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They sat back across from each other while Satya still ruffled her waist in her temple. “Sorry for hitting you.” Angga said when he saw Dimas rubbing his lips repeatedly with his finger. Hearing Angga's remark, Dimas just glanced and smiled “I deserve it.”

“What did you say was true?” Ask Angga, Dimas frowned “which one?”

“if I misjudge you that jerk.” Dimas rounded his lips while nodding his head, then shrugged both his shoulders “ to be honest I am also fed up with my life.”

Seeing that they might no longer attack each other, Satya ended up sitting between them.

“I find it difficult to re-appreciate a woman, when the woman I most trust does that disgusting thing.” Clearly Dimas looked blankly as if remembering his past, a past he wanted to erase from his memory but it was hard to even torture him every night.

How not, when he has a mother as the woman he loves and admires the most, but it turns out that there are bad deeds that he is very difficult to forgive.

All back when Dimas was in High School, he found his mother picked up by a man he didn't know. Curious Dimas followed where his mother and the unknown man were going, his father was out of town.

How surprised he was when he found his mother went to a night club with very friendly hands. He could not go inside because he was a minor, besides the club only received visitors who were special members there.

Dimas was upset, since then he tried to find a way how he could dismantle the cover of his mother's affair.

Then a month later, Dimas's most feared thing happened: to know the truth about his mother and the unknown man.

He was very disappointed, heartbroken because it turns out that his mother had been cheating on him for a long time. Even the man was his former lover when he was young before marrying his father.

His mother used Dimas' father, dredging his property and having fun with the man who currently ends up in prison for fraud as well as Dimas' mother. That's what makes Dimas hate the figure of women, women only crazy about property and why seriously love women if they end up suffering? Like Dimas' father, who is currently only bedridden due to a heart attack and stroke, shocked when he heard all the stories about his beloved wife.

Dimas let out a long sigh when that shadow of the past was present, he massaged his forehead. Angga and Satya just stared in silence. “When I said I wasn't that jerk, well I used to be like you said, seeing a woman and then enjoying that woman in bed if I managed to get her. But..." Dimas seemed hesitant when he would continue his story. Making his two friends just stare in wonder.

"You don't get mad if I tell you." Hearing that, they were confused and looked at each other. "There's a girl who, well, can be said to have changed my way of thinking a little, but it makes me hate myself." Dimas sighed. "The story is long, do I need a story here? no other sessions or books with that other title? The one that specifically told me about me?" Angga and Satya immediately frowned in confusion, Dimas scratching the back of his head while giving a small grin.

"Sorry, get off track, so gini guys." Dimas breathed his story. "You know Indri, right?" Angga and Satya nod when Dimas names the nurse girl who is now taking care of Dimas' father at home.

"She changed me a little, I don't know what made me this way, but there's definitely a side in her that made me realize that she's on the bright side." Dimas sighed softly, "but I hurt him a lot because a jerk like me doesn't deserve his love."

"He likes you?" Satya asked, "you're your own Mas?" Dimas tilted his head "Yes, he liked me even long before I knew him. If I, I don't know, he likes me, I'm not sure I'm afraid of hurting her, even though I've hurt her by acting like this." Dimas clucked in disappointment with himself.

"I keep pretending to be a jerk to make him illfeel to me, even though he has made me stop fucking girls carelessly, it makes it difficult for me to accept him, I even hurt him often. I'm a jerk, but I'm not that bad guys, I'm trying to fix myself as long as you know." Clearly Dimas was short still lowered.

“Why are you hiding from us Mas? About Indri, about you. We don't know the truth.” Dimas shrugged his shoulders “ About Indri, I'm still not sure, if about me you're the one who said, if penitence do not half, I have not been able to completely stop from the world that I have already entered, I am in the process of lifting my feet from there slowly.” Sahut Dimas looked at Satya who stared disapprovingly.

“Yes at least I don't rate you as a sex” crazy guy Satya sneer, “wohoo! You don't know what it's like, once you try it'll be hard to stop.” Obviously Dimas played both of his eyebrows, “dihhh” said Satya sneered with his disgusted face.

"When I fuck women, sometimes it's not that I'm satisfied but there's something else that makes me hate myself. And some time ago, I realized when I saw my father, he had forgiven my mother even though he was so hurt. That girl, I don't know.. But even so, I still let my bad image as a diligent striped-nose guy to the night club remain, anyway, after all, there are no bad women who use me and no good women who are hurt by me, including Indri, he deserves to be with another man who is better than me." Angga was speechless hearing Dimas' words, why at this moment he seemed to see Kejora.

"When I knew the plans of those who wanted to use me, I instantly destroyed them first.” Clearly Dimas was staring one by one at his friend.

“Tak all women like that Mas.” Said Satya, Dimas just shrugged “either, you think so maybe because you met Mila, can Mila be for me?” Dimas laughed when he saw Satya staring at him sharply “deck joking! Relax!”

Satya shook her head, “forget my mass, we continue the chat about your mission Ang.” Angga who had just stared at Dimas, not realizing that Dimas said to him “let's not look at me that way! I know I'm handsome! But that doesn't mean I like you looking at it that way! I hate women but that doesn't mean I like men.” Grumpy Dimas stared in disdain at Angga who then after hearing Dimas's remark, he threw a sharp gaze at Dimas and Satya laughed looking at the two, then moments a pillow was thrown and landed on Dimas's face.

"You know Dim?" Angga said shortly after they finished throwing pillows at each other. "If someone accepts you for who you are, what you do is not stay away from them or ignore them, but try to understand the person's side of why you want to accept what you think is bad."

Dimas shrugged his shoulders "Hey, you should be grateful that someone wants and accepts you for who is******* this." Imbuh Angga while Dimas just rolled his eyeballs put on a stale face.

Although in the heart of Dimas knows if maybe Angga felt Kejora think the same thing as him. Feeling inappropriate, therefore Angga said so with a different look in his eyes.

***

“I like you Kejora..”

“haiy... It's got me out of focus!” Complaints Kejora and got the attention of his friend who was tidying up the glass on the bar table. 

“Lately I have observed you daydreaming a lot, is there a problem Ke?” Kejora only shakes ordinary “, just dizzy job. Hearing Kejora's explanation, Eric just stared at Kejora who again stared blankly at his drinking glass.

A week after the incident at the stop, Kejora was not angry, he only avoided when Angga invited him to meet. “I asked him to be professional, but I was the one who disavowed.” Guman Kejora softly and laughed cynically, laughing at himself that he felt bad.

Every night he is haunted by the shadow of Angga and his joyful statements, every day he has to endure the wounds when clients touch him, and every day he has to lie to himself if he also has a taste for Angga. “You're really good at Ke?” Eric was standing right in front of the Kejora, behind the bartender's desk he was staring at the troubled Kejora

“Contact Ric.” he replied slowly and made Eric stare worriedly “ada is bothering you?” Kejora shook his head and smiled at him.    

“You are not usually here if there is no appointment with Big Bas” said Eric rounded his hands to form a ball as if describing the shape of Mr. Bas, Kejora subscription client, “if anyone bothers you, tell me.” Kejora smiled widely, Eric was his best friend there. That always helps him when he gets into trouble with another escorter who hates him.

“I'm still your sister in this world.” Kejora nodded reassuring Eric if he didn't forget about it. “Then I go home yes.” Kejora grabbed his bag and got out of the chair, Eric just replied with a nod.

“Soide gentlemen, I want out.” Kejora said softly but only replied to laughter by them. “It's still morning, hurry home to why?” Ledek one of those who stood closest to Kejora, his hand grabbed the face of Kejora but was brushed off by Kejora instantly.

The shocked person then laughed to his friends “cheap women pretend expensive guys” Kejora just stared intently at them. “Emang I don't know? You're my dad's toy, right.” The guy's lips and Kejora frowned, “so my dad wouldn't be mad if I tasted the toy too.” His words licked and bit his lower lip while staring seductively, but the gaze instantly changed “Euwh! You're a lowly woman! Ughhhh! saying it like that to you makes me nauseous.” Harden that person with his vomit expression. Kejora tried not to serve and chose to leave.

"You dare ignore me! hey!" His cry as Kejora was about to pass, pulled his hand and pushed his body against the wall.

“You! You knew! It's so big of a desire I want to kill you.” His words pointed at the face of Kejora with his finger. “Barra.” someone patted her on the shoulder and made the person look back.

“I have nothing to do with you Dim.” Said the man named Barra. “If you bother him, you have business with me.” Reply to the person who patted him earlier who was none other than Dimas and made Barra turn his head with a smile of disbelief “dia your toy too?” He asked in disbelief, and Dimas simply stared silently and then stepped up to stand between Barra and Kejora.

“He's a human not a toy.” Barra sizzled to hear it “which human being is a household destroyer and also an *******? What is it that is called human? Huh!” Umpat Barra, Dimas looked back at the downcast Kejora.

“If it wasn't for your father, I'd hit your face Dim.” Barra moved away from the place with her friends, Dimas stared at their departure before stepping up and turning towards Kejora.

“I help you, not because of you. I'm helping you because surely my friend would be angry if I just kept quiet.” Said Dimas staring at the Kejora, Kejora still knows the figure in front of him, but he was a little confused why suddenly this person was acting cold to him different from the first he knew him.

“You must know I'm Angga's friend, and I know he likes you.” Kejora raised his head, he knew Dimas was a friend of Angga, because when the auction was Kejora saw the two of them sitting next to each other while chatting. But what shocked Kejora was, Dimas knew Angga liked him.

“And I don't like that.” Continued Dimas when Kejora looked at him. “Do not think, our initial meeting will be a good thing about me. I tease you because you deserve to be teased, but knowing Angga likes a woman like you. I hate that thing.” Clearly Dimas with intonation who heard him would definitely be hurt, including Kejora.

Kejora just sighed heavily, “you think I like it too?” Kejora shook her head “don't think I'll take advantage of her, when she admitted to having liked me.” Obviously Kejora makes Dimas smile cunningly “I only accept his offer to help him, and I can't explain here.” Obviously Kejora as they were currently still at the club, Kejora stepped up and smashed into Dimas' body, staring at the woman leaving Dimas just laughing mockingly.

“Tak likes it too? dih hypocritical.” Said and headed inside club. “but, what's he got to do with Barra's father?” muman Dimas stepping inside the club. “If there really is something with him and Mr. Baskara, I hate him even more, how could Angga like such a woman.”

*** 

“home wrecker person, mistress, ******”

Kejora sat hugging his knee, in the corner of his room he cried considering the words of the man at the club. It is true if he is ******* that might damage the harmony of one's household. But, this was not his wish.

He hated his job so much, even how many times he tried to kill himself so that all this could stop. But he still believes God hates it, and he wants to at least meet his parents even though it's impossible to accept such a despicable woman.

He sobbed holding a picture of his father and mother, his gaze blurry because his tears often dripped on his face. “Is there a place there for a woman like me?” tanyanya rubbed the faces of her parents with both of her thumbs. He glanced at her when there was a notification on his phone.

I want to meet you, please,

if I can tomorrow morning at 9 I'll be there.

Kejora wiped his tears before replying to the message. He can't keep away from Angga. However he had agreed to help Angga, and also the more information he conveyed, the easier it was for Angga to find the clues he needed.

***

“I haven't got the latest information, why do you want to see me?” Said Kejora and made Angga who was reading the menu immediately look at it.

“I..” Angga fell silent because of doubt whether Kejora will accept the reason or not, “I just want to chat with you.” he continued, Kejora just rolled his eyeballs.

“I also have other busyness.” Angga set his expression of disappointment, making Kejora sigh and take out the menu book to start ordering food.

“Oh! Turns out besides Dimas toys, this woman is also your toy?” Angga turned to look at someone who was standing next to his desk, he was wide-eyed to see that figure, that person just smiled cynically.

“This lowly woman has a study what the hell?” He asked, pointing towards the Kejora. “What do you mean Bar?” Angga asked slightly offended and Kejora became uncomfortable due to Barra's existence.

“Do you not know if he is an ******?” tanya Barra showed an expression of disdain towards Kejora, Angga stood equal to her gaze.

“Shut up, or I shut your mouth with this.” Angga said showing his fist, Barra just sneered, looking at the Kejora he deliberately nudged a glass filled with Kejora drinking water, causing the glass to spill and wet Kejora's trousers, at once Kejora stood up and grabbed a handbag to wipe it.

Angga pushed Barra's body, this time they got the attention of all the visitors of the restaurant. “Freely you clean your body, even the water will not be able to clean the dirt in your body!” Caci Barra and making Angga angry, he hit Barra right in the face.

There was a commotion and brought in a restaurant manager, and security officers there. “What's up? Please do not make a fuss here.” said Manager and Barra just stared hard at Angga, “we go from here, I lost appetite just because I saw this woman!” Barra said to her friends and was approved by them.

Before leaving Barra approached Angga “you and Dimas did share the same toy? Cih.. Disgusting.” Angga was ready to attack Barra but his hand was held back Kejora, Barra just glanced at Kejora with a cynical look.

“Wait for the right moment I'll come kill you.” He said and then walked away from them. Angga follows the departure of Barra and his friends with the tail of his eyes.

"It's so fucking rude of them." Angry Angga then saw Kejora who was silent standing beside him. "We go home." Said Angga invites Kejora away and answered a slow nod by the girl.

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