Morning Star
Hills

My meeting with Aunt Marisa a few hours ago still made me sit in the cafeteria. I'm still in shock. I even ignored some of the strange gazes of other visitors who saw me staring blankly at the table in front of me.

These tears somehow did not stop either. For the umpteenth time I wiped the remains of my tears that were still wetting my cheeks. I also felt pain in my two arms. Probably because of my own cut that I did since. I don't know how many times I've done that, hoping it's just a nightmare and when I pinch my hand I can wake up. But again this is real.

It's late afternoon. With a sudden rain peek I came out of the cafeteria and set my foot down the street. Some people I saw were running around looking for a place to shade because of the rain that was getting heavy.

"Mama, mama! Look at that guy. How is he even testing anyway? It's so sorry."

I faintly heard a boy screaming loudly as I accidentally passed by a stop that was already filled with people.

My move had to stop. I glanced to the side where the boy was standing in wonder with his mother.

"Miss! Neduh here first, later neng can be sick if the trials are that!" Shouted the middle-aged mother that I knew was the mother of the boy earlier.

I just replied with a smile. Continued my footsteps back to find a taxi. Although going home was not the right choice, I knew the Stars were waiting for me. The stars will worry me.

An hour or so is in the taxi with various minds still branching. A voice belonging to the taxi driver was heard. I immediately went down and gave the money as per his argument.

My gonad steps led me to the gate. And when I reached the main door I saw a man standing with his worried face.

"Kejora," called out to her in a gentle tone but also full of anxiety.

"Why is it soaked like gini? Do you intentionally want to test? Why don't you give me news? You know I'm so worried," again. He asked a series of questions. For some reason when the Star worries like this I become very happy. And he also became chatty all of a sudden.

"Gue's fine, Star."

"But you're wrong. You shouldn't be testing gini. What if you are sick?" The star made me smile unconsciously.

"If I get sick, you won't be sick anymore. I can get your attention every day."

The stars rubbed my cheeks slowly. Cleaning it from the remnants of rain that had washed me.

"My attention has been entirely to Elo, Ra. So don't think I should be sick just let me take notice."

Again, I can only smile. Too happy to see a Star that can now be this close and this attentive. But when I remembered Aunt Marisa's request this afternoon my smile immediately faded.

"Now you shower and change." Decree Star.

I nodded and obeyed. The stars asked me to climb the stairs to my room. After the stars left I took a shower and changed my clothes.

Done when I sat in my bed. My eyes still feel so sore. Maybe it's because I've been crying all day and been in the rain just now. A few minutes later, the door of my room was knocked by someone. Until the Star shortly appeared behind the door while carrying a tray that had no idea what it contained.

"Lo really isn't pa-pa? Your face is pale. Your eyes are also red" asked the star after putting the tray on the nightstand.

I shook my head slowly. As much as possible I hold back my tears from falling in front of the Star right now. The more the star of attention this way it feels like my heart is squeezed slowly.

"So why is it red like this? Not sick?" The Star question is heard again. Both of his hands held my hands. It turns out that the nail pinch marks were not lost this afternoon as well. It was just right when the shower was so painful. I didn't even realize it.

"It...Not a pa-pa. Not sick."

"Is there something you're sick of?" Stars introgate.

I'm shaking.

"Is there something you're hiding?" The stars looked at me deeply.

I shook my head again.

"Lo's not like the Kejora I know."

I furrowed my eyebrows. Does Star know I'm hiding something from her?

"Lo must be lying, right? You can never lie to me, Ra. Because of how smart you cover it up, your eyes can never tell a lie. Lo abis crying?"

Tests.

One tear escaped already. The defense I built was already shaky due to the words Star just now. Moreover, his hand rubbed my face slowly.

"I'm sorry. But I can't tell. Not because I don't trust you, Star. I'm just not ready."

"Gue don't want you to make up stories now. I just want to be on your deck when you're sad or sad again. I just want you to know, I'm here."

I slipped my two hands between the hands of the Star and hugged her. Gender my head on his field chest. Just hugging a Star like this it felt like my heart was slowly becoming calm.

"Crying off. Don't hold it." Said the Star while stroking my still wet hair.

I'm pulling the Star's body tighter. Maybe tonight is my last hug with her.

"Is Dara sick?"

I nodded in response. And the Star still faithfully stroked my hair dearly.

"Adira was the story, he said you had bullied Dara while in the doll shop. Why not say?"

"Gue forgot." Answer lies. At that time, I intentionally did not tell the stars. Because I don't want to talk about Dara in front of the Stars.

"Gue can remember him if he dares to macem-macem the same lo again." The stars rubbed my cheeks.

"No need, Star. Don't hate him so much."

The star that heard my words just now broke his embrace. He looked at me in wonder. "Why?"

"Kalo lo hates her too much, she's afraid you'll fall in love with her."

"Lo ngmong what the hell, Ra?" The stars seem a little upset.

"If Dara is finally your soul mate, what can I do?" I said unconsciously and unconsciously.

"Lo, what the hell, Ra? I don't like talking about it!" The star rose from its seat. His face was full of annoyance.

"Gue said only if."

The stars stepped wide leaving my room. Maybe he's upset because my words have gone too far.

"I'm sorry, Star."

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The time that Aunt Marisa gave me for those two days was really torturing me. In school I could not focus at all on the lessons. Counting today and tomorrow. I don't know what I'm gonna do. I was confused whether I should make the Stars hate me or vice versa.

"Star," called me as I entered the Star's room whose door was not locked.

The star who was playing his guitar on the bed just turned to me for a moment.

"Gue can come in?"

After getting a short nod I stepped my foot to enter. I sat on the edge of the Bintang bed. He still looks upset.

"Lo's still mad?" Tanyaku.

"Gue has been forgotten. Don't talk about it anymore." Answer's flat.

I looked at the Star that was not looking at me at all. He was busy strumming his guitar.

"Wouldn't you ask to be escorted to the hill?"

The guitar playing the Star stopped. This time I managed to get the Star to shift its focus.

"Why did you suddenly go there?"

"Wouldn't you want to do it?" Tanyaku.

"Judek. Lo prepare. I'll change my clothes first."

I smiled at the sumringah. "Lo's not angry anymore, is he?"

"Yes. I'm not angry." The star still answered.

"Kayak isn't that sincere. Nor did he smile." I said while poking the left cheek of the Star with my index finger.

The star finally smiled and gently ruffled my hair.

Finished getting ready me and the Star went straight to the hill. Although only full of silence I still enjoy this togetherness. Behind the Star motorcycle. I can hold her from behind like this. I'm afraid this will really be my last.

After a long journey finally the Bintang motorbike arrived at the destination. I got off the bike and a few minutes later the stars followed me.

Like the night I had spent with the Stars in this place, we just sat on the green grass looking at the sparkling capital. It feels fine if you have to go through the night even until the morning here. There are stars accompanying me.

"Star," call me shrewd.

The stars just muttered while looking at me. I returned his gaze too.

"Gue may not be this place my favorite place as well. I don't know why I like this hill," I said with a smile.

The star that heard that nodded small. He smiled as well before we both enjoyed the beauty of the place again.

"Bye,"

A few minutes later the sound of the stars interrupts. I who was sitting next to him immediately turned my head.

"Until now you haven't answered my question. Why did you hang me?" Ask the stars suddenly.

I understand exactly where the Star talks. When Bintang expressed his feelings in Adira's villa yesterday, I hadn't answered him until now.

I will express my true feelings tomorrow. Right on my birthday. But right then was also my last day to be with the Stars.

"Gue doesn't want our relationship to be clear. I also want to know how you feel to me like how," said Bintang again.

The stars look so full of hope. I'm afraid I'd hurt her feelings if I had to be honest about this. I don't want to make the Stars lose their smile.

"Star," call me soft.

The stars did not answer. He waited for me to continue my sentence. But my mouth could say no more. I want tonight to be a beautiful night. An unforgettable night. And it probably won't happen again.

I sensed that there was a courage whose immense strength was overpowering me. Made me unconsciously draw my face to the stars. It's eroding the distance between the two of us. Until the breath of the Star now I can feel it hit my face.

My courage is getting crazy. Even my two hands were raised to frame the warm face of the Star. I pulled that face closer. Until my lips have been stuck with his chewy lips.

My eyes closed tightly. Although the kiss was without******* but I enjoyed it. The stars did not reject me. I don't know what's on his mind right now. I don't give a shit. I just want this night to go long.

"Ma-, sorry."

Aware of what I was doing earlier, I immediately pulled my body away. I looked wrong. What I just did was out of my mind. What if the stars are offended?

A few seconds later the Star pulled my chin to look at him. I had to look up following the pull of his hand.

"Lo got me addicted tonight. So you have to take responsibility,"

My eyes immediately closed rapidly as the Star fused her lips with mine again. I could feel his fingers slipping on the sidelines of my hair.

Slowly Star*******my lips are slow. His movements are very soft. Makes me even less want to let go. My hand was already curled around his neck unconsciously. Maybe God will curse me after this.

"Promise to always be with me, Ra. Cause if I lose you again, I'll go crazy." Say the Star softly after releasing her kiss.

The star pulled my body into his arms. He rubbed my back with his love. Without him knowing. I'm crying behind his back now.

"Let's know, Star. Maybe that kiss was the last present before I left you." My inner.

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