MARRY MY LOVER'S BEST FRIEND
CHAPTER 14

I just kept quiet, my tears falling profusely once flooding my cheeks. Mother hugged me while gently stroking my hair. Chaotic thoughts because of the sudden proposal has not been completed suddenly news I have been betrothed. The clouds just bowed, maybe he felt humiliated even though the father subtly rejected him. He was just silent as if he did not believe everything.

"Father accused me of not-not just because Cloud suddenly proposed to me and now unbeknownst to me you are planning an arranged marriage, what is the meaning of all this, sir?" I asked while sobbing not accepting.

"You should be able to understand your parents' wishes, nduk," said the father in a soft tone but his words felt very piercing.

"Father should also be able to understand my feelings," I said defiantly with sobs becoming more and more.

Mother tried to calm me down and reconcile with my father so that we would not debate each other. My mother took me inside but I refused. What about the Clouds if I leave him alone with the father? I know his heart must also be broken to hear from his father.

"I went back to the city with the Clouds" I said to my mother and tried to wipe my tears as my tears began to subside.

"You stay here for a while, nduk. Let your father explain everything." said the mother softly soothingly.

"Continue Clouds?" ask for an explanation.

"Yes, I want the clouds to go back to the city first" said the mother, looking at the clouds that had just bowed.

I refused mother's advice and insisted on keeping the clouds and my tears flowing again. It's all hard for me to accept. Who am I being matched with? Why hasn't there been any talk with me? Or is this just your excuse to reject Cloud's proposal?

"You stay here, getting married is not just about me and you but also having to unite two families. As long as we are not married, you still belong to your parents, do not let because of me you become disobedient. If our soulmates can certainly unite," the words of the clouds that make mothers also cry.

"We came together and got back together" I started to be stubborn.

"If you are like this, chances are you will hate me and blessing will be difficult for us to get," said Awan still with a forced smile and trying to toughen up.

The clouds went away on their own and asked me to stay. He kept on assuring me that everything would be fine. He promised to fight so he could marry me. According to Awan, maybe my parents didn't know him very well so it was hard for them to let go of their child.

"We just need time to convince everyone" he said before he left.

Those words seemed to slap me and made me realize that from the beginning, I was also still unsure about marrying Awan this fast. I still continue to struggle with my mind about the wedding plan that I think is too fast and when facing my parents I am still full of doubts.

Without saying much, I went into the room and locked myself up. I reflect on everything that happened. I sorted everything from the beginning I accepted Awan to be my lover and then Awan expressed his desire to lead me to be his wife. Since then I began to fret and often have trouble sleeping because his wishes were against my wishes but I had no way to refuse him. Maybe this is the way to postpone the marriage in accordance with my wishes.

This is not delaying, but cancelling. Because in fact my plan is very far from my imagination. How could I marry Awan if in the end my father wanted to marry me to the man of his choice?

A soft sounding mother's voice called out to me while knocking on my room door and asking to talk to me. But I ignored it, my head felt too full to be filled with serious talk later. About the future I will live in.

"Let me calm down, ma'am" I said, refusing her request.

It's really painful to refuse a mother like that. Sulking and confining myself in a room like a labile-minded ABG kid is actually not my habit just that I don't know how to calm down and find an explanation for everything that happens. At this time the ego dominates me so that I realize spoken to like anything I will definitely insist on rejecting it. Any excuse I would reject and I would only rebel.

It was sunny and the cool air should be nice but not with me sitting surly in front of my parents. I couldn't look them in the eyes because I felt betrayed.

"You never told me you had a boyfriend" he said as if spilling on me.

"We have no intention of going out, sir. He wants to marry directly, it is old enough" I said reasoned and I think it makes sense.

"That's not the way, nduk. You should have told me first, ask for new opinions bring here to propose," said the real father is not wrong at all.

"The father should also tell me first, ask my opinion to determine the matchmaking," I said attacking back the father's words.

Mom and Dad looked at each other. They are immune to my stubbornness. I also went back to being quiet, I was determined to just talk if my father or mother spoke. There is guilt about denying them that way, but I am not a child and I have the right to rule my future.

"You don't think it's time to tell you yet" said the Father again looking at me affectionately.

"But you agreed to the match, right?" ask me with a slow tone but quite striking.

"Yes, but it's for your own good, too, nduk" I think it's the cliche words of the old man who wants to win himself.

I would like to shout that I am their child, but I am not entirely theirs that they can decide things without considering my feelings. I'm an adult, it's entirely my right to determine what's best for me and what I should do. It is my right to choose my own path of happiness.

"At least listen to the father's explanation first, nduk," said the mother gently seduced me.

I was silent while looking down, my eyes began to dew and I could not bear the tears that flowed for the umpteenth time. God, why is my love path this complicated.

I then told him about the matchmaking that had been discussed with the men since three years ago. While our family's economy was still on the decline, I struggled for the diploma and college degree I dreamed of. At that time they thought I was very young to be involved and this plan. But do they realize that without involving me, it will cause the situation as it is now? They had also met the man they called the 'prospective ghost' about a year ago. Men who think they are handsome, smart, humble and have a good future. Though the Clouds also have all the criteria, but they are too rushed to reject the Clouds without wanting to see what is called seedlings, weights and weights. The clouds also seemed to meet that criteria.

They also admitted that they had given the man a phone number and wished he had contacted me. My mind was wistful trying to remember who the stranger had been trying to contact me for the past year, but I didn't find him either.

"Those who ask you well, nduk" said the mother with a smile. Maybe he was trying to convince me that he'd be happy if I accepted the proposal.

"Who were they until my mother accepted his proposal?" I asked without looking at my parents' faces.

"Friend of the father who has been very kind to help the father" said the father excited.

"So you sacrificed and sold me just to win back all your rights?" I said the one I regretted but couldn't pull anymore.

"LOVE!" snapped the father while glaring at me.

My heart stopped at once not expecting my father to act like that.