MARRY MY LOVER'S BEST FRIEND
CHAPTER 9

From the afternoon I sported my heart continuously only out of concern regarding the jealousy of the Clouds. I calm my heart, If about Bara maybe the Clouds do not know him well so that the opportunity for misunderstanding is very large, but it will be different story with Arka who is his best friend, so the Cloud could respond to this as pure joke.

"You have a charming aura, then why don't you look for a girl you can take seriously," asked Awan who made me not understand which direction the conversation was going, maybe being quiet and listening is the safest position for me right now

"Udah, I leave it to my parents, pity people's children if they have to fight blessing," Arka said with a smile.

"Once in a while we need to be serious, captain," Awan said as he punched Arka in the shoulder.

"This is serious, ndan" replied Arka earnestly.

In my heart I asked what Arka meant. But I was afraid to tell it. Maybe he was picked up by his parents? I kept quiet a lot, unlike the first time we met, joking with them.

"Kas, just shut up?" ask Arka who might be watching me.

"Ehm, a little tired all day muter continues," I said reasoned.

"I'm sorry baby, all day you keep me up until the gini ketpekan, yes already this brother we go home yes," said Awan while wringing my fingers.

I nodded my head while smiling. It felt good to be invited home because I felt so wrong from the beginning that I felt uncomfortable being there.

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We got to the front of the house, Awan put me down and left. With a step of dragging my feet, I reached also the door that was already open. Sure enough, Rayi was there. The kitchen and living room looked very clean. I put my body on the sofa while tuning the television.

"Ra, please make noodles dong, use eggs in three-seed chili slices," I said.

"Aren't you dinner?" rayi asked with a skeptical face.

"After I remember I didn't eat all day, Ra. Last morning did not have breakfast because of the bad luck, afternoon just drink avocado juice with French fries, afternoon snack with you," I replied in a limp tone.

"Duh Gusti, kok kebangeten men Awan, ngajak children people are not given to eat," said Rayi while shaking his head and patting his eel and returning to the kitchen.

For a moment I closed my eyes, relaxing a tired body all day. In my little heart I felt that there was something difficult for me to understand about my relationship with the Clouds, on the one hand I was happy and comfortable, on the other hand I did not dare to act out of fear of the Clouds being disappointed or jealous. A day with the Clouds didn't seem like there was time for the two of us even though we were physically together. Clouds tend to be busy taking care of his business and as if he steals time on the sidelines of his busy life to keep me company.

Rayi woke me up while thrusting a bowl of instant noodles complete with mustard, eggs and chili slices. He also made me a glass of milk. I then sat down and I greedily ate everything clean up. It feels really good.

"I'm just running a business every day" I said, wiping my mouth with milk.

"Yes, you should be able to find time on the sidelines of busyness. If you want the dolan courtship ala High School children. Labile children don't know the direction" Rayi said as she tidied up my used bowl and glass and took it to the kitchen to wash.

"But you want to have fun too" I protested as I followed Rayi into the kitchen.

Am I not ready to get married? I have always enjoyed my solitude and my fellowship with Rayi which I feel is enough to fill my life with happiness and colour. It's not that I have a perverse sexual orientation or like the same sex. But I still want to have fun. There were my youth that seemed lost because I had to fill it with hard work to graduate from college and also have my own home. I struggled to go to college and work because my parents were unable to pay. My parents were too old to cover all the costs that were growing as I got older.

I insist on staying here instead of following my parents who prefer to stay in the village. I was determined to take KPR just to show my parents that I was able to live independently. Right now I just want to enjoy life, when I think my life is at the top, have a good career and not many problems that I face. If asked about the target of getting married, maybe one and a half or two more years then I am ready.

"But I love the Clouds" I said as I continued to follow Rayi.

"In the household it is not enough with love alone, if the Javanese say need seedlings, bebet, weights," protested Rayi while sitting in front of the TV.

"What are seeds, bebet, weights?" I asked to test, lest Rayi did not understand what she was talking about.

"The baby is a good lineage, the baby is a good socioeconomic status, if the weight is personality and education is good," said Rayi eagerly.

"Ah, you've never been married" I said beginning to ignore Rayi's words.

"It doesn't have to be, we can learn from other people's experiences,"

"Learning from soap operas?" my attack refused Rayi's love.

"That's the jerky," that's all that's said from Rayi's mouth while his eyes are focused on staring at the glass screen enjoying the snetron that will soon provoke his emotions.

Was I too quick to accept Cloud to be my lover? We should have put our vision and mission together first. I ruffled my hair hoping that there was a tangled thread I made I could break it down slowly.

"You should, if you're not ready to get married, you're talking to Clouds, from heart to heart, let it be clear, you don't feel trapped" Rayi said as she watched me ruffle my hair. He knew I must be dizzy and had not found a solution to do something like this. I was getting confused, how to talk about it with Clouds while the time for both of us was really difficult. The cloud is too focused on its business.

Suddenly my phone rang out my daydream, and it was from a number I didn't know. I let my phone keep ringing, when will he call me? Rayi nudged me and gestured with her eyes pointing towards my phone.

"Let's just, don't know this" I said, pushing my phone away.

At first Rayi agreed with me but it seemed like she was starting to get distracted. According to him, the sound of the phone interfered with his concentration watching soap operas. The phone was silent for a while, I then switched the phone to vibrating mode. But when the phone vibrates Rayi still feels disturbed.

"Hello," said Rayi with a dilloudspeaker phone so I could listen to her.

"Which love, you're not Love, are you?" there was the voice of a man who was full of charm yet very foreign in my ears. Rayi and I looked at each other like they couldn't believe it.

"Who are you?" asked Rayi with a slightly taut tone and impressed fierce.

"I just want to talk to you, love, she's there, right?" the man's voice was actually very pleasant in the ear, like the voice of a radio announcer.

Rayi and I looked at each other, not knowing what to do, immediately I snatched my phone from the hand of love and I ended the call. But my phone rings again.