The Macau Love Story
Forgive

"Father" Lirih Delita as we stood beside the bed that belonged to father. The father, who is still unconscious, did not respond to Delita's call.

"Why Papah didn't come to me. Why did papa keep it to himself? you should have said that papa needed money for an apartment rental"

I saw Pandu breathing deeply, I didn't know what he was feeling. Regret, or pity?

I really wanted to scold him and then punish him, but I definitely couldn't because I was never able to fight him.

"Papa must be healed yes pah, later Deli will find a place to stay for papa, and if Alvin agrees, Deli will bring papa stay with us" Racau Delita, her eyes are now puffy because she was crying. Before long, the door opened.

"Delita, honey?" Alvin. We compactly set our sights on the exhausted-looking Alvin with a clear circle adorning his forehead.

"What is this, brother?" alvin asked, looking at me for a moment and then Pandu.

"In beating people" said mas Pandu flat.

His answer really ignited my frustration. How not to be upset, he did not seem to regret the condition of his father.

"Who dares to beat him?"

Seeing Delita showing a puffy face, obviously Alvin was very angry and did not accept if anyone made his woman sad to cry. That's how I thought.

"I told my men to teach them a lesson"

The tone is still bad for me to hear.

These two men were really irritating smiles, his face was always serious and scary for things like this. My voice even shrieked and did not dare to say a word.

"I'm sorry, for the patient's family, you can go home, because we're not allowed to have hours like this" said the nurse, who I heard when entering my father's ward.

"Honey we go home yuk, let dad rest" take Alvin to Delita.

"Suster will keep Del" mas Pandu spoke.

While I'm not surprised anymore. That is the rule in hospitals in this country. The patient's family was not there to accompany him. All have been handed over to the sisters. The sisters and the doctor who was picket were really very responsible on her duty.

I know because I also felt a tiggal in the hospital during childbirth at that time. I was alone in the hospital without being with my family. The sisters will always be quick to monitor the patient's condition even every minute, will ask what is needed, and always help feed if they can not do it themselves, and help patients take their medicine.

Mas Pandu took my hand out of the treatment room, followed by Alvin and Delita walking behind us.

Until when in front of the hospital, mas Pandu stopped and turned around.

"Would you like to go home, or come back to our house?" Ask the Pandu with a flat face. "Later dinner at home"

"We went straight home" replied Alvin no less flat.

"So you ride what Del?" I asked him because Alvin and Delita didn't come together. I'm a little worried that Delita's bringing her own car, afraid that she's not focused on driving.

"I took a taxi, brother, Alvin forbade me to bring my own car"

I nodded in response. Good thing I'm relieved.

We split up into our own cars.

During the trip, I clenched my lips tightly. We were caught in silence while in the car heading home. Pandu and I did not say a word, only the sound of horns and sign lights when turning.

******

The next night, after dinner and after putting Kellen to bed, I put in our clothes that were ironed by Chou's bik, our ART who worked part-time to clean the house, washing and ironing our clothes.

While hanging a shirt and suit owned by Mas Pandu in the closet, I felt his sturdy arms coiled around my waist, mas Pandu hugged me from behind. For a second, I rubbed the back of Pandu's hand that was coiled in front of my stomach, then inhaled deeply the scent of his body that had just finished bathing.

"You daydreaming?" tanyanya while landing a chin on my shoulder.

I didn't answer the question directly.

When mas Pandu kissed my neck, bit it gently and then sip it, my body immediately shriveled, my hair bristled in response to the touch from him.

"What's bothering you?" ask her again this time while turning my body to face her. Automatic both my hands are pinching the side of his waist that is only bare chest.

"You're blaming me, Nay?"

The look I directed at his chest that field, now my chin is lifted by the hand of mas Pandu so that he can look at his face. In that instant, we also met.

"I'm not blaming you, I'm just wondering" I replied calmly.

"But from your words it is clearly implied that you blame me"

Exactly the guess, I did blame a little mas Pandu for what happened to father.

"Honestly I want to be angry at you, I want to grumble and punish you, but I realize I can't do it"

"You want to scold me? wanna punish me?" tanya Mas Pandu.

I nodded with full focus staring at Pandu.

"Let's just get angry at your husband, punish your husband, don't keep him here?" said Mas Pandu while pointing at my chest to the right. "Your stored anger is not good for your health"

His words really pushed me to scold him.

Before issuing my angry swearing at Pandu mas, I took a deep breath while composing the right sentence.

Silent, our eyes fixed on each other, still with our positions unchanged.

"He's my father, I don't have a father who wants to have him. If only I could, I would make my papah come back to life. But what did you do to the living father? mas did not even give a chance for him to apologize to mas, where did the mind mas at that time? how hard was my heart at the time?" I said at length. "I already knew that you didn't regret what you did back then"

Mas Pandu was still silent while listening to my words carefully.

"Why would you care for your own father? I know Mr. Hermawan is wrong, but he has got his payback, is mas still not satisfied with his current fate?" do you want Mr. Hermawan in law more than this? do you want death for your own father? would you be satisfied if the man suffered?"

I saw jakun mas Pandu moving up and down. His eyeballs follow the movement of my eyeballs.

"Mas happy to see father's current condition?"

Instead of responding to my question, I did not expect Pandu mas instead hugged me very tightly.

"You're right Nay, my ego is too high, pride and arrogance have taken hold of me. I miss him as much as you always say"

"I'm sorry dad" I said this time while continuing to wipe the back of Pandu. "Like Alvin who wants to start from scratch, I hope you can also start from the beginning and make peace with your father"

"I'll do that Nay, I've forgiven dad, I also want to apologize to him for driving him out of our house"

We untied our embrace, reflexively cupping my hand in his face. "Thank you for lowering your ego and prestige, thank you so much for forgiving you"

"I'll take you to live in my apartment, Nay, I promise you that once you're healed I'll take care of you"

I smiled before I kissed her lips. Not a kiss, but a kiss deep, and long.

In the midst of our increasingly hot kisses, my mind split in two, between enjoying the kiss we were having, and being grateful in our hearts. I'm sure we'll live happily with our parents. Because it's very important to me that there is protection from parents in every house we live in. There will be a sincere prayer that they always say for the happiness of their children.

"Mas is indeed my great man" I praised after unraveling our lip link.

"And you are the perfect wife for me" replied mas Pandu sincerely. "Thank you for giving me the color of my life. If my life used to be flat and there were no colors, but since your presence, I have reason to live longer"

"Did you ever intend to commit suicide?"

"It's not so" refuted mas Pandu quickly. "I mean before you came, I lived just to work and think about the little girl. But now, you and Kellen are my reason for continuing to live out my days. I promise I'll always make you happy"

"Which little girl?"

"The little girl I once cheered on a handkerchief, thank you for taking good care of her. Now it's my turn to look after the man who's been guarding my handkerchief"

I immediately hugged Mas Pandu as soon as I heard his words that made my heart warm.

Seriate.