25 Years of Father
Dad's Anxiety

Finished with my education, I did not apply for a job anywhere. I don't want all that. However, the job I did from writing so offered a sufficient salary. Even whatever I want as long as I can work on them will pay for it. Well, that's what keeps my mind steady spending every moment just staying home without going out. It's an easy choice but it's hard when I live it. Not a few who often ask about me to mom and dad.

“Loh Anggia said he has graduated? How not to work?”

“Anggia still idle well? Not yet able to work?”

“After graduating from college, Anggia want to marry directly why not work?” I hear a lot of questions a lot.

However, I was happy when I heard my mother's and father's answer to say I only work at home. The income is already good enough than work outside the daily expenses. They even said that my beloved Angga forbade me to work.

Even though father and mother always asserted me not to ask a piece of money on Angga. Because my father did not want something to happen to us and Angga demanded back for everything he gave.

“Remember Anggia, as a woman, do not ever humble yourself anything else just for asking for money. I can give if you're still lacking in your salary. Never make dad and mom embarrassed especially about money.” I'm obeying.

During the courtship I never once asked for anything in the Angga. He often forced me to accept his gifts. That's why because of my father's upbringing I get annoyed every time I hear people begging, even if it's not me.

Instead, I feel happy to give to people who are more persistent in trying even if only for a bite of rice.

“I'm tired! I'm tired of working at home. Every day I think about work. I want to work outside just to entertain the mind aja.” One year running I began to feel tired with my routine that was only in the room working without knowing entertainment.

Rarely meet people to just laugh, while my work demands to keep thinking about finding ideas. This was the first fight we had until I cried. Honestly long distance dating is certainly very heavy in addition to our respective activities.

Until finally Angga promised to go home on leave and take me for a walk. He kept his promise a week later. Of course it was my wish, because he himself forbade me from going anywhere.

I knew all of that because of his concern that was afraid that something might happen to me. As a candidate, I knew I should obey.

“I have come to fulfill my promise, right? Soon we will be together. I'll start taking care of all our wedding terms, okay?” I nodded my head.

Dad even gave me permission every time Angga picked me up. Of course with mamah who gives a message to keep your distance. All things can still happen before the legal word in marriage happens.

We both spent time at the beach. Honestly, I'm happy for the first time to have a date like this without having to hide from my father.

“Anggia,” call him and I turn my head immediately.

“I got two weeks off. But one week was cut because there was work. You don't mind?” I doubt I can just nod.

Honestly, I am sad to hear it. Not only was my fatigue treated, Angga had to return within a few days.

Where is the shadow of my work that will make me back stressed. At first it was just my hobby. I am living everything with pleasure. Until finally I began to force myself to work more in order to earn more income to help our marriage costs later.

My feeling was really unbearable to let Angga work alone to think about our marriage. While he was also required by his mother to start a home installment. Of course it is not easy for young Angga.

“Iya no problem. Sorry if I made you burdened. I was emotional yesterday just because I was bored. Sometimes I would love to work outside the home meeting people at least it could be my story friend at work.”

“Anggia, I told you you wanted me to give you the salary you wanted. It does not work outside. You know I'm so scared you met a guy out there.” Angga again puckered with his stance.

“Not about salary, Angga. It's a matter of mind that sometimes gets really boring.”

“Hold in a minute. After we get married, I'll take you to live together. Every day we can go out on the road together when I get home from work and your work can be done outside, right? I promise we'll be together soon.”

My heart also melted to hear the words of Angga. I know I shouldn't have pushed him like this. But, somehow my activities in college that I often spend time outside the cost makes me very saturated when I have to work without seeing anyone. Mom and Dad are busy with their work. Ica is also busy with school and her friends.

I really feel lonely. We didn't feel like the time to relax on the beach was over. I was taken home by Angga and after that he returned to his own home.

A week's leave certainly doesn't mean a week he's with me. We're still dating, where dad still limits our meetings. Even Angga has to share time with me and his sister. On the second day of the holiday he did not come home. I went back to work in my room. Resolving the pending ones since yesterday.

The sudden boredom made me want to do sports. In the room became my choice of aerobic exercise. My whole body started sweating. Five minutes of walking I still feel fine. Until the tenth minute I could not hold my body cramped and cold.

“Dad!” I screamed open the door.

My loud screams made Dad run for a moment.

“Anggia! Anggia, why you?” The screaming and clapping of my father's hands on my cheeks left me speechless. My eyes feel hard to open even my face my whole body cramp all.

In my ears I only heard the voice of my father who kept shouting trying to make me wake up. It was nice to hear how Dad was so worried about me. And now I really can't feel anything anymore.