BARSHA
Envy of Me

Let alone me, Lea and Willi were very surprised to see the change in mother's attitude that could change one hundred and eighty degrees from her usual attitude, which always snapped at me, he said, giving a hug on my hip or always shuffling my hair, mom was always irritated and annoyed at me before, she said, but this time he spoke so well that even shrinking my head made me feel astonished to immediately stop eating me with astonished eyes flabbergasted, immediately glanced in confusion at the mother who had rushed away and waved at me as well as Lea and Willi.

"Wahh...seems like this mother is indeed not a normal mother, she really loves me when I have achievements, do I have to be beautiful too in order to get more mother's affection?" My gertutuku at that time.

When I turned around Wili and Lea had already given me a sharp look back then, as if they were ready to eat me alive.

"Gosh...What's with that look, you guys want to swallow me?" I asked the two of them with a bit of shock.

"If I could've done that earlier!" Reply Lea looked very upset.

"Heh, you said you didn't want to be like me or Lea, you said you wanted to be yourself, so be yourself don't be smart or be beautiful, I don't want to compete with you." Said Wili to me.

Now that I know what made my two brothers give me such a look before, they were envious of me and did not accept seeing me get such treatment from my mother, while they forget it's been since I was a child I accept injustice in this house.

"Hey..What's wrong with you two, do you really feel jealous of me? Ahahaha.what do you need to get from me, since childhood I did not get my own room, no bed, no laptop and school bag is also big Lea, used shoes and do not have a bicycle, no bed, no laptop, no school bag is also big Lea, a mediocre supply, and rarely had breakfast, I also did not get the cow's egg, except for Wili left it for me, and now for the first time mother was kind to me, you are angry and upset with me, what about me being treated like that since childhood, you always get everything easily but not with me, I never complain either, then why are you pissed at me like this?" I said while continuing my meal.

I had no intention of speaking loudly to the two of them, I was just grumbling quietly by myself, and no matter if they would hear what I said or not, but apparently they listened to my grunts just now and slowly Lea also began to realize and understand what I was saying.

"If you think about it, everything Barsha says is true, I earn more monthly money and always ask for money for tuition fees as well while at school for my mother, Barsha always uses Ciko's money to ride the bus and she sometimes forgets not to be provided by her mother, I don't know until now where you can still eat and go to school even though I didn't give you pocket money." Reply Lea who began to realize.

"Well, that's you know for yourself, so do you still want to feel jealous and annoyed at me, I'm more unlucky than you are." Reply to him.

"Stay, now that I care about her, what about me?" Said Wili who was starting to piss me off a bit.

"Who said you only care about me? Didn't you just hear you and Lea can still get chicken thighs, that means now mom cares about the three of us, yeah I hope you don't change your mind with me, people who are born with a handsome face like you, will not get into trouble in life, everyone will make it easy for you, as well as mother, mother, or being a smart guy like Lea he'll have his own way of solving his problems, maybe it's just me who will fight alone in life but I'm used to it so no more trouble." My reply explained to Wili at that time.

He fell silent after hearing my words, and began to speak softly about me all this time.

"Then what are you going to do, do you want to keep working hard to be like me or Lea, to get mom's love like you?" Ask him to me.

I shook my head quickly, as that was not my goal of getting a high score at the moment.

"No, I don't think at all about it." Reply to him.

"If that's not what else?" Lea asked me to follow Wili.

"I just don't want to get p*kulan and clash again when I come home, nor do I want to be kicked out by the mother of this house, you yourself heard before, you heard before, mom threatened me if I didn't get good grades and didn't graduate, then I'd be kicked out she wouldn't open the door to me, so I worked hard, study day and night until you forget to eat and can not play just to get that value, just relax you do not need to worry I remain Barsha I will not be like anyone, I will not be like anyone, even if you won't like it, I won't be anyone else." I replied as I immediately got up and left quickly leaving Lea and Willi still staring fixedly at me.

I went into the room to change clothes for a moment and was about to go back to Varel's house, I had to check on him as soon as yesterday.

"Hey.Where are you going now?" Ask Lea to me.

"To Varel's house, I must check on him," I replied briefly and immediately put on socks including my shoes.

"To the house of Varel must wear shoes?" Add Willi to me again.

"What else do you want to wear? I bought new sandals like you, didn't I? Look at my sandals are no longer usable I can't go barefoot, that there's a mother will scold me again, it's been you guys have absolutely no idea how I am, and how hard I've been all this time, knowing only to interrupt and yell at me." My reply was already very upset, because they kept asking me non-stop.

I left quickly and met Niko, but they took the bus to go home before and I also had a long meal at home, but when I just got out of the fence, they met the two of them who had just returned from school.

Actually at that time I wanted to ask but because I remembered that Niko and I were not on good terms I also undo that intention and just quietly wait until they both passed me.

"eehh... Wear them just up, you wander." Inner thinking.

The two of them walked past me so casually and did not glance at me in the slightest, as if they did not see me in that place, and it made me very irritated, but can't do anything.

"Huh? They just pass by? Are they blind or are they deliberately pretending to be blind like this?" My gertutuku feel his own emotions.

I continued to stomp my feet down the steps and went to Varel's house as soon as possible.

"CK fuck them, I don't care, anyway I still have Varel, I'll just play with him." My move as soon as I entered the courtyard of Varel's house was still by stomping my legs quite strong.

Coincidentally when Varel was in his yard, he was seen watering beautiful ornamental plants there, I immediately approached with annoyance and snatch a watering tool plants from his hands just like that.

"Varel..here let me do it." I said with a pouting face and continued to grumble indistinctly.

Varel who saw that, immediately asked me and continued to look at my face so closely.

"Barsha what's the matter, why are you pouting all the time?" Ask Varel to me.

"I'm really upset, I'm emotional and I really want to teach people right now!" I reply with teeth that I flatten and stare cynically full of emotion.

I know this isn't a good thing, because I'm actually venting my frustration at Varel, though the person who made me upset was Niko and Ciko who even followed me sulking like that, even though he did not need to sulk and could say hello to me even though Niko did not greet me.

"Why? Come into our story there, you must not water my plants continue like this, later my plants will die because you water too much." Varel replied to me at that time.

After hearing Varel's words, I realized that my hand had never moved when watering plants and almost made one of Varel's expensive houseplants was inundated by water because it was too I was so much watering at the time.

"I'm sorry, I was daydreaming, I'm sorry Varel I didn't mean it." I said to him and immediately pulled the sprinkler immediately.

I thought that Varel would be angry or sulking just like Ciko and Niko to me, but it turned out that he was not angry at all and instead invited me to immediately enter his house immediately.

"It doesn't matter that it's not just an ordinary houseplant, let's go in. You want a story don't you?" Say it while pulling my hand and keep smiling.

I felt so astonished that I even kept my eyes wide open by raising both of my eyebrows very high.

"Eee...eee...eehh." My words that have been pulled in by Varel.

Inside, I was completely inexhaustible, because Varel was never angry even though I made mistakes with him, I used his money quite often, making him lost and I also often ruffled his house, this time I even almost made his ornamental plants die because most of it was doused by water by me, but even though it's been so many mistakes that I made with her, she's still not angry with me, and still be relaxed while smiling widely and even invite me to tell him about the problems I bring.

"Barsha, why shut up, let's tell you, were you kicked out again by your mother, or Willi snatched your food again?" Ask him to look so serious wanting to hear from me.

I soon came to my senses and began to be moved by all the kindness he had given me all this time, he's the only person who never scolded me and the only person I can count on when everyone else shunned me, angry with me or when I opened up about them.

"Varel why don't you get mad at me when I open the door to you?" I asked him at the time.

"Ehh..why did you suddenly ask that?" Ask him back who looks quite astonished.

"There's nothing, I just want to know what your reasons are." Reply to him again.

"Barsha, I've been your friend since childhood, I know exactly how you are, and you also understand me very well, so when he people already know each other and understand, there's no reason I'm angry with you, there's no reason I'll be angry with you, if I commemorate something to you maybe it's natural that you are also often upset and irritated to face me, but you are never confused or angry with me, you still accompany me, help me and be by my side when I need you, so there's no reason for me to be mad at him." Reply he gave an answer that made me even more moved.

"Even if I make a big mistake?" I asked him again.

He just nodded at me at that moment, and just kept smiling widely, like he was very sure of the answer he gave me back then.