Cinta Ilham & Zahra
MCIDZS. 6Bound With Obligations

After Zahra returned from the tomb of his uncle who was none other than Kiai Saleh, Zahra was pensive in a room that looked very quiet.

"Maybe it is time for me to erase this feeling, for there is nothing more that might be expected" Zahra said in a stillness based on feelings that were not okay.

Zahra looked so sad and her heart was so fragile, to say strong was impossible because no matter how strong a human was, there must be a weak point. Outside could look strong, but his heart was not that strong.

Therefore, Zahra could only accept everything that happened to her and her love. Accepting is a very easy word to say, but sometimes it requires a strong determination. And if Zahra's faith is low, then it's easy for him to get everything he wants. However, Zahra is not like that because it is basically. Zahra was a humble and educated woman who could not afford to be determined.

***

At this time Alisha and her husband and mother were in the living room and seemed to be talking about something, about the boarding school left by Kiai Saleh.

"Ilham, if I hand over this Pesantren Darussalam to you. Are you ready?" ask Rahma's mother who now makes Ilham very confused.

"Ilham doesn't know, Mom. Maybe later Ilham talked first with Abi, because it is impossible for Ilham to take the decision directly with it," replied Ilham and he only found out that Kiai Saleh only had one child, alisha—the woman who has become his wife.

"Alright, I know Nak Ilham is still a teaching teacher at Ar-Rasyid School. However, if allowed Mother will be happy to give it up because it is very unlikely that Mother herself sent it."

Inspiration just nodded its head, understood and no longer extended the conversation. Suddenly, Alisha said something.

"Mother, if I go with Ustaz Ilham to Bandung and there is also Zahra. What can?"

Rahma's mother fell silent, she didn't know what to say.

"Alisha, if you and I go to Bandung, then who will look after Mom here, while only you hope Mother," rebuke Inspiration because he does not accept with all that his wife says.

Alisha was silent, and she realized that her mother needed her too. There used to be Kiai Saleh who accompanied his mother, but now there was no one to accompany him, and he also thought that his mother must have missed him because Alisha had long studied at the Ar-Rasyid School, until now she returned again with her parents.

"Well, I'll stay here with Mom" Alisha said, making Rahma's mother smile again, embracing her daughter's body with affection.

For that, Ilham just smiled to see the scenery that he thought was very meaningful. However, a moment later Ilham and Alisha went back into her room.

"Pbuh, is this marriage so burdensome that it makes Mas always silent and never say anything to me?"

Inspiration was fixated by his wife's question so as to make him pause for a moment. "Nothing incriminates me, but I am not used to this kind of situation" replied Ilham soraya bowed.

"Is there anything that makes Mas unable to accept it?"

"I don't know that, but for sure I will always carry out the duties of a husband properly" Ilham replied and this time Alisha no longer said anything.

Things became quiet again and Inspiration also did not dare to say anything more, because he was also struggling with his mind that was still wandering.

"I have an obligation to be a good husband to my wife Alisha—, but this situation makes it very difficult for me to behave properly as a husband, whereas I am only a man who is thinking hard to remain steadfast in living this destiny" murmured Inspiration in his heart.

On the other hand, Ilham had a duty over his wife, while he still loved Zahra very much. However, Inspiration is bound by obligation and it is very unlikely for Inspiration to regain Zahra.

Therefore, Ilham seemed confused and Alisha also very attentive to him so that whatever he did would be very influential on the mindset of Alisha who was still not stable. For this reason, Ilham very much regrets himself who had to face this test alone, while in the bottom of his heart there is still the name of a girl who is very much waiting for his presence.

***

In a room in front of him there is a glass, and there can see clearly the outside view. There was a beautiful girl, writing her story swayed by consciousness, and the reality that made her feel so bad. She is Zahra—a very Inspiration woman to love.

"In my life there has never been a single word of love out of my mouth, but not because I cannot say it. However, I do not want with my openness to make myself fall into a storyline that is very painful. Let it be, my own story line that can represent my love for you. However, our love cannot be united, but this heart is always fixated on you. And if indeed we are destined to be together, then God will make it easier for us to be reunited."

A pen is written on a piece of paper that has parallel lines. In the book, there are many stories that Zahra wrote with his heart at this time.

In his eyes the book was with a wistful, not a beautiful word that Zahra could express in a story. However, her feelings that she could concoct were such that it would be a booster for herself. However, his heart was not that strong.

Zahra knows, in love we must be able to accept two choices. Get or advertise, and if we're at the get's option, then he'll be very happy. However, if it is in a position that should advertise, then it should be ready to accept the fact that it is the best path for him.

Before that, Zahra never complained because everything she did was of her own accord. Therefore, there is no need to blame fate for not being fair. Destiny is never wrong, but we are wrong to mean that everything that has happened is a reality that needs to be accepted. Want as strong as we are against the destiny of God, it is already very opposed and impossible to be able to. Therefore, accept everything that happens with a big heart.