Morning Star
Last Day

Her night.

Again the rain fell so hard. I looked out of the house from the window. I glanced at the watch that was in my arms. It's ten o'clock at night. Are the stars still waiting for me on the hill?

I hope it doesn't. I hope he won't be that stupid.

The disturbing emotions are starting to haunt. I really want to know where the Star is now and how she is. Last time he just called me wanted to meet up on the hill at seven o'clock. The rain has not stopped since.

I don't know why my little heart keeps thinking about the stars. Until a knock on the main door faintly sounded and woke me from the daydream. I ran quickly down the stairs. Curious to see who comes in this heavy rain.

"I'm sorry, I've been bothering you all night."

A heavy voice greeted me. I immediately looked in shock. Sure oes. The person I just thought of just now has already come before my eyes. With her body soaked.

"My fault what is Ra? Why are you suddenly avoiding me? If there's a problem, it's not like this. At least you say I should. Not in a way to be silent and avoid gini Ra," said Bintang without further ado.

I knew this situation would happen. I just don't know why this should happen on the day I should be happy.

"Suddenly you mutusin lived in your own house. There is also no message from me. Just so you know, I waited three hours on the hill. If you can't come why not be honest from the beginning?"

I could see the Star's gaze filled with disappointment.

"Gue can't. I don't want to come find you," I replied in the calmest tone possible.

"Gue doesn't know what you mean," the star looked at me questioningly. Like I didn't believe what I said just now.

"Today is my birthday. I'm just asking for one request from you,"

I sighed for a while before continuing my words which could have made the Stars even more disappointed later.

"From today, this second, don't ever call me again. Let's just say we've never known each other before."

The star laughed blandly while shaking his head several times.

"Lo's kidding, right? Do you want to give me another hand? I swear this is not funny!"

"Serious cave. You've been asking for my answer all along, haven't you? Here is the answer, stars. I want you out of my life,"

The star shook its head strongly. I can no longer continue my increasingly evil words.

"Gue can't believe it. You must be lying, right? Tell me this is just for me to play Ra!" Said the Star while shaking my two shoulders.

"I've been playing with your feelings all this time. It is up to you to believe or not to believe. But this is the reality."

The star dropped to his two shoulders limp. Before finally scooping his face violently.

"Just playin' my feelings you said?" Ask the Star once more, seeking the truth in my two eyes.

"Gue sure you have the same feeling as me Ra. I can read it all from your eyes. If there's something that makes you like this, you say the same to me."

I bow my head. Not daring to see the Stars directly.

"Is there someone who ngancem you and tell you to stay away from me?" The stars look at my face that is still down.

"Nobody hit me. Don't you know." Reply evasive.

"Gue has already decided to live a quiet life like first. And after graduating later I will also take college outside Negri." Continue again.

The star rests on his two hands on my shoulder. "Gue can date long-distance Ra. We can also backstreet if you want to calm down first. If there's another way for us together why would you choose to leave my life Ra?"

"Gue never had any feelings for you, Star." I said lowered.

I just realized, lying to myself was much harder than lying to others.

"Lo look me in the eye, say you don't have any feelings for me."

The star pulled my chin. Staring at me in the dark. He's still waiting for me to talk.

Long time in the dream I actually enjoyed the warm gaze of the Star tonight. Until I forgot about the title just now.

"Lo can't say, can you?" Prosecute again.

My eyes are heating up because they hold back my tears that already want to fall. I felt like I wanted to put an end to all of this and cry with satisfaction in the room without anyone knowing.

"Gue doesn't feel the same, Bintang." I said in a tone full of emphasis.

The star took his hand off my chin. He ruffled his wet hair in frustration. His steps away, he punched his own hand into the pillar of the house.

"I am so stupid. Why can I believe you have the same feeling for me. Just because you kissed me that malem. It turned out that it was just part of the game lo doang," said Bintang with oddity.

Long enough me and the Star were silent with each other's thoughts. I don't know what the stars are thinking right now.

"This is your decision, I can't make it too, right Ra?" Ask the stars. His position is still behind me.

I kept quiet and didn't answer. The part I'm afraid of now if my words come out later will hurt him even more.

The star came back towards me. He stood in front of me with a smile full of wounds.

"It's a gift from me. Happy birthday to ra. May you always be happy later" said Bintang while giving a small red box in my hand.

"Too with me away can make you happy, I will do that. I'll find another path that you'll never go through."

I'm still trying to calm down. Putting a face as flat as possible even if it's not my forte.

"Funny about Ra. Yesterday was the reason I smiled. But now you're the reason I'm crying too." The stars covered her falling tears.

A few seconds later the Star approached, he pulled my head towards the chest of his field. Leaving a kiss there.

"Lo will always be the most beautiful in my life Ra. I'm the first successful girl to fall in love with." Soft Star vibe.

Ultimately, destiny is in control of happiness. It is undeniable, loving and letting go is the hardest thing. Maybe me and the Stars are just destined to love each other without having to have.

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