AFTER THE DIVORCE
Chapter 57: No Longer the Same (Revised)

“Although we are under the same sky. We're so close. I can still hold your hand warmly. But everything is no longer the same. You are not mine who will give it all.”

Chapter 57: No Longer the Same

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Kimo's heart felt so sore. It was as if many hectic slashes were slashing there, just because he remembered Rara's fearful gaze that was so begging to him when the woman was forcefully brought by Gio. 

As Kimo felt, there was something different from the way Rara looked at him. Maybe because the woman who always pretended to be versatile and made fun as a shield was aware, Gio who now was not the Gio who used to be, Gio whom Rara knew. Even though Gio confirmed, even though the man was just playing Rara, Gio was really sincere and still loved Rara very much. 

Gio was at the point of worst emotion. What if Gio was reckless to do something that had never been thought of before and would hurt Rara even more? Because of his heartache alone, Gio recklessly made Rara give an outlet— about his love for Keinya who clapped one hand, also Piera who actually became the thorn of the Gio parents household. Isn't the way Gio vented all his wounds to Rara enough to prove, that man is dangerous? Thinking of that, Kimo became disoriented. Imagining all the bad possibilities that kept poisoning his mind made it hard to think. Moreover, Gio drove the car very quickly and fatefully, Kimo to lose track.

“Arggg!” Kimo hit the steering wheel with emotions overflowing until the right horn button he kenai make the atmosphere around become deaf.

Some of the road occupants who will go through the existence of Kimo cars directly press their horns until the atmosphere becomes increasingly boisterous. This happened because Kimo to stop the speed of his car suddenly until the driver behind him was almost involved in a follow-up collision because he had to suddenly brake the speed of the car.

Rows of words makian approached Kimo. There were even some of them who got out of the car to bang while giving Kimo a stern warning. However, Kimo did not care and did not heed them. Kimo was still drifting in his still confused thoughts of having to find Rara where? Because in fact, even though Kimo does love Rara, his love can not make him immediately find Rara, although out there many people believe, love will lead us in the direction where we must return.

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Although the man next to her was indeed Gio, the man who had filled in and accompanied her spent the past five years, for Rara, the man who controlled the wheel next to her was not the Gio Rara knew. The man next to him was a man who still put forward the feelings, disappointment and emotions that made Gio so vindictive. It also keeps Rara awake, besides Rara who is painstakingly silent, as if, everything is fine. Though deep in her heart, Rara who had to break out in cold sweat was already very frightened. Rara was afraid, Gio was reckless and performed a fatal action.

Gio continued driving even out of Jakarta. At first Rara thought Gio would only take him the furthest around Bogor or Bandung. But it turns out that Gio actually brought it back to enter the toll road to Jakarta. There really is no work.

Rara had started to feel tired and a little sleepy when Gio pulled over the car in front of a house. I don't know where they are now? The atmosphere was quite cold and foggy even though it was only half seven in the night. In other words, Gio's nearly ten hours of driving him were unclear. 

After being both quiet along the way, Gio suddenly got out of the car, leaving the door open.

Rara thought she was now around the top. The temperature there is enough to make Rara have to adapt to the cold around there. And Rara deliberately did not come out even though suddenly, Gio who was watching her from the outside, approached, opening the door next to Rara.

“We're down. Rest,” said Gio sounded very fierce.

Rara shook her head without looking at Gio. “I don't want to go down because this isn't my goal. Your purpose. So you're the only one down, I stay here.”

Later, Rara observes the house of their existence. Perhaps, the house whose yard is decorated with wild grass is not maintained while the gate is only two meters high and looks rusty, is a villa. Villas at the top? But which peak?

Gio was closed and looked resigned with one hand still holding the door. Shortly after, he went and sat down on the iron bench on the porch of the house and was about seventeen meters from Rara's whereabouts.

There, Rara saw Gio take out a small box and then take out a cigarette from it. After slipping it in the mouth, a benzene match also immediately Gio turned on. The question, ... since when does Gio smoke? Shouldn't the man not smoke because his lungs are in trouble? Thinking of that, Rara became very upset.

Rara chose to get out of the car and then sat on the end of the bench where Gio was by placing his shoulder bag as a barrier between them. Rara did it without staring or just glancing at Gio who kept paying attention to his every move. 

What makes Rara more upset, Gio is actually busy with his cigarette, making the air around there contaminated with nicotine content, to the extent that, Rara deliberately breathes through the mouth because she is also most anti with cigarette smoke. But because all that continues even Gio is ready to light the next cigarette, Rara's patience is completely exhausted. Rara slammed her bag then stared intently at Gio.

“If you really love me with everything you know, you shouldn't put me in this position. Even you know, you should stay away from cigarettes, while passive smokers like me are far more at risk of nicotine from your cigarettes!” nagel Rara.

Gio immediately threw out the cigarette he had initially smoked, stomping on it with annoyance until no more smoke was produced from there. Then, he also threw out a box of cigarettes following the remaining matches, shortly before looking down and tightly clutching his face using both hands.

“You know, that woman you call mother has been my papa's mistress for twenty years?!” Gio looked at Rara sharply. However, Rara immediately dismissed it from the beginning Gio discussed Piera.

“I don't know. And I really don't want to know.”

Rara's reply made Gio cluck in annoyance. It was also what made him dismiss Rara from his sight.

“I have buried it alive in my heart and stored it all in fond memories as father taught.”

“You are lucky to have such a great father and still make you love your mother after what that woman did.” Gio said that in earnest amid his hatred for Piera which was not at all diminished.

“You should learn not to repeat mistakes. If you feel unfair with what you get from your papa, be a better father than him for your children.” Rara still spoke coldly without even a single glance at Gio. Gio who immediately looked at him just because he heard “be a better father than him for your children,” said from Rara's lips.

“Then be the mother of my children.”

Instead of answering Gio's request, Rara brushed Gio aside, turning her face away from the oriental-faced man.

With Gio, Rara felt insecure. He immediately pulled out his phone and unfortunately all day with Gio he forgot to use the sophisticated object. He should be able to ask for help through his phone which this time really cannot be used because there is no signal network there.

Gio turned his gaze away from the busyness of Rara who was looking for a network of signals by lifting up high and sometimes shaking the phone. However, when the woman got up and almost left the bench, Gio immediately held her back by tightly gripping Rara's hand.

“Sickness, Gi!” rara complains while trying to get rid of Gio's prisoner.

“Do not go!” firmly Gio shriveled full of warning as well as pleading.

There was a fear that Rara found from the gaze of the man before her. That made him sit back.

“What is your relationship with that man to the extent?”  gio asked excitedly while looking down. Gio swallowed his saliva which somehow felt so bitter.

“More from our trip today.” Rara retorted coldly, still dismissing Gio.

Gio gradually glanced at Rara. “Do you love her?” Gio wished Rara had said no.

Gio really hopes the woman he still loves very much said he still loves Gio very much. Gio is eager to hear Rara plead for Gio to return to Rara. Unfortunately, Rara was silent. The reality that usually justifies the expectations that Gio does not want. In other words, although it may not be too much, but there is a sense of more that Rara keeps specifically for Kimo. Yes, Gio knew the gondrong man who always put on that cold face.

“I ...,”

Gio sounded hesitant to say his words, but Rara remained unconcerned.

“Seeing his advice to treat you, he must have told me a lot about me,” continued Gio.

“Kimo has many stories, right?”

“He is not a man who talks a lot and forces me to accept all his grief.” Rara sighed softly along with her sudden memories leading her to her and Kimo's togetherness. From the beginning Rara knew Kimo who was filled with many differences, when the man took care of him in the hospital, as well as Kimo's anxiety when trying to pursue Rara who was brought by Gio. 

“She ... she always tries her best for me. And .. although he looks so cold even arrogant, he's a responsible man who has a warm heart.”

Gio cleared his throat loudly ending Rara's words. “It turns out to be very far away. Very fast.” Gio. “No, .. more precisely this is too fast.”

Rara glanced at Gio. Shortly after, the man also looked at her. Their views met and Rara deliberately did not brush it off.

“Although we are under the same sky. We're so close. I can still hold your hand warmly. But everything is no longer the same. You are not mine who will give it all, Gio's inner”. He stared inside, the woman who filled his gaze at once his life. And even though Rara was still looking at him, the woman no longer cared about him.

“Do you not want to ask something?” gio.

Rara shook her head softly without taking her gaze away from the two Netra Gio. Facing the present Gio, made Rara no longer afraid. Rara was feeling ordinary.

Gio laughed at himself and looked so hurt as well as pathetic. “I've expected.”

“Looking at you who always overflows resentment and blames others for everything you feel, shouldn't there be nothing I ask?” Rara said it lazily. He's really not excited.

Gio snorting. Both hands he put on his knees while his body leaned forward. “Near and make Kimi love me is papa's mission. Papa made it as barter divorced Piera.”

Rara remained silent and pretended not to care.

Gio glanced at Rara and became upset at the woman he still loved so much. “But because Papa reneged on his promise, I purposely destroyed everything. Including with Steffy, .. I also won't marry her!”

In her silence, Rara became increasingly clueless to Gio. It's just that the way the man handled things made him concerned. “Quiet, Ra. Let Gio mature with the problems to be faced. She can if she does want to,” Inner Rara. His little heart asked him not to give an exaggerated response let alone to care for Gio.

“You know? Two days ago your man came to see me.”

Gio's speech this time managed to tease Rara. His guy? Come to Gio, who? Keinya?

“The man asked me to let go of everything. You are lucky to have people who love you so much.”

A guy? Doesn't mean Keinya?

“Even Athan also gave me a warning. He looks very angry and threatens to kill me if I hurt you.”

“Athan? That guy also cares about me?” batin Rara did not believe.

Gio looked at Rara. “I heard, Athan finally divorced Keinya?”

Rara nodded weakly.

Gio smiled sarcastically. “But the guy who met me yesterday, he's a Keinya candidate?”

Rara stared in disbelief at Gio. “So, the one who met Gio, .. Yuan?” his mind was growing more incredulous. How sincere Yuan loved the Keinya people, without exception Rara who got the impact.

“I think he's much better than Athan. He even cares so much about you.”

The more Gio talks, the more Rara is convinced that her ex-lover is very lonely. Luckily, after ten minutes passed from Rara who was forced to sit back, the roar of the car that Rara recognized Kimo's car, was heard approaching and stopped right in front of the gate of the house together with Rara and Gio.

Kimo came out in a hurry and looked very angry. The man immediately climbed over the walled gate, while Rara's body reflexively sat down because Gio pulled it back. Just looking at what was coming was Kimo, suddenly Rara's heart became very happy where hence, Rara until the reflex stood.

“One more time you dare to touch it, I broke all your bones!” kimo is still dominated by emotions. He stared intently at Gio and then took off the man's hand from the wrist of Rara followed by sitting between the two.

Kimo stared anxiously at the confused Rara looking at him. After being silent with her eyes rolling, she hurriedly took off her suit because she was sure, the cold air there had made Rara cold. Even Rara's face had started to pale.

Rara lowered her head to let Kimo wear an oversized suit on Rara's body. However, after that, Rara felt much better and was not cold anymore. Especially after successfully wearing a suit on him, Kimo also embraced him tightly. Kimo is very protective of Rara, where the reality makes Rara touched. Rara's heart became enveloped in a warm feeling.

“Is there still something to talk about?” kimo asked firmly while looking at Rara.

“No. Absolutely nothing to talk about.” Rara said it with confidence even though she was still down.

Kimo carries Rara's bag and then leads her to stand up. “Solve your problem without involving let alone vent it to others,” he said as he stared at Gio's slumber just before leaving him.

“Didn't it be so much fun, after releasing Steffy, you just got such a special woman?” exclaim Gio.

Kimo's move stopped instantly. While Rara who did the same thing, secretly wanted to see the reaction of Kimo's face. Shortly after, Kimo turns back and Rara follows him.

“If what you say makes me uncomfortable because in this way you seem so underestimated a relationship, I must admit, I feel very lucky to be married to Rara. Thank you for taking it off for me.” Kimo gave a slight smile to Gio who instantly lost expression. Gio looked very hurt.

Although feeling quite flattered by Kimo's attitude, Rara who became nervous asserted in her heart, Kimo has not proposed to her, but why did the man say he would marry Rara?

Realizing Rara was confused in passing through the gate, Gio approached and opened the gate through a padlock that he kept in the side pocket of the jeans worn.

When Kimo leads Rara to leave Gio who is obviously not willing to see her togetherness and Gio, Rara says, “solve your problem. And grow up with your problems. Because then, you will be happy. If you really want to make your mom happy, take care of your mom. Be a child who can at least make yourself happy, so that your mama also feel it.”

Shortly after, Gio took off Kimo's car carrying Rara, sobbing. And through the mirror before him, Rara witnessed Gio's cries until Gio's reflection was completely invisible.

“Gio, .. You can definitely be happy. Sorry, it's not like I can't accept you for who you are following your flaws. It's just that, after everything that happened, even our parents were married for a very long time, too, your way of still blaming others for all the pain you feel, too, I think it's time for you to fix yourself, become a better person again, Rara's inner” who lowered his head while sharpening. “Perhaps, this is what Keinya felt, when he preferred to take off Athan!” thought Rara was trying to get a chest. Rara bit her lower lip hard.

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