BARSHA
Feeling Unconsidered

I was actually made to laugh freely because of the behavior of the super duper Niko, she was very funny when scared, indeed, even as Ciko continued to push her head and body away and released Niko's grip on her hand, he still hugged Ciko again and again until it made Ciko really feel very angry at him, until not long ago Ciko managed to get up and he moved away from Niko.

Now that I was the target of Niko, she immediately switched to hugging me very tightly because Ciko who did not want to accept her embrace at that time.

"Belgium ..Niko let me go, why are you hugging me, aish.you let go I'm having a hard time breathing because of you hey...." I screamed as I continued to rebel trying to escape from him.

But this Niko did hug me with all her might, until it was so hard for me to let go, she really outrageously hugged me until I was almost out of breath at that moment, she said, until finally there is Ciko and Varel who want to help me to escape from Niko.

"Hey...Niko let Barsha go you're a coward, and the movie is done stupid!" Snapped at Ciko while pulling the back of Niko's clothes firmly.

Fortunately Ciko managed to pull him away from me, otherwise I really do not know what will end up like later, even his tightness in the hug by Niko I got a small cough on him.

"Hok...ohok... Aishh Niko you're crazy, why are you hugging me like that, you're going to kill me?" I yelled at him with a very upset feeling.

"I'm sorry, Barsha I was just a reflex, anyways this all happened because of Ciko who kept pushing me so I just hugged you because I knew only that would not push me as hard as Ciko. I'm sorry, I won't repeat it again." Niko replied with a small smile at me back then.

I could only exhale a little harshly and just continue to tidy up my clothes while immediately intending to leave from there right then and there.

"Aish... Come on, I'm fine too, let's just go home, Varel I go home first huh, you be careful at your own home your mother today is not home right?" My words say goodbye to Varel.

She just kept nodding slowly in response to my words, and the three of us immediately left from there, Ciko still had to drive Niko home, just like I had done to her, just like I had done to her, because he's the most timid man I've ever known in my life.

"Ciko ..ay if you have to take me home, I'm really afraid to go through that dark road, I promise tomorrow I won't trouble you anymore, but you have to take me now huh." Said Niko who continued to persuade Ciko while holding the edge of her clothes.

"No, there you go home alone, since the beginning I've said you should not watch a horror movie, already know the coward still want to watch it you're a prick keladi know!" Snapping Ciko who still does not want to take Niko home.

Until Niko started glancing at me and I had to rush away from her immediately, before she would ask me to deliver her again like before.

"What's? Don't look at me like that, I have to leave now bye.bye.." I told him as I quickly ran inside the fence of my house and left the two of them as soon as possible.

"Barsha do you have any heart with me, hey... Barsha!" Shouted Niko to me.

Apparently Ciko also died when Niko yelled at me Ciko instead went without saying goodbye to Niko, so that the boy was living alone and he immediately ran the ranggang to go to his house very quickly alone.

"Geez where did Ciko go? She's home, aishh...Ciko Barsha's... You guys really have a lot of heart with me, aaaaaahhh. I should run home soon aaaaaa..." Shouted Niko who directly went from there while running scared by herself.

While on the other hand I was still standing in front of my door and preparing myself to enter this house, I deliberately did not knock on the door and went straight inside while taking off my shoes at that time.

"Mom.I'm coming home" I said quite loudly.

When I went inside I saw that there was no one at home tonight, and the atmosphere was very quiet very different from usual, I started to feel astonished and continued to look for my mother and father, too, because they should be at home at this hour.

"Well.....Wili..you where, mother.... Aishh.Where did they all go why was there no one at home?" My gertutuku was astonished at that moment.

Since I had been looking into Wili's room and their mother's room remained non-existent I started to feel more astonished until not long after I opened my phone I got a message from Wili.

"Sister, me, dad and mom went to see Leah first she said she was sick so tonight we don't go home, maybe we go home tomorrow or the day after Leah recovers." Fill in a message from Wili at that time.

I could only exhale languidly, looking at the house where there was no food supply and all of them who left me alone.

"Are they that careful with Leah? But why doesn't it seem like I'm not even the one who told me this news is just that damn brat, via SMS anyway." Throwing my phone into bed.

I felt really sad, felt like I wasn't considered and ignored by my own family, not that I wasn't worried about Lea, not that I didn't care about her, but why did they have to go see Leah together and why did they have to stay there long enough, why leave me alone at home, even without food supplies, he said, there's only one egg and leftovers on the dinner table, do they think I'm a cat, why it's like this, I feel like I'm being dumped by my own family.

"Why should I live and be born of this family, if I could choose I wanted to be someone else's daughter, the daughter of a mother who would love me and protect me well, not live in a family that doesn't care about me at all like this." I'm thinking again.

I didn't want to live alone in this house so I decided to go to Varel's house, because he was the only one who lived alone in that luxurious house, he said, I think because Varel is alone maybe he'll feel as lonely as I am.

"Varel you're still not asleep, why even clean up all this yourself, we'll agree to clean things up tomorrow together." I said while helping him at the time.

"Ehh...why did you come back Barsha? Didn't you go home?" Ask him with a confused face.

I also felt confused as to what kind of reason to Varel and I was forced to lie to him even though he could not be lied to by me at all.

"Aahh....I think you will be lonely in a house this big alone, so I came here, I want to stay at your house can't you?" I replied to him at that time.

I immediately cleaned up all the used bottles on the table and Varel turned silent while continuing to look at me fixedly and asked me a few questions at that time.

"Barsha are you sure you came here just because you were worried about me, and afraid I was lonely?" Ask him again to make me feel uncomfortable.

"Yes, I'm your best friend I have to take care of you, I don't want you to be lonely because it's uncomfortable." I replied to him while holding back the tears that almost came down from my eyes at that time.

"Barsha you can't lie to me, is your mother scolding you again? Or did Wili mess with you? Did they lock you outside again? I know you're lonely, you don't have to pretend to be cheerful like this in front of me if you're okay while your eyes have been red and watery like that since the beginning you came." Varel said that I can't argue anymore.

"Varel what you're talking about, I'm fine, I'm gonna throw the bottle and trash first." My words diverted the conversation to him.

I just don't want anyone to know my weakness, and I don't want to trouble others, I don't want to show all the sadness I feel because I think I'm strong, I can bear it myself and no one else needs to know about the pain that keeps growing inside me.

But apparently Varel was different, he might also feel what I felt because his family was not whole, and his mother rarely went home and always forgot his birthday, since childhood when others go on vacation only me and Varel are always left in this complex both so we spend a lot of vacation time alone at the house of Varel which at least has a lot of food and we can survive when we are forgotten by people.

This time when I was about to go throw away the trash bottle we used to drink earlier, Varel suddenly hugged me from behind and he put his head on my shoulder, he kept arresting me and told me not to pretend to be strong again in front of him.

"Edh ..Varel what are you doing, why are you hugging me?" I asked him a little surprised at that moment.

"You don't have to pretend that in front of me, Barsha, I know you're sad right now, and I know that lonely person is you, I don't want you to feel sad, I'm here you have to assume my whereabouts, and I won't leave you like the others." Varel's words made me even more moved by him back then.

"Varel what you're talking about I'm not lonely, I'm not sad, for what I feel lonely when I have many friends who love me and always accompany me all this time, I'm fine, so please let me go, I still have to throw all this away." Reply to him.

I didn't dare turn around to look at Varel back then because my tears had started to fall down my cheeks profusely and I didn't want Varel to know that, but what I didn't expect was that Varel turned my body directly and he hugged me tightly at that moment until all the bottles I had been packing fell down, she suddenly kissed me gently and then hugged me again with warmth, a feeling of warmth that I had never felt before.

"Much.... You mustn't be sad Barsha, there's still me who will always accompany you." Say it while rubbing my head gently.

I was stunned as well as shocked by what Varel had just done to me, this was the first time I had gotten a kiss on my forehead by a man and it felt like my heart was pounding so hard, I began to feel uncertain and did not know what to do at that time.

But I felt comfortable as Varel hugged me gently and warmly like that, although I did like it but quickly awakened myself, I realized that he was only a friend to me so I quickly pushed his body and immediately went to dispose of the trash nervously and absentmindedly by myself at that moment.

"Ohh.a..AA. I have to throw away the trash." I said to him as I immediately went outside and threw everything at the garbage disposal outside Varel's house at that time.

While throwing away all the trash I kept thinking strangely and imagining the previous events that happened to me and Varel back then, I just kept thinking strangely, because I just couldn't sleep in Varel's house tonight and I decided to sleep in my own house instead.

"Jeez...what does Varel think is actually, why does he kiss my forehead, there's no way he likes me?" I held my forehead at that moment.

I just kept shaking my head strongly, trying to get rid of the strange thoughts and all the prejudices inside me back then.

"Oohh.no no, it's all impossible, me and Varel can't, we've been very close friends, and I consider him like my own brother, this can't be." I kept grumbling myself.

I immediately turned around and was very surprised to see Varel walking towards me at that moment, my feelings suddenly became erratic nervous and I just say goodbye to him as fast as I could.

"YES...AA..Ahhh..Varel, it's been a night I didn't so stay at my house, I have to go home, aaahaha.I'm going yes, excuse me." I said to him nervously.

I quickly left his house and just kept coming into my house immediately, I could not continue to imagine the previous matter that was so confusing to me.

I went to my room quickly and closed the door firmly, went straight into the blanket and covered all parts of my body as soon as possible.