Morning Star
Misunderstand

I've never felt this stupid before. Apologizing someone turns out to be just like letting him hurt us, again.

The stars used to apologize to me. And I always forgave him just for the reason I liked him.

But this time, can I still forgive him?

I have established my heart. Keisha said, if I go out and see the Star, it means I have to be ready to hear whatever he says, even if it makes my heart hurt again.

Now I walk down the stairs with a towel and an umbrella that I have prepared. Before opening the door, I once again took a deep breath to neutralize my heart.

As soon as the door opened, I could see the already soaked Star in front of it. There had probably been an hour more he was standing in the middle of such a torrent of rain.

"Lo what else? With lo kayak gini also will not reduce my disappointment with lo, Bintang." I said with annoyance.

The star scooped up her already wet face with one hand. I could see her lips that were now turning blue and trembling. The stars must be cold.

Though he could have been waiting for me on the terrace without having to rain like this. Why in the corner of my heart is there even an impression there? Seeing this kind of Star sacrifice made my heart melt a little. Was that also what prompted me to step out and meet him at this moment?

Stars take a step forward. He immediately reached for my one free hand without holding anything. At that moment I could feel his cold hands.

"Lo has to believe in me Ra. I didn't hear Dara that night."

The virgin? So the woman was named Dara.

"Gue saw with my own eyes, Bint. Lo kisses her. Why is it so bad to be a person? Do you think I can make toys?"

I shook the Star's hand. The feeling of tightness still dominates my heart at this moment.

The star then ruffled the back of her hair so frustratingly.

"But I swear I didn't kiss him Ra. He's framing me. He made us feel like we were kissing again. But actually not."

I don't know which one I'm going to believe now. But from the eyes of the stars there is no lie there. Is it true that he didn't kiss the woman?

"That's my college year. That night I met him when I wanted to drink. He said his head was so dizzy at the time, he told me to get him in his car. I feel sorry for that, so I helped him. I don't know if he's making fun of me. And lo dateng. I believe in Ra. I have no intention of making your pain."

The stars try to explain everything. I who was in front of him could only be fixated now. Thinking about all this made my head suddenly dizzy. I'm not sure if the Star would do that bad to me. But why does the woman named Dara seem to deliberately make everything like a kiss scene? And where did he get my number?

"Kalo lo still do not believe, try lo rasain this,"

The star took my hand back and stuck it right on her chest.

"The owner of this heart is elo doang Ra. I fell in my heart just for you. No one else can replace you here." The stars said while looking at me intensely.

"But why is that woman named Dara? What does he mean?" Tanyaku.

The stars shook slowly. "Gue doesn't know either. But he said he liked that night to me. And I refuse him."

Hearing that my heart became hot again. I pulled my hand from the Star's grasp.

"Too many, Bint. Too many women want to get your heart. It used to be Natalie, it kept the Moon, and now it's Dara. I don't know if I'm strong enough to survive. I'm tired,"

This time my tears broke. Even though my feelings for the Stars have already been reciprocated, there are still other problems that come.

The star cupped my face with both hands. "Lo doesn't have to think it's Ra. It doesn't matter how many people out there want to destroy us. You just hold my hand. We hadepin together."

I nodded weakly. I can read the look in the eyes of the Star which is a little relieved. He smiled, then hugged me tightly. Until I could feel the star's body shaking in the cold.

"Lo want to do it, keep away from Dara for me?" I asked after taking off the Star's embrace.

"Without asking me to stay away from all the girls to keep your feelings. You always believed in me."

***

Keisha let out his breath. "Yaudah ntar I am the one who permits you to be the same teacher. But you're actually better off with him?"

I nodded briefly.

"He made it clear everything last night. And it was Darnya who made his scene as if again kissing the same stars. Let me be jealous maybe."

"Who else is Dara?" Keisha asked in wonder.

"The girl I told you about yesterday was named Dara. Temen sekampus Bintang. And Dara likes the stars."

Keisha is just a mangosteen now. "Where does he know if it's the same star?"

"That's still a question. And where does he know my number."

"Something's not right like that. You need to ati-ati the same thing as Dara bird noodles," said Keisha who now sits on the edge of the mattress.

Hearing the nickname Keisha gave the woman instantly made me chuckle to myself.

"Gue seriously, even mated again. Lo has to be ati-ati," said Keisha glared sharply.

"Yes. I would like to say the same thing. You're there to go,"

"Dih, even ngusir. Tell me you want to dance with the stars, right? Ngaku!" Keisha pointed at my face with her finger.

"What the hell. No, Kei."

"Alah, still ngeles aja lo. I'm leaving already."

I finally drove Keisha to the terrace. After Keisha's car left the yard, I went to the room where the stars were resting now.

Last night I told him to stay here. Can't bear to let him go home soaked like that. Surely Om Dana and Aunt Marisa can be anxious.

After opening the door of the room it turns out that Bintang has been awake and his position has been sitting leaning on the head of the bed.

"Lo's better?" I asked who was sitting next to the stars.

"Udah. Not in school?" Ask the Star who was astonished because I was still wearing pajamas.

I'm shaking. "Where can I possibly leave you in such a state of pain?"

The stars smile at him. And it was a rare sight.

"Gue is better." The stars are trying to convince.

"Try here I check your fever,"

I shifted my seat to get closer. Put the back of my hand on the forehead of the Star to check if the heat has gone down.

"Yes. The heat's coming down,"

Suddenly, my hand was pulled slowly by the Star. The stars looked at me in silence. I don't know what he's trying to say this time. I was just waiting for him while enjoying my own heart beating.

"Lo didn't give me an answer about that time Ra,"

Deg.

Is this the right time to give an answer? Isn't this what I've been waiting for a long time, but somehow it comes from where the doubt is like silencing my mouth.

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