and even that sister as well as my own twin?!”

“Trust, Kai. God has prepared the best man who loves you. You just have to wait for the right time. Even if Yuan can't love you, it's because you guys haven't got a match.”

“You said that because you didn't feel like me, Ra!”

“Who said? My marriage failed even I was also in a lot of debt to make up for all the wedding preparations, while my future husband chose to hands off where he would marry another woman in the near future!”

“It is not appropriate that you judge someone only from the outside! Just because someone can look calm even happy, you think they really feel it? There are still many more difficult than you even us, Kai!” Rara became carried away by emotions.

“Let Yuan by his choice. He really loves Keinya and I'm sure, you know it!”

Kaiya was roaring, but Rara let her go while occasionally patting her on the back. Rara hopes Kainya will end it all, even though the sadness that envelops Kainya is thick with the sincerity of Kai's love for Yuan. 

But how else? Yang Yuan loved Keinya, not anyone else even Kaiya who had a face at once resembling Keinya. Because as Kai believes, love is not a mistake. But loving who only hurts is also not justified.

Rara looked up and closed her eyes. “I think I've had enough of my limits for them. The rest I will start living my life. Keinya would definitely be fine since he had Yuan. As for Kaiya, she is an intelligent woman who has everything even though her heart is deeply hurt, Rara's inner”.

When Rara leaves Kai shortly after Kunya is closed, Rara is faced with a pair of elegant-style middle-aged who will enter Kaiya's ward. What caught Rara's attention, was none other than the woman who was so similar to Kaiya and Keinya. Even the fact that makes Rara shudder in horror. The middle-aged woman who was accompanied by the bule man and blocked his steps to get out.

“Who are you? You're Kai's friend? How's Kaiya doing? Why did all this happen?” asked the woman while looking at Rara full of judgment.

Instead of answering, Rara was numb. Suddenly his heart was very painful. Is his guess right? Kaiya family is rich, Kaiya and Keinya? However, why didn't they include Keinya? Why did they throw Keinya away?

Because Rara was just silent and even crying, sobbing while holding her chest with both hands, the woman and the man immediately left her with a strange look. The two rushed to Kainya. Ensuring the state of the Keinya twin is caring.

“Darling, what else happened? Why can all this happen to you?” she lamented and stroked Kai's head affectionately. “Papi! Hurry and hold Papi's people accountable! What did they do, why did they let Kaiya get hurt so badly?!”

“Why did you guys dump Keinya?” Rara screams in her heart.

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