The Macau Love Story
Apologies

On the way home, not a word came out of our mouths. Pandu and I were stuck in silence while in the car, occasionally heard the sign lights if Pandu was about to turn his car.

Anger, hunger, and disappointment seemed to blend into one. I was eager to issue a series of swearing, scolding, and anger for him, but as much as possible I could hold at least until we entered the house.

Until I arrived at the parking lot under the apartment, I just got out of the car and closed the door very roughly. I don't know what his facial expression looks like I really don't care.

"Mother is pregnant slowly the way" said mas Pandu a little shouting, but still soft sounding. While I just waltzed and ignored the man who made me ride black.

Almost two weeks of not meeting, lying if I don't miss him, let alone mas Pandu is the owner of the handkerchief, the man I've been waiting for, the man I can't forget, it made me want to throw myself into his arms, complete my great longing. But considering how Pandu mas behaved a few hours ago, as if my sense of longing changed with anger that immediately wanted to be ventured.

Arriving at home, my main goal is the kitchen, I have to fill my stomach so I can nag it all out. After placing my coach and bag on the living room sofa which also serves as a tv room, I headed to the kitchen and opened the refrigerator. I brought out what was inside.

"You want help?" ask mas Pandu.

"No need" I replied coldly.

"Patience, maybe he caught "mumbles mas Pandu, making me stop my cooking activities.

"What did you say?" I asked while meeting the netraya.

"Huh?" sahut mas Pandu fast. It was obvious that he was wrong. "N-no, didn't say anything"

It's a lie to say nothing, when he clearly said me. He thinks I didn't hear it.

I refocused on the spaghetti I was cooking. During the cooking session, I suddenly remembered my hand that had slapped him so hard, to be honest my heart was sad to have been rude to him. My slap in public, managed to give me some pain in there. And my guilt is so great that I don't know how to deal with it later.

Finished cooking and the spaghetti was done eating, I let the dirty dishes lie down. Pandu and I sat facing each other without being limited by anything.

I silently looked at Pandu mas who looked so calm, different from me who held back irritated and also missed. I also know that Pandu didn't really want to marry Delita, but he should have told me about his plans.

"If you want to be angry, just angry Nay" he said without breaking our eye contact. "I was wrong, very wrong"

I actually do not blame Pandu one hundred percent, but I do not understand what prompted Pandu mas to do the plan.

"I just wanted to make Hermawan acknowledge me, with me planning to marry Delita, I thought he would tell Delita straight away that I was her brother, but that was not what he did. And it's like he was deliberately challenging me"

"Keep so?"

Mas Pandu nodded. As for me, desperate to look at the black bead of Pandu mas to find something for a few seconds, I tried to dive into a pair of netra belonging to Pandu mas that was as dark as night, and I gave up, and I gave up, I lowered my head not because I found nothing, but I who could not dive deeper because a split second of the shadow of the man who ran with me a few years ago flashed with great agility in my head. Especially if considering Hermawan who does not want to admit mas Pandu in front of his wife and children, my heart like pinched as if to feel the pain, and my anger, that, again defeated by the greatness of my love for him.

"I'm sorry Nay" he said sincerely. "I've forgotten about you lately because I've been drifting away with my anger and resentment, I've been ignoring you"

I was down, my head reflexes lifted, my heart immediately pinched seeing both eyes were in tears.

Sadly, he who was dumped by his biological father was wasted without a living and attention. Ah, my eyes unhappily launched a clear circle.

"Sorry Nay, I've made you angry" he said solemnly.

"I love you, ngo kwaju lei"

I did not respond to his expression of love. "What punishment is appropriate for you?"

"I don't want to be in Nay's law"

"Snake has done something wrong but does not want to be punished" he said.

"The punishment is that you sleep"

"That's not punishment. Everywhere the punishment is not good"

"You can punish me?" tanyanya.

Instead of answering, I told her to do something that made her widen her pair of round eyes.

"Find Jogja's signature snack for dinner, see you"

I saw his sturdy jaw instantly tighten, then swallowed his saliva, after which he saw a clock coiled in his hand.

"I don't want to tell Rondi to make nyari, I want my own search" I continued and stood up.

"Now Nay?"

"Hi" I replied without looking at her. I focused on moving my feet towards the room.

The room I had been in for almost five months was not occupied.

****

When I arrived at the room measuring five square meters, I remembered what I had done with mas Pandu in this room. The room is still the same as the first time I set foot here. Nothing has changed at all. When I opened the closet, the smell of a woman's scent immediately poked my nose.

Mas Pandu does prefer the smell of women than the masculine favorite of men. Either because he just wants to appreciate me, or he himself likes sweet scents.

Examining each strand, my clothes hanging in the closet seemed to increase, and most were loose canals made of cotton typical for pregnant women.

My eyes immediately warmed to see the appearance that made me touched. My great man, now I know why he married me. I was the little girl he promised. His promise will meet me someday, and he's been keeping it.

Note: Hi \= Yes

Ngo kwaju lei: I love you

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