BARSHA
Requesting Advice

I could only exhale sluggishly considering that Ciko was still sulking at me, even though I thought he had forgiven me for being kind to help me sit down and pay the bus fare for me.

"Hmmm...let's say Ciko will until when we continue to march on each other like this, do you feel comfortable with this awkward and strange situation?" Saying to him.

He still did not answer me until I also had no other ideas, and could only be bowed lethargic and silent during the journey to get to our destination.

I walked with Ciko and just kept up with her pretty quick pace back then, but she seemed unwilling to get close to me, and just kept moving away, it irritated me enough that I immediately held his hand and spoke firmly to him right then and there.

"Ciko please stop being angry like this. We have been friends since childhood are you children who still want to sulk for days to me? If you're angry tell me what's wrong with you, you're the one who didn't allow me to go there I'm also the one who apologized for talking rudely and yelling at you before but isn't that enough for you? Huh!" I said to her with a little emotion.

Ciko started to look at me and I didn't think she even rounded her eyes with her waist-rigged hands back then, it seemed like she was really angry with me this time.

"Barsha I don't like you being close to Jepri, she's different from you and the rest of us, she's not a good person and you know she's played a lot of women, she's also the source of rumors, she's the source of rumors, am I wrong as a friend for worrying about my friend? Huh!" Reply to me at that time.

Instantly I was immediately speechless from Ciko at that time, I did not expect, apparently he was very worried about me to act like this, like this, I'm very happy that someone is worried about me but for me he doesn't have to go overboard like this to me because I can take care of myself.

But I actually felt suspicious at that time, because even other friends never worried about me until like that, even sulking all this time like Ciko.

"eeha? What's wrong with you, why do I feel like your attitude is so strange today, do you like me?" Saying to him.

"Huh...me, like you? The truth is, I wouldn't like my own little best friend, aishh how can I like you I even know you used to wet your pants when you were little, you often bite people's hands like a dog and scratch Niko's face when you fight, aaahhh, where you keep your brain until you think I like you," reply to him while shaking his head and leaving me alone.

I was already pouting resentfully holding back the emotions within myself back then, for instead getting this kind of humiliation from Ciko, whereas I was just trying to guess according to what I was feeling just like, just trying to guess according to what I felt, but he instead gave a very extraordinary reaction like this, to bring up things that I often did in the past.

"Aishh.if you really don't like me at least don't insult me like that, you son of a bitch. Fuck yourself! I don't care anymore even if you're gonna sulk forever, eughhh.....Fucking ciko!" I snapped while continuing to grumble at him.

But she did not respond to me at all, Ciko continued to enter her house without any burden and without the slightest guilt, I who was still upset also immediately went into the house with my mouth continuing to grumble on my own until sitting next to Wili and just continued to put on a face that was bent strongly at that time.

"Based on a shitty man, why should he worry about me like my father, who would dare to rule me? Just watch out for you, I won't be spying on an ice man like you anymore." My move while continuing to rub a small pillow pillow on the sofa that I took.

"Hey...hey...what's wrong with you, coming and even ruin the atmosphere watching me, have you just been chased by thugs again huh?" Ask Wili at the time.

"Huhoo.... Willi I ask you, is there a friend who can worry about his friend as much as his own father, but he says that he doesn't like me?" I asked Wili at the time.

He seemed to directly wrinkle his eyebrows, because he was astonished by what I suddenly asked him at that moment

Even he also touched first directly and made me immediately back away from him.

"Eehh...What do you want to do?" I asked in wonder at that moment.

"Are you sick? Why are you suddenly asking me that?" Say him to me.

"No, I'm healthy, even still very strong, I just ask you, because you've been surrounded by many women who like you of course you will know cooking like this, right? So quickly tell me the answer." I replied to him and urged him quickly.

"Hey.my brother is very, very urgently and the bars have no brains, you hear this is good," said he who again insulted me.

But I still had to hold back my emotions even though the look on my face had changed very flat without any expression other than being arrogant and continued to be patient because I still wanted to hear an explanation from him at that time.

"Sir Barsha is very sad, I think there is no friendship let alone friendship between women and men in this world, because surely one of them will have more feelings for the other, including between you and the three troubling young men of the complex, if I guess for sure it's about Ciko's sister isn't it? But you better not like him first, because of the face and the way he treats it can be seen that he only considers you as a burden," willi's reply was really so heart-piercing that I couldn't speak anymore.

Only able to lean back quickly and exhale violently, because thinking about what Wili said was true as well, I was too silly to think she liked me before.

"Haaahhh, you're right too, but Wili why she always meddles in my affairs, she even sulks when I go with another man, she said, isn't that a sign that she's interested in me and jealous that I'm with another guy?" I replied again to Wili.

She laughed instead in response to my follow-up remarks back then, and I felt completely poked out by my fucking sister tonight.

He was only worried about me as his friend, he also just didn't want me to get any more troublesome if I went to watch that match with him, I only realized when Wili told him.

"You're right, but luckily I didn't get to like Ciko, I just thought of her as a friend, so there's nothing to bother with right now" I said with relief.

"Hey.if you don't like it for what you're thinking about this, and why you care about whether he likes you or not, Barsha that love sometimes you won't notice, you know, so be careful, let alone you always hang out with a lot of men, I don't even understand why they can be close to a woman like you, they might just think of you as a man instead of a real woman." Said the Willi that made me think more.

I kept wondering to myself back then, whether I really liked Ciko, or Ciko who liked me, anyway, but all the words from Wili are getting confusing and I don't know how I feel right now.

I did not want to think about it anymore, so I just went to my room at that time, but Wili instead asked for payment from me for having talked about the previous thing and asked for an opinion from him.

"Aaahh.sudah bodo very, the important thing is I can go anywhere with pleasure and continue to live life without burden, no matter the romance that makes the head dizzy." I said as I stood up and was about to enter my room at that time.

"Barsha..Where are you going? Is that how you're grateful for the advice I've given you at length before?" Said Wili to me at that time.

"Asha...Barsha's.... Barsha's. I'm your brother can't you respect me just a little, I'm three years older than you stupid!" Jerked him.

I had been holding back this emotion from the beginning Willi called me by saying my name like that, but he kept saying it again and again until now even asking for my reward, of course I can't let it go so easily, he should indeed be taught a lesson by me.

"Your name is Barsha, there's no way I'm calling you Lea because she's not here." Reply to me again.

"Basan you don't know manners, aishh here you dare to talk impolite with your own brother, are you tired of living yes, hey.let's you fucking human!" I screamed as I chased after Wili and continued pelting him with the pillow that was there as loud as I could.

Until soon mother separated the two of us and she told us to eat together because dad was home by then.

"Hey...What is it with you guys, every working day fighting constantly, are you guys not tired of fighting every day? The mother who heard it was very tired. Let's quickly eat dad will catch up after he cleans up." Mother said to me at that time.

I stopped chasing Wili and went to the dinner table quickly, I was very hungry at that time, because I had lunch, so while sitting at the dinner table I just picked up the rice and was about to take the side dish as well, but mother held my hand instead and she widened her eyes at me.

"Huh.how dare you start eating when your father hasn't shown up, hold this hand, Aishh... Why are you so disrespectful." Mom said, patting my hand hard enough.

I was forced to pull my hand back while rubbing it slowly because it was quite painful, hit by the clapping of my mother's hand earlier.

"Sstt. Awwww... Mother why the hell, always forbid me, I'm hungry Mom," I complained to her.

But mother instead gave me a sharp look again, so I where dare to do it again, while at the time I was just angry by mother, so, Wili immediately took one egg that was on the plate at that time, but the mother did not forbid it and let Wili eat first, without having to wait for father to arrive at the dinner table first.

"Eee ..eee..ehhh, and he ate before you came, why don't you hold him down, too?" I protested to my mother at the time.

"Aishh..Who are you children, he will enter your Junior High School already Barsha High School, soon you also have to go to college, do not compare with your sister. Let him eat first and you eat with the other side dishes alone, there are still vegetables and fried meatballs that mom made, don't mind the eggs," mother said to me again and again just told me not to fight with Wili.

I was so upset, the way my mother treated me with Wili and Leah was so different, and I couldn't accept any of this.

"I'm not hungry you guys just eat." I said that I can't do anything anymore.

Even if I rebel, get angry, or speak out in defense of myself in front of them, I will still be blamed, because I have never been right, even if only.

I have to keep acting like I'm the first brother in this family, ignored, differentiated and always compared, all of which upset me and made me emotional. Because they do it almost every day.

"Hey... Barsha's.... Barsha where are you going... Don't you really want to eat, Aishh. That kid is really hard to manage." Said his mother while sighing heavily.

Wili who saw Barsha was so upset that night, she was finally moved and did not eat her eggs, he took Barsha's plate and gave the egg to her and took the plate to Barsha's room to feed her because she knew her brother had no lunch at home and she would malleability.

"Hey.eat this, you won't be a strong human being anymore if you don't eat" Wili said as he placed the plate on Barsha's study table.