At the End of the Waiting (Love of the Soldier)
CHAPTER 37. The Deepened Taste

For 2 months, Viara has been living her days with smiles and happiness with Andra near her. Although Viara thought whether she could accompany Andra with a disease that could at any time take his life, but Viara always tried to stay healed and eager to undergo chemotherapy for his survival even longer.

While Pandu, he prefers to soak his love feelings alone. Pandu also always tries to stay away from Viara when he sees Viara with Andra. Pandu does not want to experience excessive taste injuries when he sees the two together later. But behind his hidden love, Pandu always tries to give attention and laughter when he is with Viara. Pandu strengthens his heart to still love Viara even though Pandu knows his deed will be very painful because Viara's heart since long ago was not for him. But Pandu breathed a little relieved because he was also very special in Viara's heart. Viara always took the time to be with Pandu and spent their days together with helping the surrounding residents. For Viara, Pandu is not the person she loves, but Viara loves Pandu like a sister for her brother.

Pandu sometimes mused, is there still a chance for him to have Viara? Because Andra had said before that if she had found her masked girl, then she would go straight to her parents and propose to the girl. Andra said it seriously and there was no word of play in it. Although his heart still loves Viara, Pandu still tries to take her slowly.

But not that easy, mengikhlaskan our loved ones is certainly very difficult, right? Even Pandu several times always jealous and half dead seeing the togetherness of the two.

Pandu wants to run while taking Viara with him, but who is he? Is she special in Viara's heart? is Viara willing to accept her love when Viara's heart has been attached to someone else? Only God and the author know

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"Viara, there's something I want to talk to you about" said Ila sitting opposite Viara

"Dad go ahead, Ila" Viara replied smilingly as she stared at her laptop screen

"But you promise not to be mad at me well" Pinta Ila before saying her true meaning

"If indeed what you say is the truth, then I will not be angry as bitter or as bad as the truth" said Viara smiled sweetly at Ila and looked back at her computer screen. Ila controlled her breathing and started to say her point

"I feel like bang Pandu loves you Viara". Viara stopped typing on her laptop and turned to stare at Ila in front of her

"What makes you think that way?" Ask Viara in serious fashion. Ila sighed and started to tell Viara her suspicions all along

"Was you been with Pandu, you didn't read the cues written in his eyes? Every time I look into her eyes when she sees you, there's a lot of hidden love in those eyes. In her heart it was as if there was only you Viara, not the others. But she harbors that feeling alone, because she knows you'll never be hers. Pandu knows you will never belong to her because since long ago your heart has been owned by someone else who is not her" Viara fell silent and began to digest her speech just now

"If you still doubt his love for you then listen to me" said Ila clasped Viara's hands together and looked into her two fixed eyes

"You know Viara, when your body was weak when we were going to the city, it was Pandu who worried about you the most. He takes you into his arms and gives you warmth. At that time all the passengers behind were asleep on the trip, except Pandu. He stays awake and keeps protecting you in his arms. You remember the night of her birthday bang Andra, when you were silent and crying alone. The guide who saw you crying through the Video connection was very anxious for you, even he was desperate to go home on a rainy night just for you. The next morning when you lay feverishly helpless on the floor, then Pandu swiftly guarded and took care of you with all his heart. She was so scared that she even cried when she saw you in such a state. Tell me is that not the meaning of love?" Viara glazed over to hear Ila's words

"He loves you Viara, loves you so much. Only she keeps it alone because it's impossible to have you. I didn't mean to make you worry about your love for Andra. I just want you to realize that there is a heart that wants and wants to have you, even though it never tells you. He resigned Viara, he was very resigned when you chose Andra rather than him. He resignedly harbored his feelings alone because it has only his wish. I'm sure you can definitely feel all the feelings" Ila explained everything

Ila continued to tell more about her attention and suspicion so far towards Pandu. Viara who heard that shed tears imagining how devastated Pandu was when Viara preferred Andra over her. His heart crumbled to remember Pandu 2 months ago, when Pandu cried in his arms. Viara also looked at Pandu's eyes and concluded that there were many heart wounds and burdens on them. Unfortunately Viara was late to realize that. Now Viara understood everything that Pandu put in until tears kept flowing down her cheeks

"I'm sorry Viara, I didn't mean to.." Ila's speech was interrupted because Viara had her index finger on her lips

"Thank you for telling me, thank you for waking me up before I realized it too late. Thank you ila" Viara stood up from her seat and hugged ila tightly

"Sama-sama Viara, one thing I want. If you can't make her own you, at least don't make her regret having loved you. Don't make her cry by hurting her heart. You're my best friend, you know how to treat your closest friends well. The spirit of yah" said Ila, nodding his head by Viara

"Jaudah we go home with yuk" Ila asked.

Viara wiped her tears and grabbed her bag to go home with ila. On the way home, Viara kept daydreaming about Pandu, even the greetings of villagers greeting her on the road were ignored by Viara

"Viara, I have to stop at my student's house here, you go home first well, the distance is close" said Ila

"Well I go home firstwell, assalamu'alaikum" said Viara

"Walaikumsalam Viara be careful" Viara smiled at Ila and resumed her steps back home

"The Pandu, I'm sorry. I was too late to realize your love for me. I'm sorry I made you resign because my heart prefers Andra. I'm sorry" said Viara back to shed her tears

"But I promise I won't make you regret ever loving me. I will always be there for you if you need me. You're also a very special person in my heart, I've taken it like my own brother. Although I have not been able to return your love for me, but I love you very much Pandu" Viara's inner tears wipe her eyes and smile remembering Pandu's face that is reflected in her mind.

Viara who was close to her house stopped her steps when she saw Pandu who was working in front of the post with bang Rama. Viara hid near the tree to observe the two

"Is the piano good?" Tanya Bang Rama who helped fix the piano in front of the post with Pandu

"However, I check first" said Pandu immediately grabbed a chair and sat in front of the piano. Pandu began pressing the piano keys to check the results of their work to fix the piano

"Udah bang, the piano is good, even the tone is regular" said Pandu happy

"Alhamdulillah then bang" said bang Rama smiled and began packing their toolbox. The Denis queen who had just arrived at the post was stunned to see the piano in front of Pandu

"Well, where's that piano from?" Ask Pratu Denis curious

"Ohh this is given by the village head bang, he said rather than just being a display in the warehouse, mending down here aja. But it has to be repaired because it has a little damage. But thank God the damage has been successfully repaired" said Bang Rama explained

"Ohh, you can play piano dong then. I went inside first well, there's still a lot of work to take care of" said Denis pratu taken by his two friends

"Bang, this piano has not been used for a long time, try to play the piano while singing" advised bang Rama

"Dad too yeah"

"Dad bang, just take the mic first inside" said Bang Rama went into the post and pulled out the mic that was directly placed in front of Pandu

"Well try my brother to sing, let me play his drum" said Bang Rama

"Oke Bang" exclaimed Pandu agreed. Pandu started playing the piano and started singing a song. Viara smiled and began to observe Pandu who would sing from behind the tree

I can't believe you're here

With me when he left

Removing all the pain I think

Could you feel

Everything I put up

Remember the love

I like him, maybe I love him

But is it possible, you are mine

You were once, being hers

But my fault

When I taste this

Behind the large tree nearby, Pandu did not realize there was someone who kept watching him while shedding tears

Na nana nanana nanana nanana

Could you feel

Everything I've given up

Remember the love

I like him, maybe I love him

But is it possible, you are mine

You were once, being hers

But my fault

When I harbor this taste

"Yes Allah's brother hiks.." lirih Viara cried as if he lived the song, as if Pandu was pouring out his heart through the song he sang

I like him, maybe I love him

But is it possible, you are mine

You were once, being hers

But it's my fault

When I taste this

Author until nangis heard the song while imagining Pandu's pent-up love story for Viara during this😢

Prok.. Prok.. Prok.. boisterous Bang Rama clapped his hands. Pandu wiped his tears and smiled sweetly at Bang Rama

"The spirit of yah bang, pursue him in your prayers. If God had destined him for you, even though he now belongs to someone else, he will one day return for you. Don't give up yah bang" said Bang Rama hugging Pandu and patting his back. Bang Rama is a witness behind the struggle and the destruction of Pandu in loving Viara, so bang Rama really understands what his good friend feels. Behind the smile that Pandu always showed, there was a lot of resignation and heartache that he craved alone.

Viara wiped her tears and walked over to Pandu

"Assalamu'alaikum bang" Viara said with a smile

"Walaikumsalam deck, here sitting next to brother" said Pandu softly. Viara nodded and sat down beside Pandu while smiling at him

"Crying boy? Adek is sick yah" asked Pandu anxiously staring at Viara's moist eyes

"Dad bang, sick grandpa. It hurts to see you bearing the burden of being alone for loving me all this time" Viara's inner grabbing both hands of Pandu and kissing him long enough until Pandu is stunned by him.

"I'm sorry bang, I'm sorry" Viara's inner still kissed the back of Pandu's hand very long with tears that always dripped from her eyes. Pandu felt the dots of tears dripping on the back of his hand

"What's the deck?" Ask Gentle Scout. Viara lifted her face and looked closely at Pandu's eyes and realized Ila's speech was right. With her puffy eyes, Viara looked at Pandu's eyes and saw there was a lot of love for him. In her eyes there was also sadness and wounds that were still very imprinted in her heart. Viara wiped her tears and stroked Pandu's cheeks gently and affectionately

"Thank you, bang" said Viara on her lips and walked over to her house

"Thank you for what deck?" Tanya Pandu made Viara stop her steps.

Viara turned to look at Pandu with a sweet smile and said

"Thank you for the song"

Seriate......