MARRY MY LOVER'S BEST FRIEND
CHAPTER 127

"Do I need to go to the clinic? You look very pale" said Awan's mother who I answered with a headband.

I don't know why the dam that I was trying to build was finally broken too. My tears flowed as if I could not stop, I cried as much as I could and I could feel the warm embrace of Mother Cloud wrapped her hands around my body and gently stroked my hair. Not a single word was spoken just my crying seemed to be getting explosive. I spilled all the anxiety and guilt with tears that kept dripping as if I didn't want to stop. Until I slowly set my breath and I calmed myself and tried to master my emotions. Long time I was silent then apologized to the mother Awan who had since let me cry in his arms. Feeling a little comfortable I began to tell her all the turmoil I was going through. About Arka being so clever and meticulous covered her illness and how I felt not to be considered a wife by her actions. Mother Awan smiled as she occasionally stroked my hair and wiped away the tears that were still left on my cheeks.

She later told me that her husband's heart condition was getting worse despite having surgery to install the ring so she had to be a frequent hero in the hospital. At one point, he came to redeem the medicine and happened to meet a pale-looking and extremely exhausted Arka who was queuing in Dr.'s practice room. Gery who happens to be his stepson only their relationship is not good because Dr. Gery never agreed to Awan's parents' marriage. Mother Awan forced herself to continue to accompany Arka in every treatment especially when she knew Arka kept her health condition secret from her family, friends or acquaintances because she did not want them to worry about her condition. Especially me, Arka's wife who he thinks is most loved. So there are times when Arka is rarely at home just because she is undergoing treatment or even hospitalization. I finally got an answer, why Arka was here when I fainted from exhaustion all day looking for her. Even in the days when Ark did not come home on work grounds, Arka was here, battling her pain. How could I not be at all aware of the changes to Arka, her face that often looked pale and exhausted. I also just realized that Arka's body looks thinner. It should be that since I know Arka only lives with one kidney, I should be able to pay more attention to her health instead of being busy with my own feelings. The guilt tormented me.

"In the beginning of daddy's illness, I also had time to down. There was only a feeling of sadness and always blaming circumstances but it was completely useless" Awan's mother said after I seemed to be able to master my emotions and calm down a little.

"Keep me what?" I try to find a solution.

"You need to be calm and, importantly, take care of your health, not stress," he suggested, which confused me a little.

"We're talking about Arka's health, right?" I said asking for an explanation.

"Yes, pretty. Mommy means because you have to take care of the Ark, you must be healthier and more energetic than the Arka so that the Arka is also the spirit to heal," suggested the mother of Awan who is very reasonable.

I was only able to bow listlessly, hoping I could handle it. There's still plenty of time to be a devoted wife and I have to be passionate for the sake of Arka, Aahva and the baby in my womb.

"Today's the schedule to Dr.Gery let me who nemenin ya mas, pity his mother Awan ngurusin her husband still you repotin too" I said because the mother Awan had told me the Arka check-up schedule

"Kok you know?" asked Arka astonished and as if in disbelief and immediately stopped his activities.

"Next you don't have to go to the office, just don't go in a day" I said.

I gave my best smile to her and tried to calm down as her mother Awan suggested while Awan still looked at me with a question mark. Not much I explained to him, I then did my daily activities to fill the time and I was constantly near Arka.

"Yank, you haven't answered my question yet" Arka said demanding me.

"Mas not willing if I'm the nemenin?" I even teased him.

Arka still returned my behavior with a smile when I knew she must be very curious about everything. I then offered to help him get ready because soon we had to leave but he refused but still I continued to follow him. His face seemed mixed between uncomfortable, astonished and happy because he thought I was very excited and looked cheerful. In my heart I justify the words of his mother Cloud that what we feel will have an impact also for those around us. And we left with Rayi who also seemed more relaxed because I did not look stressed and depressed. Whereas before Rayi always looked the most worried when I talked about Arka.

In the practice room, Dr. Gery greeted us with a smile and looked pleased with my presence. Dr. Gery instead told Arka about my arrival the other day and hoped that I could greatly help the Arka healing process which turned out to be very bad. Hearing this information made my thoughts and feelings very chaotic but I had to remain calm. I just hope Arka can last longer and build a very happy household with me.