The First Curse of Love
47. Numbness

Dean enters Danny's apartment with his anxious face. For the past few days, not a day has Dean been able to rest in peace because of Danny. He also had to hide all the crazy actions done by his sister so that his parents did not know.

By the time he got there, Arga and Windy were already waiting for his arrival. While Windy was preparing a compress for Danny and Arga in the kitchen, Arga just sat on the sofa while bowing his face.

"Ga?"

As Arga lifted his face, Dean felt somewhat astonished when he saw that some parts of Arga's face were already adorned by bruises. Dean approached, then stared intensely into Arga's eyes. "Is this Danny, too?"

Arga shook his head slowly and replied, "so I'm the same Danny after the fight. I'm sorry, Brother."

As if familiar with the state of Arga, Dean nodded in understanding. "It's okay, Ga. Now mending you medicine your wound before going home. Thanks for bringing Danny home, too."

Arga could not be heard answering anymore and let Dean pass from before him towards the kitchen.

When he was in the kitchen, Dean's attention was on Windy who was trying to reach for the glass bowl in the top cupboard. Realizing that Windy's height won't be able to reach him, Dean steps quickly toward him. Unbeknownst to Windy, Dean stands behind him and picks up the glass bowl that Windy was targeting.

Windy who felt surprised by Dean's presence instantly froze. He slowly lowered his hand and turned to face Dean, who was sticking the glass bowl in front of him.

"What's the graft doing?" Dean asked without taking his eyes off Windy.

For a moment Windy choked. He swallowed his saliva as he watched Dean's charm that was so thrilling.

"Make ice. Danny's wounds same Arga should be compressed." Windy replied nervously while trying to dampen the thump in his chest.

"In the medicine cabinet there is an ice bag. You can wear that."

"Oh? Okay. I'll take du—" Before Windy steps in front of him, Dean picks up a quick motion to intercept Windy's wrist.

"Let Brother Dean take it. You get the ice out of the fridge."

Windy this time just nodded. And he immediately let out a sigh of relief as soon as Dean had left from before him, leaving behind the scent of his perfume that was so soothing.

...****...

When Danny woke up in the morning, the appearance of Dean who was standing gallantly in his casual clothes immediately greeted him. Danny held his head which he still felt a little dizzy as he familiarized his eyes with the morning sunlight that was peeping in through the large glass window beside the bed.

"Sister Dean?" Danny murmured with a slight groan, trying to reduce the pain all over his body due to a clash with Arga last night.

"If you take this kind of action again, I will no longer protect you from Papa and Mama. I'll also let the police drag you to jail." Cheer Dean coldly, without even blinking. His frozen gaze straightened at Danny.

"Kak—"

"Stop, Danny!" Sela Dean unwillingly gives Danny a chance to talk. "Whatever you do now, it will not bring Qiara back. I hate to have to say this, but I'm sure, Qiara would want the best for you, Qiara would want you to continue living without any regrets. You're ruined now. And you want to be as ruined as anything else?"

After he finished spewing his frustration at Danny, Dean immediately turned around to get out of Danny's room. As Dean passed by, "clean yourself. I'll wait at the dinner table. After breakfast, I went to the hospital. You need doctor's care. I also made an appointment for you to consult with Dr. Goldi. I need to go to a psychiatrist."

"Sister?" Call Danny shrewd.

Dean immediately stopped his steps, but he did not turn to look at Danny. "Gue needs Qiara. I don't need a doctor, treatment, or consultation. I just need Qiara. Please take me to Qiara, brother. I promise I will only see Qiara from far away, I will not disturb Qiara, nor will I approach a step. I just need to see him once and I'll go. You can send me any country after that, I won't fight or rebel anymore." Please Danny who has really touched the disconnect point of his mind.

At that point, Danny no longer had the courage to expect Qiara to return to him. Danny only wanted to see it once, even if only from a distance.

Dean sighed faintly. With his back to Danny, Dean replied, "gue doesn't know where Qiara is now."

...****...

The streets are quiet, making Danny not so focused on driving. He just stared blankly ahead. One of his hands was driving the steering wheel, while the other was propped up on his chin.

Danny's memory still revolves around the past. Until suddenly, out of his consciousness, a truck drove at maximum speed and hit the car he was driving so fast before he could dodge. Danny's car dragged quite a distance, before finally rolling over and stopping at one point in reverse position. Smoke started pouring around Danny's car.

At the critical moments that he thought would be his last, Danny who had already lost half his consciousness suddenly shed tears. One thought popped into his head, that he didn't want to die right now. Not before he could see and hug Qiara for the last time. More than anything, Danny wants to stay alive.

Then suddenly, a faint memory that he thought was just his hallucination yesterday, now began to become very clear. At that time Danny knew, that the one who treated the wound on his hand was not Windy but Qiara. Qiara did come that night.

"Why do you keep hurting yourself, Dann? If you're like this, how can I leave you alone?" Crying Qiara while holding the injured and bloodied hand of Danny.

Afterwards, Qiara ransacked Danny's body towards his room. Danny sat on the edge of his bed as Qiara went to pick up the medicine box. Qiara was devastated but was careful to clean and treat the wound on Danny's hand before wrapping it with a bandage.

After she finished, Qiara gently clasped Danny's hand. The position of Qiara, which was right under Danny who had almost lost consciousness due to drinking too much beer, now turned to sit next to Danny. At that moment, Danny instantly dropped his head on Qiara's shoulders.

"Qi, please don't stay with me anymore..." Pinta Danny in a soft voice. But Qiara did not say anything and let her tears escape again for some time.

Danny's memory of the events of the night then disappeared in an instant, and increasingly made his chest tight.

Meanwhile, blood continued to flow from his head. His body felt so light when something mysterious seemed to take him flying far away. His once blurred vision now gradually darkened, and did not reveal another beam of light.

...****...

February 2021...

"DANNY, THE GOD OF DEATH IS BACK"

That's one message in the chat group that all employees in the Variety Department received.

Everyone was afraid of Danny. Even every step of his foot felt so frightening to all of them. They also always avoid being involved in the slightest problem with Danny. That's why, when Danny returned after filming for several weeks on a remote island, they all seemed to shy away from Danny.

But even so, Danny did not care. When people talk about him and are so afraid of his presence, Danny ignores him and focuses on his job.

After walking past the employees with a cold and inattentive look, Danny went into the toilet. Upon arrival there, Danny immediately washed his face which looked a bit dull from working too much outdoors. Danny then took off his shirt to reveal his muscular body. Danny cleaned it so it no longer felt sticky. It was then that Danny's eyes accidentally fell on the necklace around his neck that revealed the ring belonging to Qiara that he left three years ago.

Danny froze for a moment. His gaze that had been sharp and cold since then suddenly turned silent. The pain that was always the same, and still felt real again attacked his heart.

These three years, are three of the stifling ones for Danny.

Living day after day without Qiara, made him forget what it was like to laugh loosely, making him also forget how to open his heart and accept the presence of people as they should.

For the past three years, Danny has been just a moving chunk of ice, lifeless, heartless. He had already lost his warm side from within him since the day Qiara left him and had not returned until this very second.

The only one capable of keeping Danny afloat is; the belief that he will find Qiara no matter what. And when that moment comes, Danny swears he'll drag her into his life again. He won't give up. Even if he had to spend the rest of his life waiting for Qiara, Danny would.

"A little while, Qiara. I'll find you in a minute. Even if you hide at the end of the world, I will definitely find you."

To Be Continued...^^^