BARSHA
Crying Secretly

Mom and Dad looked at me and of course at that moment mom told me to go on the bus and she gave me pocket money right then and there, but still he did not add his allowance to me at all even though there was still a father ahead.

"Well, you can hear yourself, right, Barsha is a different adult with Wili who is far enough from school from here she is also still a Junior High child what if something happens to her on the way later, barsha hastens you to go to school for you and don't bother your friend, you trouble others if every day is like that, already there to go," mother said as she pushed my body out of the house at that time.

Although my father held my mother and she kept talking to me but I better understand my position at that time that he also could not deny mother or provide her to go to work could also be mother subtract, I just don't want to make my father difficult because he's the only one who's willing to defend me and care about me right now so there's no way I'm letting him suffer because of me, moreover, this is only because of a trivial matter, so I prefer to give up, after all I have gotten used to all the things that are not in this house for my life all this time, I just need to be a little patient in the face of my mom and that damn sister, until I can become an adult and make my own money, I will be able to escape from this house and still stop even though anyone is blocking me, even though it is raining.

"Barsha..wait for Barsha...are you sure you can go to school by yourself?" Said the father who still looked worried about me.

"Dad look at me this Barsha I'm a brave and great girl I won't have any problems, anyone I can fight, don't worry about me okay," I said to my father and immediately greeted him and left quickly.

Although actually at that time I held back the tears that had begun to climb my eyes and continued to collect in my eyelids and fill my eye bags, he said, until my eyes began to glaze over and my vision was not clear because it was blocked by those damn tears, I kept trying to remove all the tears in my eyeballs that disturbed my eyes.

But I couldn't stop it even though many times I kept wiping the tears and I just kept crying at the bus stop while grumbling resentfully blaming myself for crying like this there are many people waiting for the bus there.

"Aish ..hiks..hiks..stupid why these tears can't stop anyway, I'm not sad why even keep crying sob like this, aishh," my grunts just kept feeling erratic back then.

Until Niko and Ciko appear shortly, then, I don't know why they're still coming to the bus stop because I thought Ciko was going to use that electric scooter she always showed me, and I thought they had gone to school earlier, but I wasn't the one who left my two friends.

"Hey... Barsha why did you leave us I waited for you in front of the house for a few minutes because I thought you hadn't come out yet, it turns out uncle said you've been gone since morning, aishh you are indeed very unfaithful friend," niko told me.

I who heard their voices quickly turned my eyes away and quickly wiped the tears on my face I didn't want them both to see I was crying because I was afraid they would be there it will only hurt me and so forth.

But no matter how hard I hid it, that bastard Ciko could still find out and he instead gave a tishu to me to make Niko suspicious too and he paid more attention to my face at that time, until he also followed me knowing that I had just finished crying at that time.

"Hey what's wrong with you, here take the knife and smooth the rest of the tears on my cheek," said Ciko as she gave a tisyu to me.

"I'm not crying I just glimpsed so there are tears on my cheeks, you are saying it carelessly!" My reply to him was still trying to hide his truth back then.

But unfortunately they were both not people I could lie to in the least so still they knew the truth back then, it was Niko who came to my face with both hands back then and she just kept talking to me then very strangely while continuing to examine my face continuously back then.

"Hey..hey...do you really cry? Wahh Barsha who dares to cradle in tears let's quickly tell me, I'll flatten the man with the ground!" Niko said as she was really brave at the time.

He always acted that way when I knew he was the most timid person among the four of us if anything happened or there was anything around us, even he could not fight the thugs who would blackmail him and instead bring Ciko to come in the squeeze too at that time.

"Aishh...Let go of your hand it must have been holding onto something strange right? Aishh was holding my face, you slobber!" I yelled at him while throwing his hand out loud because I knew he was so lazy to wash his hands that he didn't know why he could be that slovenly human.

Still fortunately he never got sick because of his bad habit of lazily washing hands like that, so at that time I immediately snapped at him and threw his hands quickly.

"Ehehe.no this morning I didn't eat breakfast and I just scratched my head just a few seconds ago ahehe," he said he made me very familiar and just grabbed another tissue from Ciko's hand to clean both of my cheeks that he had already held with his dirty hands.

"Aaahh..Fuck you why do you have to hold both my cheeks so anyway? Ciko come here give me more ticks, aahhh later that my cheeks can be acne because of the dirt from your fucking hands that are not in school!" Jerked him.

Niko looked even more upset that I was yelling at him like that and he just clicked and then immediately got into the bus because it just so happened that the bus just arrived and stopped in front our.

I was so upset and Langysaja kicked him so hard that he almost fell in front of the queue to get into the bus at the time, but that fucking Niko he still wasn't kapok at all even though I've beaten him many times with my own two hands or kicked b*kongnya that has not been counted again all this time that I do to him whenever he irritates or turns his back on me while shaking the back of his body that makes me so sick and irritated I reflexively always kicked his b*kong when he did that to me.

He must indeed be taught such a lesson so that he does not dare to disturb me again, even when he was treated so rudely he still dared to disturb me especially if I was patient with him like what Varel and Ciko had always done before who could not give anything rude to humans it seems like this is very natural indeed it is mandatory to be beaten.

Once we were on the bus, we sat the three of us side by side and I got a seat in the middle between Ciko and Niko at the time, the three of us got a seat in the back seat back then so we could sit down freely and Ciko started asking me seriously back then.

"Why did you cry earlier, I asked you seriously so answer correctly, Niko was worried about you as well" Ciko told me at the time.

"I don't papa I've told you I'm flickering because of the dust of the streets, what else can make me cry I never cry is indeed this cute Niko," I returned to him at that time.

I tried so hard not to cry and not to show sadness in me at that time, but unfortunately Ciko can still guess for herself what happened to me without me letting her know what happened to me then actually.

"Heh... I know you must have sprayed your mother again, right? Only he can make you like this, otherwise you will be very irritated because your sister is Willi or you will feel very angry because of the behavior of your sister Lea, I already know everything about you why do you still want to hide it from us?" Said Ciko who was directly timped by Niko who always followed the snatching is not clear, but he himself also does not know anything if Ciko does not say it.

"It's true what Ciko says we are friends, friends since childhood and always together for a long time so you should be open to all of us not just you who know all about us, it's not fair to know," niko added that moment to me.

"Aish you guys this is why, I don't want to talk about it anymore I'm okay anyway, there's nothing to talk about with you guys you know how my family is, so why explain it again makes me even more upset about having to remember it again," answer me to them until they finally stop to push me again.

And Kai had already arrived at the school by then, I also immediately went to avoid Ciko and Iko quickly so that they would not go back to asking me many other things because I was so lazy to talk everything over to the two of them back then, because it feels like this is not something I deserve to talk about there are both of them.

Even if they were my friends since childhood, but family matters should not be told to others who do not live at home with me.

So I prefer to just stay quiet and keep everything alone until later I might be able to forget everything or pretend to have forgotten the events that hurt my heart at this time.

Even now that I get to school and meet my other friends I can change the mood in me and can become more cheerful and do activities at school with the same cheerfulness as the children who were there and behaved as if I did not have any sadness in me right now because I could still keep joking around with them and laughing by then.

While on the other hand Kevin who was on the way he began to wait for the announcement of the professor who was still in the first location to wait for the results of the race, the race was over, until not long he began to get word from the professor that he had been selected as the first winner and would actually represent his university including representing our country to continue his race to the level of the world when that's.

He was very happy and Varel was already impatient to tell his friends later about this happy news.

He also contacts Barsha first in comparison to his other friend, Varel sends a chat message to Barsha and says that he has good news and a surprise for her.

It was only after contacting Barsha Varel that she contacted her mother and sent a chat to the gruf containing her other friends.

Arriving in the gruf, Varel said about his victory until Ciko became the first person to reply and learned the happy news from Varel at that time.

While I who at that time did not have a package on my phone, of course, I could not receive chat messages from anyone to my phone because there was no quota in it and I could not afford to fill it when this, so I just put my phone in the bag with no use at all.

Indeed, my phone has been out of package a few days ago and I who do not have extra money from anywhere can not fill it until now, even the battery in it is still full because I do not use the phone, because what can be used if a phone is no quota in it, whereas in today's super sophisticated like this all need a quota to turn on or use the phone.