AFTER THE DIVORCE
Chapter 50: Jealousy

“Jealous. Why does it feel so much more painful than holding back longing?”

Chapter 50: Jealousy

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Something is wrong. There must be something wrong. Yuan had corrected himself repeatedly. Something was wrong so Keinya silenced even seemed to deliberately keep his distance from him. As he remembered, all day was fine before Keinya cooked. Wait, when he approached the woman in the kitchen, it was the beginning of her getting an expression even different from Keinya who was so cold, angry, but also sad. As for Yura, her younger sister immediately looked frightened and was clearly hiding something. 

The incident in the kitchen this afternoon, must have been the beginning. Early Keinya was cold to him because of something that made Keinya angry and sad.

It was impossible for nothing to go wrong, whereas from the afternoon until dinner took place, Keinya was so cold to Yuan. Keinya did not necessarily ignore it in the sense of not taking care of it. However, even though the woman was still taking good care of Yuan, Keinya did not invite Yuan to communicate at all. Let alone speaking, glancing at Yuan's face alone was not.

Yuan, who was sitting on the back of his magnificent sleeping bed, immediately contacted Keinya through a mobile phone he had held. As from this afternoon, his phone was not returned either. So, Yuan who was already unable to bear continued to be silenced for no reason, immediately removed the thick blanket from his body.

Yuan grabbed the tripod next to him with special warm sandals for the house he was wearing, then rushed out of his room with a step back at once in a hurry. The hand following his right leg is not able to do activities normally. Even doctors recommend it not to move much so that the broken bones and until now still bandaged, can more quickly unite.

Trudging and enduring the excruciating pain in his legs and even swollen right hand, Yuan left his apartment and entered Keinya's apartment without permission.

Froths of sweat flooded the following face around Yuan's neck, despite the pain that became many times over, the, because Yuan actually found Keinya sitting daydreaming on the edge of the mattress while hugging both knees and putting his chin on his knees.

Right, there must be something wrong to the point that Keinya silenced him and looked so sad like now.

“Jealous. Why does it feel so much more painful than holding back longing?” inner Keinya.

Keinya wiped his tears. His heart ached when he remembered Yura's words regarding Yuan's first love that even his picture was still stored in Yuan's wallet.

“In Oppa wallet there are photos of her first love!”

“Surely she's such a sweet girl. Her smile is so sweet! I thought, Oppa will find the girl to marry.”

“Come, Kei. Not funny. You have a child, still jealous?” go back to him again.

Keinya tried to advise himself while continuing to wipe the tears that were unrelentingly glistening, in addition to brushing his long hair that this time was stroked. While in the next cot, Rainbow had slept very soundly while curled up behind him.

When Keinya turned his gaze towards the door that was seven meters away from him, his heart became pounding. Since when did Yuan come and stand in front of his door which happened to be unlocked, after a few hours ago, Rara came and spent time with him?

Yuan was clearly exhausted. Yuan's face was pale and clearly visible withstanding the pain, other than Yuan who was covered in sweat. This fact made Keinya jump. Keinya hurriedly approached Yuan while wiping his tears completely, without wearing sandals first and Keinya just went through.

“What are you doing? Why are you here by yourself?” Keinya cursed in his heart, why did he not hear when Yuan pressed the key button of the apartment following the steps of the man accompanied by a tripod?

Yuan shook his head firmly, rejecting Keinya's guidance which led him to the sofa and his whereabouts were not far from the door.

Keinya looked at Yuan questioningly.

“Why?” yuan asked softly while looking seriously at Keinya.

Keinya frowned. Still don't understand.

“I can't possibly ask someone else for your change, right?” continued Yuan and successfully made Keinya flinch.

Keinya looked down inside.

“Speak. Tell me if there is something that disturbs your mind, I will definitely answer honestly.” Yuan was still waiting for his lover's response.

Instead of answering, Keinya just kept his head down.

Yuan sighed deeply, starting to feel tired with the emotions following his thoughts. Then he shifted, making him actually enter the room Keinya followed also by Keinya who clearly just offset it.

Keinya stared in disbelief at what Yuan was doing. The man didn't just close the door and then lock it. Because Yuan also pocketed the key in the side pocket of the long pajama pants worn.

“I'll sleep with you, if you still don't want a story!” threatening Yuan while looking seriously at Keinya.

To him shock even groped. “Yu—?”

Yuan ignored Keinya. He passed with a limped step towards the magnificent white bed before him. The confused people had to follow. Besides he could not avoid Yuan let alone get out of the room, Yuan's state also made him very anxious.

Yuan sat down carefully aided by Keinya. Sweat froths kept falling from the face following Yuan's neck. Yuan's face that had pias also became red. Pain in his right leg is the cause. He even gripped the blanket around the one he was sitting on. However, no matter how much pain from his wound, the silence of Keinya was much more painful. Yuan even became unsettled and continued to be caught in agitation.

Yuan's silence was the man's anger. Keinya knows that. However, does Keinya have to admit that he is jealous? 

Jealousy makes Keinya angry and sad at the same time. A feeling that continues to torment him endlessly. So, will his jealousy get an antidote, or even be the beginning of a rift between his relationship and Yuan?

How important is first love, to the point that it is still alive, even if their relationship only lives in past memories?

Ah not ... Keinya suddenly thought that love in the past of our partner is not only a cause of jealousy, but a destroyer in everything. In fact, all the sincerity that Yuan had been giving was immediately stained just because of his jealousy. Even so, Keinya returned away from Yuan, when Keinya was convinced, Yuan was already sitting properly.

“Sick, you know, Kei. Sore than my right leg and hand,” lamented Yuan sounded very miserable.

Keinya still turned his back on Yuan.

“With the way you silenced me, it was much more torturous, whereas before it was fine.” Yuan was panting and sounded extremely claustrophobic.

Keinya's heart rippled and left a pain that was so agonizing, there. But then again, his jealousy also made him tormented from when he had to see Yuan in pain like now.

“If you really love me even want to marry me as soon as possible, why do you still keep photos of other women who say you love first?” firmly Keinya with increasingly tight chest.

Yuan looked at Keinya without being able to hide his shock. “You know where?” is from he said shortly after being confused.

Yuan's question only further broke Keinya's heart because in other words, the man confirmed, about the photo of the woman of the first love in the wallet.

“Throw that photo!” sue Keinya while looking at Yuan's annoyance.

Yuan immediately shook his head quickly. “I can't!” said heavy.

“Then, don't touch me!” Keinya strongly crept Yuan's hand prisoner until the next hand Yuan slammed and slammed into the mattress.

“I love you, but I also can't just forget it, Kei!” erang Yuan's.

“Just die if you are! I don't want to marry you if you still keep that photo!” cry Keinya while walking towards the door. His steps twitched, as an overflow of his frustration.

Yuan tried to get up. “What's the point of throwing out a photo, if in fact I also remember him? Come, Honey. Don't you have first love?”

“Yu!” keinya's tears were breaking.

“Sttt, later Rainbow wake up.”

Keinya who was already upset and could not bear to see Yuan, chose to pass and locked himself in the bathroom.

“Photo in wallet? Why the new problem? Shouldn't he have known from the beginning?” muttered Yuan astonished. He got up and walked to the bathroom. Inside there, Keinya was roaring amidst the sound of taps that were rushing through.

“Honey, let's go. Yes, I'm sorry, I was wrong. Sorry, huh? About the photos, it's up to you. Download gih.”

Shortly after, Keinya came out in a hurry. As if, the woman had just gained an extra life to the point of seeming so excited.

Keinya directly reached into the pocket of Yuan pajama pants where the existence of his room key. The woman looked at Yuan with a blazing fury, then left him with impatient steps.

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Jealousy also tormented Yura. Among the dim light of the room that only relied on the table lamp on the nightstand next to the bed, he continued to remember the incident when Kimo grabbed the wrist of a woman who was none other than Rara, who was a woman, while Kimo's hand carries the woman's backpack. Where, even though Kimo was pushed hard by Rara who looked so irate and even angry, Kimo still did it.

Earlier this afternoon, Yura saw the incident, when Yura had just come out of Yuan's apartment and was located just next to Keinya's apartment, which Kimo's destination was following Rara. 

Which makes Yura even more destroyed, Kimo actually introduced Rara as a lover and prospective wife of Kimo. And given that, Yura's heart really hurt. I don't know how much tissue Yura used to wipe the tears following snot that never stopped flowing. To the extent that, the next floor of Yura's mattress has transformed into a sea of tissue.

“That woman is far from better than me. It looks very simple too. What did Kimo see of him? Mami Papi Kimo has blessed me to be his daughter-in-law!”

Yura continued to sob with the pain that was getting wrapped around, never to let go of anything else left her. And the only antidote that can end it all is Kimo.

Kimo should apologize and say if what was said was just a lie. Rara is not a woman to be made a wife. Because all Kimo will marry is Yura!

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Jealousy is also tormenting and killing Rara slowly. When he accidentally saw a notification on the Facebook application about an account called Gio Arya Wiguna, just sent a post after a long time did not make a post, it was a prewedding photo of the man with another woman. That instant Rara was also numb. Rara's world was destroyed. His phone just fell on the bed. However, Rara who is in a prone position and has been covered is actually increasingly staring carefully at the screen of her phone, until the screen is dark by itself.

“What's my fault, anyway? How are you so mean to me? Even though during our courtship even you proposed and invited me to marry, I always tried to be a good partner. Is it because I'm not the son of a conglomerate like your future wife?” Rara sobbed, as she pleased and hurriedly covered her head with a blanket. Not to forget, he also buried his face into the pillow so that the sound of his crying was not heard until he came out of the room.

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