Touch Me!
The Former Memorable

" Be, is that it? are you really going to accept anything about me? are you really going to love me no matter what mistakes I made in the past? " Vanya herself was so frightened as to question this. Being Nath's lover, Vanya can be sure. Sooner or later, he'll find out about Nathan. And Nath's current answer, will determine the next step Vanya will take.

Nath kissed Vanya's lips and rubbed her smooth cheeks. " You know, I don't care about anything. Every human has their own memories. I have it too. But, I will try to make you happy and forget the bad things in the past. Let's keep sharing the joy of grief. " Nath looked at him seriously.

I don't know, how to describe Vanya's current happiness. So happy, that tears welled up in his eyes. My little Nathan, I'll take you to your father. May we live together. May your father forgive you if one day your father finds out.

" Vanya why are your eyes even watering? " Nath looked at Vanya confused. Both of his palms held onto Vanya's face which started to blush as it held back the crying.

" Why are you saying all that?! " Tanya Vanya was upset as she wiped her tears that started to fall.

Although Nath did not understand the mistake of every word that came out of his mouth, Nath rushed to wipe Vanya's tears and immediately hugged her. " Sorry.

Vanya took off Nath's arms and looked at him. " Why apologize?

" Uh? " Nath was even more confused. What and how should he behave? " But you were crying, right? are you angry at my words?

Vanya even pursed her lips. " I'm not angry.

Not angry, right? so why was it yelling? crying too, right?

" then?

" That's his name moved. " Say Vanya while taking her eyes off. It feels so shameful. Why did she cry because she was happy.

Nath smiled so sweetly. Eager to taste, Vanya wraps that smile home and keeps it for her own enjoyment. " Is that so? " Nath's face really couldn't control the red hue that radiated clearly on his face. A face that indicates happiness.

" Vanya, will you stay here with me tonight? " the question that escaped Nath's mouth was able to tear down the courage of Vanya who had begun to collect.

Stay here tonight? ke, why am I so nervous. I want to order my lips to refuse. Why don't these lips open. Ah.....! fuckin. But, when else can you be alone with a handsome man, right? uh! my perverted brain is up.

" Vanya, can I presume to agree that you didn't answer? " Nath asked again.

" That, "Vanya scratched her non-itchy cheek.

Nath smiled at Vanya's nervous behavior as if he was thinking of the 18+ scene. " No need to be nervous. I promise I won't do what you're thinking. At the very least, just hug and kiss you.

" Yes fine. " Vanya was even astonished by herself. Hearing Nath's answer made him a little disappointed. Really asked in this sleding of his perverted brain.

" Alright, since we agreed, let's keep chatting in order to get to know each other more and more. " Say Nath, who was taken by Vanya.

The later, the more they chatter. Up to one question made them slightly gleam the pain in their hearts.

" Vanya, do you have a very memorable ex-lover in your heart? " Task Nath. His face did not show any anger or jealousy at all. As if he had given me a choice. Gratitude, it's okay, too. Vanya smiled and nodded.

" You're on your own?

Vanya patted Nath's shoulder a few times. " It's okay. You said it yourself, right? everybody has a past. Most importantly, everything is fine now. " Say Vanya smilingly looking at Nath. Vanya knows what it feels like. The pain of loving someone who hurt him.

Nath grabs Vanya's body and holds her tightly. He felt, the words that came out of Vanya's lips as if to ease all the pain he had felt all along. The pain of being shackled by the past. Vanya patted Nath's back gently. For sure Nath knows, Vanya is strengthening him.

" Vanya, thank you.

" For what?

" For everything.

" Huh....? " Vanya was confused. He didn't even do anything.

" Vanya, promise me. " Nath grabbed both of Vanya's palms and grasped them tightly.

" What should I promise?

" Stay with me.

Vanya was silent for a moment then nodded.

" Vanya, I really don't care what happened in the past. I don't mind anyone you were in the past. Because I just want you to be with me always. If one day I make a mistake and you get bored with me, let me know. I'll fix myself so you don't leave me.

Vanya looked at Nath with a concerned look. What kind of past has traumatized her? he looked so scared to be left out. What hurt is your past? inner Vanya.

" If you need someone to share your grief, then I'm ready. Tell me anything that makes you suffer so much. You'll definitely feel better. " Vanya said with her sincere gaze.

Nath saw that sincerity. Such sincere eyes without any lies. At first Nath was so doubtful. But looking at Vanya who looks worried, Nath tries to say what he has been saying himself.

" Vanya, five years ago, I had a very special person in my heart. He was so persistent in chasing me that I was devastated by all his struggles. But suddenly, she cried while handing me the wedding invitation. I was really surprised at that moment. His name and another man are written on it. I kept asking, but he just answered, that he loves me. " Nath smiled in astonishment.

" She loved me so much but married another man. I keep trying to see him. But it's very difficult. Until one day, I heard that he was going abroad. I drive a car at high speed. I hope to see him and prevent him from leaving. But, uh,

" but? " Tanya Vanya was curious.

" I had an accident. I barely survived. I was in a coma for two months. All the doctors declared that I would not survive. God was really good for giving me that miracle.

And that is why our son Nathan is present in this world. I either have to be thankful or sad. Because it brought me happiness. But you're in pain too.

" Nath, "Vanya holds Nath's face. Make a position parallel to his face. " It's all over. You're doing fine. Just trust God's plan. He has prepared a great happiness for you.

Nath smiled. And they ended up with a kiss of lips so intimate. The kiss that made Nath's heart feel so peaceful. Vanya feels the same way. His heart really felt so calm.

The To Be Continued.