BARSHA
Quarrelling

But actually when I was really upset and very emotional to Ciko it felt like I wanted to beat him up and keep kicking him up into space if I could, if I could, but of course all that is just a delusion of mine, where maybe there is also a human who can kick other humans into space let alone me.

I immediately exhaled in lethargy and kept trying to be patient and immediately returned to the dining table to pick up the leftovers I and Ciko had and wash them in the kitchen immediately.

While continuing to grumble occasionally with annoyance and full of emotion at that time, I continued to feel very upset and emotion when I remembered the face of the very annoying Ciko.

"Eughhh.If only I could have a better family, surely I wouldn't end up like this, Aishh..it is so annoying that I have to be a successful person in the future so that no one can underestimate me, ignoring me even with the heart to let me sleep outside like this, though I am also a woman, huaaa... very annoying eugh..eugh," said I continue to grumble while continuing to wash the dirty dishes that are there.

Until shortly after I finished doing everything then I immediately wanted to go into Ciko's room, I entered quickly and just continued to enter without a stale ado, because I'm so used to it and often I go in and out of that room, but when I came in I saw in fucking Ciko it was actually sleeping soundly alone in his bed without him opening the bed for me first.

"Aishh.he is a man without a heart, right? How can he even go to sleep without opening the bed first, you annoying human!" My gertutuku felt very upset and stared intently at Ciko at that moment.

I just kept feeling so irritated and emotional for him, I went straight up to him and patted him with the bolster there as hard as I could then, to wake him up.

"Eughhh..buk...buk..buk..buy hey...wake up you basic b*ngke Lo Ciko!" My screams were already very emotional in dealing with it back then.

But unfortunately Ciko still did not wake up, but I also knew before she had done her eyes but she just continued to pretend to sleep on purpose, it made me feel so emotional and upset, so I had to take the water in the kitchen and just throw the water from the glass into Ciko's face so that she could immediately rise from her very annoying sleep and it was difficult for me to wake up when that's.

"Aishh..byurr.feel it wake you up!" I shouted while directly splashing the water on Ciko's face.

It felt so satisfied that I was able to send the water to Ciko's face that she was immediately shocked to get up and sit facing me while wiping her face.

"Aahhh...you're this shit, just casually flushing people's faces, do you think I don't shower what?" Jerk him at me by wiping his face at that moment.

I ruffled my waist towards Ciko by pursing my lips filled with emotion back then, I just went right up to him and continued to urge him closer and closer while staring intently and directly scolding him with all my might at that moment.

"Heh.heh.heh, listen to me, you are the cruelest man I have ever known, see this how you can sleep without shifting the bed under you, I'd also like to sleep and this roll and blanket would be mine you can only sleep with your pillow, just step aside!" Snapped me while grabbing the roll and blanket previously held by Ciko back then.

He stared with his eyebrows furrowed at me and I did not care at all about the sharp look he gave me at that time, because all I had to do right now was sleep alone.

I slide the bed and immediately sleep right next to Ciko's bed at that time, I also put on the blanket and turn in the opposite direction while turning my back on Ciko's body at that time.

"Why do you keep giving me that look?" I yell at him with annoyance.

Because after I turned around and laid down my body he was still sitting on his bed giving me a sharp look continuously at that moment, so I just kept feeling uncomfortable to sleep and was forced to turn back to look at him and yell at him like that.

"Why? It is up to me that I will look at you staring at the cake wall, or staring at the head of the bull is also not your business, you if you want to sleep just sleep, I am like this because of you, too, you've doused my face with water to make me unable to fall asleep again!" Reply to her with her annoying face to me back then.

I really don't think about what's inside her little brain, though he already knew that I could not fall asleep comfortably and quietly if there were still people who were watching me, let alone looking at me with a fixed and very disturbing gaze.

"Damn you, it's up to you, let's look, just keep looking at my face until you're tired, even if you need to until you like me, I'll take your eyes off!" I yelled at him while immediately turning around and turning my back on Ciko again.

I immediately pulled out the thick blanket and just quickly closed my eyes and continued to try to fall asleep, while on the other hand Ciko himself even smiled secretly and he was still staring at Barsha's face until Barsha was really asleep at that time.

"If you had known that I felt something different about you, would you have thought that there would be a man who could stand it if he slept in a room with a woman? Even if the woman was his little friend, one of them would have liked her, more than just a casual friendship, and unfortunately even I felt that way towards me," ciko grumbled slowly while immediately returning to lay down his body again.

He continued to sleep sideways and stared at Barsha's back then, even when Barsha was unaware that she turned around, Ciko kept smiling and was very happy to see her face while she was sound asleep.

Evening running too fast Varel had just returned from his race and he had even received the announcement of the victory of the race, but of course it takes some time for him to reach his own hometown because the Olympics were held outside the city.

While this morning when I woke up I saw that ciko's bed was already looking very neat, he was indeed quite good at cleaning and arranging things until it looked neat, I also immediately cleaned up my bed marks and quickly went outside, when I saw Ciko sitting at the dinner table and aunt cooking that morning, I have to go to the bathroom and as usual just need to take a bath because in my house it is definitely being used by my sister Wili who takes a bath like a princess, she always took a shower for so long that I had to wait for her for half an hour longer if she was in the bathroom.

"Bii.I borrowed the bathroom?" I asked permission first.

"Yes, just wear it, Ciko has been wearing it since dawn." Auntie's reply to me.

I had a chance to wrinkle my eyebrows while staring at Ciko because of the tumben once he took a shower at dawn, though usually he is a child who always takes a bath at six o'clock only on the grounds that the water is not too cold because he does not like to bathe with warm water.

"Why?" Said Ciko who suddenly snapped at me because I was looking at her at that moment.

"CK..I'm just staring at you like that you're this angry, emotional!" I replied to him as I quickly went into the bathroom and did not care what he said to me at that time.

I also forgot something that I wanted to ask Ciko earlier, it made me forget to ask her again because she who had suddenly snapped at me loudly.

The bathroom in Ciko's house is indeed the most comfortable compared to the bathroom in my own house, especially the bathroom in Varel's house is like the bathroom in the hotel only.

Today the water is very fresh and abundant so I can wash my hair and dry it at the same time, until half I came out of the bathroom I was very fresh and immediately said goodbye to auntie because I had to go to school and change clothes quickly.

"Bi I go home yes, thank you very much for your kindness, I will often stop by here," I said to him while shaking hands with him and aunt had offered me breakfast but I refused because I was too embarrassed at that time.

"eehhhh. Barsha do not go home first, here breakfast first here aunt has cooked your favorite food loh," said aunt to me.

"Aaahh..I'm sorry auntie not that I don't want to but I'm afraid my mom would be more rampaging at me if she only knew that I've been bothering you too much all this time, so it's best that now I just go home so that mom doesn't get angry with me either" I replied to aunt in a gentle way.

"Aishh.you've got this food, if you don't have breakfast here it's okay but bring provisions from aunt, don't let you go to school without breakfast, later you will be weak and not the spirit of learning later." Reply to the mother who was very attentive to me at that time.

I couldn't refuse the kindness of auntie anymore either because maybe she would feel sad if I refused the gift she had prepared for me back then.

"Aahhhh, thank you so much bi, you are the most understanding to me. Then I go, bi, dah Ciko," I said to him as I immediately left with a box of food that I quickly put in my school bag because of course it would not be safe if it was seen by Wili or mother when I was in home later.

I went by mentally preparing myself for already knowing that I would definitely get a lot of scuffles from mom or even she would give me other harsh punishments like grabbing my hair or taking my ear later, do not know why mother can be that hard in educating me but so attentive to Lea and very indulgent Wili.

I went to the house and just walked in, I went in slowly to open my shoes because I was afraid to meet my mother and I deliberately slipped because I was afraid of getting spray of anger from my mother because last night I did not return home early to my home homehouse.

"Huhu.hopefully mother does not exist," I said quietly at the time.

Until not long when I almost got into my room, the stupid Willi even caught me and shouted to call mom to make mom go straight out of the kitchen and she just came right away stopped me and pulled the collar of my back clothes so tightly that I could not run away from it back then.

"Mothers... Barsha comes home Mom..Hurry up here Mom!" Shouted Wili who surprised me so much that my eyes were wide open and I immediately tried to escape from there at that time.

"Good shut up! Why are you screaming aishhh ..basal sister accursed you!" My move while frowning both of my brows stared hatefully at Willi back then.

"Oh..you entered secretly huh..good! Hurry up, you're gonna teach me a lesson, come with me!" Mother said as she continued to dance the collar of my back clothes like a helpless cat.

"Huhu.mom's sorry, please let me go, I didn't come back anyway because mom locked the door last night so I didn't come in, even I knocked on the door very hard and yelled continuously at you and Wili but the door was still closed, that's why I went to Ciko's house I slept with my aunt and I didn't go wandering around" I explained to her.

But even though instead of stopping being angry or having his emotions subside he became emotional to me and just kept getting angry with me, I really didn't know I had to do anything at the time, so I kept getting scolded and getting a few pats on my b*kong by a broom from my mother that morning.

"You.be quiet here and feel the punishment from me, eughh.buk..it's for you who always don't listen to my words, buk...it's also for you who always come home late at night....this is for you who always answer when your mother gives advice, huh ... Barsha can't you just live your life like your brother or sister? You are so annoying!" Mom ruffled her waist beside me and she just kept patting my b*kong hard many times back then.

I could only stand still and not fight back as much as what he expected from me, I just stared expressionlessly ahead and kept trying to hold back the tears on my face back then, even though my heart ached and was broken from my mother's treatment of me being so harsh like this, but I would still be the wrong person every time I told her the truth, she said, and every time I tried to defend myself, I still didn't heed it, I just thought everything I said was just a plea to myself not to be upset by it at the time, whereas I myself do not intend to do that, I just want you to understand me, and I just want you to understand my condition and my current position.

Even I myself want to live life like Lea and Wili but my own mother who made my life chaotic like this.

Until then I was at my most upset point until I couldn't hold back the emotions inside myself at that moment, and I immediately replied to the words of my mother who was comparing me with Wili as well as Lea.

"You should be able to emulate your sister she's smart and she gets a great scholarship, she's also the most accomplished student in the class she can boast of me as the mother who gave birth to her, and if you can't be as smart as your sister Lea at least you should be like Wili who can take care of herself, he's handsome and gets a lot of praise from my friends because of his beautiful face at least I don't feel ashamed to have a son like him, whereas you.." said my mother who was immediately restrained because I immediately denied it quickly.

"I'm just troublemaking, I'm not as accomplished as Lea and I don't have a beautiful face like Wili, nor am I as lucky as the other kids who can have a cypress family, I don't get the same provisions as my brother or sister, I don't get side dishes every time I want to eat just because I'm ugly in your eyes, I also can't shower earlier or longer because mom always put Wili first, mom always said even if I take a bath longer than Wili I'll never be a pretty girl! And even though I studied diligently I still wouldn't be as smart as Lea! What else is Mom? Let's say all the hurtful words you've been saying to me since I was a child until I was as big as I am now, even so that I can remember all the words of my mother that inflict a permanent wound on me, mom doesn't have to take care of me if you don't expect a daughter like me, I'll leave this house if that's what you want and you can't admit me in front of your friends later, let's just say mom never had a daughter like me!" I replied to him as I quickly left there and entered my room as soon as possible.

I could not understand or remain silent when my presence was not at all desired by my own mother, I went to clean all my clothes and put them in the suitcase I was about to leave the house but my father quickly held me back as well as the mother who again yelled at me and said I was the son who durhaka, he still does not understand me even though I have said everything.

"Barsha don't do that, Barsha you go where if you go from this house, Barsha don't put into the heart the words of your mother she actually loves you as much as she does to Wili and Leah, he's just dizzy, please Barsha don't leave this house if you still think of this father as your father" said the father holding my suitcase at the time.

I stared with a fixed gaze at my mother, I wanted her to speak up and hold me back then, but my hope was just a false hope, my mother is definitely not the same as the mother of my other friends.

"Just let the boy go he will definitely come back again because he can not live hanging on the streets with his iniquity alone." Said the mother who made me even more have a lot of strong determination to leave that house.

But seeing that father hugging me and holding me firmly I can't let father continue like this, he still had to work and I still had to go to school at the time so I decided to stop sulking and chose to go to school immediately.

"No...Mom, what are you saying? She's the same as our other son Barhsa is my daughter and you have no right to expel her anymore because this house is mine!" Snapped father to the mother who defended me back then.

Now I feel a little happy because at least there is still a father who was my protector at that time, and there is also a father who still wants to hold back I also recognize me as his daughter at that time.

"Barsha come on baby...ayo quickly put your suitcase back and go to school come on dad's motorcycle, don't you always want to be in daddy's bell? Come on, baby, I'll take you today." Father persuaded me.

But when I just smiled and nodded to my father, suddenly Wili came and he could not accept I would be delivered to school on my father's motorcycle at that time because usually he was the one who always went between to school by father.

"Loh dad didn't you promise me that you'd go to school with me why now even to Barsha?" Said Wili at that time.

"My motorbike will be big enough for the three of us to ride, I can take the two of you alternately later," replied Dad to Willi.

I do not mind even having to bonceng three with Wili but different from me, of course, Willi will have a high enough prestige he refused loudly and said he would not go to school if father did not take her and even invite me to go with them at that time.

"Can't be so dong yeah, I'd be embarrassed if I went to school with three threesome women like it's been all this time I've been ridiculed my friends because they say Barsha is a tomboy and creepy woman who there is going to be more and more stay away from me when I see me at school coming with him." Said the Willi which was really very annoying to me.

I could only take a strong breath and throw it away slowly, I had to give up again because I did not want to make mom and dad fight just because of trivial things like this added Wili who continued to pester them both at that time.

"Well you go with Wili usually also so let Barsha go to school alone she can take the bus or go with her friends, it is, for what he had to be delivered by his father he was also a big boy now," said the mother at the time.

"Of Barsha is also my son I've never rammed him in the back with my bike, he's also definitely wanted to feel it, Willi I've been screwing every time I work the morning sip must be the Willi that I will bring, only Barsha who has never felt it," said the father told his mother.

I immediately stopped the debate between mother and father and decided to leave alone at that moment.

"Dad, I've had no problem if I go alone, besides I still have a lot of coins to ride the bus, I can also go with Ciko if you don't have to worry about me," my words calmed my father down so that he would not argue with my mother again at that time and only made the atmosphere very chaotic in the house.