THE RIGHT TASTE AT THE WRONG TIME
STILL THINKING ABOUT YOU

When you pray for a piece of heart to be healed for you but do not also find a meeting point. What if you asked God to melt your heart for the one who secretly prays for you?

Hey why do you still fill my head so often, don't you know how much I tried to forget you? You know how much I tried to keep looking good when I was so broken inside.

Why am I still carried away by your shadow ? You know it really tortures me. Though you will continue your new journey tomorrow, but still so difficult I accept it. You know, I complained to God about you. I ask God to make me forget you so that I can continue on my journey just as you will continue on your new journey.

I really hate you, why are you so mean to me? If you never said you liked me, maybe I wouldn't be this sick. If you hadn't said you wanted to marry me then, I would never have wished so far. You know, if you never said anything, maybe I wouldn't suffer this much. You know, exposing your feelings to me really tortures me. If I had known this would happen, I'd never have known how you felt about me back then. You know, I once read a "love expression of someone would be better if it was never revealed" and it turned out to be true. Until this moment I was still broken.

You know at this time my heart has been entrusted to God and I close it tightly, I don't know who will ask him I don't know. Don't even know if I'll open that door again? Will I meet someone who can open that door? Inside it was still filled with a shard that I could not clean quickly. I was afraid that he would get hurt when he opened the door and I was still so tired of being able to tidy up the shafts. The flakes were so many and still stuck in my soul.

Tomorrow's new journey in your life will begin, good luck may you always be happy and I hope I don't find any more shadows in my life even in passing.

This may sound so evil, but may I ask for one thing? I don't want to see you again until I find my new antidote. When that day comes I will tell you "you found the right person and I found someone who was right for me".

Let's continue our journey and not see each other until my wounds heal. Because I'm afraid I can't lie about my feelings. But one thing I'm sure you won't find again the me I used to show you my best version of myself. It's good to know you happy, sir.