Cinta Ilham & Zahra
MCIDZS. 19The Fragile Heart

"I just want to try to be a good wife" replied Alisha with eyes fixed on Ilham.

"For what? You have been a good wife to me" said Ilham. He did not expect that Alisha would answer like that.

"But I feel, never feel it. Until now, Mas could never accept my presence in your heart," said Alisha who was actually very fragile, but she still tried to be strong.

Inspiration fell silent, he felt guilty because he could never open his heart even though he had tried.

"Can I get it even if it's only half? I know, in Mas's heart is still saved Zahra's name, but I'm your wife, Mas! I'm entitled to you" continued Alisha. Now he looks very fragile.

The guilt of Inspiration is now increasingly becoming, even he can not say anymore. However, if this continues to be left, then it will continue to argue. In doing so, Ilham strengthened himself to calm down Alisha who was still sad before him.

"I'm sorry, Alisha," lirih Ilham with her guilt, approached Alisha who was still silent with her willingness.

"Mas doesn't need to apologize, it's my fault. I'm the one who's been present between you two so, Mas can't be with the woman that Mas loves." Alisha did not blame Ilham, and instead blamed herself.

Inspiration was made to feel more guilty and could no longer hurt his wife, so he immediately approached Alisha, and hugged her soraya calmed her down.

"No, Alisha is not wrong. The wrong Mas, the selfish Mas, and the Mas who never understood how his own wife felt. I don't deserve to be considered a good husband! The title was too high and far from Mas, so Mas felt he did not deserve it." Ilham said words that might hurt her heart, but she admitted herself to Alisha.

Alisha lifted her head up, and the face of Inspiration was filled with guilt, and mixed with her helplessness as a husband.

When the eyes of the two of them clashed with each other, Ilham did not dodge, he still looked at the face of Alisha who was still staring at him.

Perhaps for Alisha, such a close proximity to Ilham is rare, but for now, Alisha wants to feel it again. Even if she can stop time, she wants to be like this with her husband.

However, that was only his wish. In any case, Ilham did that only in terms of pity and duty as a husband. Alisha is also quite self-conscious that she is just a layover, but not occupying.

"Mas knows, you are hurt by Mas's treatment of you, but not once did Mas say that Alisha was just a hindrance. However, once Alisha said that, Mas's heart was very sick," said Ilham who was still staring fixedly at his wife's face.

Alisha did not understand the meaning of the words of Inspiration, but she understood enough of the feelings of Inspiration from her eyes. However, she had only discovered the sincerity of her husband, but she was not very good at getting his heart.

"If all this hurts. Then, why is Mas still defending me? All this time, I've been sober, Mom. The relationship that we have been in all this time, never made Mas change at all to me. Sometimes, I think that Mas just pity me, not love because Mas love only for the woman," said Alisha who slowly broke her tears again, and take out the clear details from her beautiful eye patch.

"Enough, Mom! Mas do not need to do that," said Alisha who stopped Ilham with regret.

"Why, Alisha? Can't I be a good husband to you? Despite that, Mas is ready to accept any punishment from you. I realized, there are still women who wait every day for their men to accompany him at all times, but look at what kind of man is in front of you? He does not deserve forgiveness from his own wife" Ilham told Alisha.

Alisha could not stand the confession of Inspiration which made her cry, not because she was ignored, but Ilham looked frustrated and hated herself a lot. Therefore, Alisha did not have the heart to see it.

"Already, Mas. Don't say anything bad about yourself anymore. There is nothing wrong with me or me. We are being tested with loyalty. It hurts each other enough, Mom! We finish it in a better way" added Alisha, still in the arms of Inspiration who then, slowly rubbed her husband's head.

"Mas can't do it, Sha. Mas afraid, constantly hurt your heart," said Ilham and Alisha increasingly made unbearable to Ilham.

Lovingly, Alisha cupped the handsome face before her, with both hands.

"Don't be like this, I can't see Mas in this way. Mas must know, fear is always approaching Mas because of the guilt, then eliminate the taste with all you can." Instead Alisha calmed down Ilham who was struggling with her thoughts.

"I'm always waiting for your arrival with love, Mas. Whether it's long or short, I'll keep waiting for him" said Alisha who ran straight to the bathroom.

"Alisha!" call to Ilham in a slightly loud voice. However, Alisha did not turn her body, and continued to run so that the sound of the bathroom door being closed was quite loud.

After realizing that his wife was no longer in front of him, Ilham immediately approached the bathroom.

"Alisha, open the door. Mas still want to say something to you, our conversation is not finished," said Ilham who knocked on the bathroom door with a confused heart.

Silent, there was no answer at all from inside there, but Ilham did not give up, he continued to try to make Alisha re-open the door.

"Alisha, I'm sorry .. Is she angry? Mas can not be like this," said Ilham still with a deep guilt.

Ilham had tried to get Alisha to open the door to her bathroom, but her efforts were not fruitful at all. Therefore, he just bowed languidly in front of the bathroom door, and hoped Alisha would return by forgiving him.

In the sense that she no longer heard her husband's voice, Alisha was silent for a while while staring at the reflection of her face from the mirror there.

"I'm sorry, Mom. Alisha can't be Zahra, maybe this is the end of our story. I also do not want to be a barrier to Mas Ilham to get his love Zahra back. It's enough that I suffer with this one-handed love, but not with you, Mas" Alisha said. He was still weeping in there, and Inspiration was confused with all that befell him.