THE RIGHT TASTE AT THE WRONG TIME
MY FEAR OF MYSELF

I don't know what else I can tell I don't know either.

But lately I see many people doing marriage, sometimes I think I will also be able to feel it? Anyone want a woman like me? I realized so many of my shortcomings that sometimes I felt unworthy of anyone. But sometimes I also feel confident that God has destined someone for me that I will find in the future. Someone who is able to accept me and want to make me the last stop in his life, someone who is able to take care of me and rearrange my heart that is broken into pieces.

I'm confused about myself, it's so hard for me to like someone. I'm so hard to find someone and when I find someone it's destiny to always say something else, at this time it is so difficult for me to believe that there will be someone who can accompany me in living life and support in realizing my dreams. someone who became my house of refuge that I would later make a small family of modest and part.

When I found you at that time I felt you were someone I thought was right to be my life companion, it turns out my guess was wrong you just stopped by but not to settle down. The dreams and dreams I had imagined would happen in my life were gone and I could do nothing about it.

Sometimes I am sad to remember my sisters at my age, they have a lot of people who want to marry her, things that are different to me. I didn't find anyone interested in me. I'm afraid that I won't find a man who will knock on my door and ask my father and I'm scared too, will I be able to accept the man who will ask my father. Is that guy better than you or maybe he's just like you? I was afraid to fall in love again and I was afraid that my heart would be broken again.

People don't expect too much of humans, and don't expect more because if that doesn't happen your soul will falter and you will be so hurt and right that's what I'm feeling right now.

Whoever you are will be the harbour of my heart forever may we meet in a good way and be able to perfect each other half of our religion. Thank you for praying for me so that I can no longer drop my heart on anyone else.

Later when we meet can I make sure I will love you so much and I hope you can do the same. See you at the right time, the time God has set for us. Take care of your health and do not forget to pray.

I'll be waiting for you