THE RIGHT TASTE AT THE WRONG TIME
MY DIARY

About you

Let me tell you one more time maybe for the last time:")

I'm actually confused by your sudden decision. But when you remember you there are still feelings of sadness, disappointment, and many unresolved questions in my opinion.

I asked myself why? Is something wrong? Why so suddenly? So many things are lodged in my head.

It would be naive to say that my world is fine after hearing about you. So many things I think should be explained and until now you didn't tell me the answer.

Why so rushed? Why not ask me again? Why not try to explain your problem to me? Maybe I can give you a different answer than before.

Why do you promise to wait? And in the end I was left behind? Can't you wait 2 years like you promised? a little more I arrived. I feel so sure of you, that I'm trying everything. Did you know that for almost 2 years I kept running to achieve my dream like I promised, so that I could float it immediately so that I could turn around and run to you and say "I've had enough of my world, let's start our new world".

Honestly I'm tired of running but when I turn around I'm sure you're still there waiting for me, right? Like you ever said? When a little more I arrived at my dream, I suddenly turned around and I could not find you there anymore. What's wrong? Why did you leave without saying goodbye?

If you really want to go, can you say yes? Just so I know that I have to keep walking into my dreams without looking back, so I know you're not there anymore, so that I can continue my journey even without your shadow again.

You, well you...

You know I'm so sure of you. I firmly believe that you are my ultimate goal and my new world.

You know what's so hurting me? When you leave without saying goodbye to me, with whom you continue the honest journey I don't care because I'm sure it's your destiny. But the one thing I regret until now you haven't given me the answers to all my old questions.

Although I finally realized that we will no longer be together, I hope you are happy with your choice, thank you for being such a valuable maturing lesson that I will keep well in the deepest room of my heart.

Thanks for everything, maybe if we didn't meet I wouldn't be like I am, I probably wouldn't have learned to cook, manage money, manage time, I wouldn't have, and maybe I'll never learn so well so far.

Thank you also for being able to be the happiness that I hope to end perfectly in the future, hopefully your choice is the best and able to realize your dreams, support whatever your efforts, you said, and become a very important part of your new journey.

I hope you will continue to be happy because honestly it is not easy for me to be at this point, at the point where I love you and no longer want you either now or in the future.

You, though it may not be the answer to my prayers, I will still be grateful for everything.

Let's face each other and sincerely will be the determination, for it is safe to continue their respective journeys. Glad to have found you on this vast earth, sir

Best wishes for you and the days you will live, and I hope you also wish me all the best and the days I will live even if you are no longer there. May you be happy with your choice. Pray that I can find others as good as you because sometimes I think "i'll find another human like you"

Until now I was confused whether I should tell you to see you or not. Because I know there's little chance we'll ever see each other again.

If you know, I'm honestly so hurt to hear what else you're not telling me. I'd be lying if I said I didn't cry when I heard the news, but I can assure you when I finish writing I won't find any more tears falling because of you.