Cinta Ilham & Zahra
MCIDZS. 13A Reality

Two weeks later, Zahra stayed at Rahma's mother's house and taught at the Darussalam School. However, there has been no change at all in Zahra because as time went on, she always met with Inspiration and it hurt her so much for repeatedly trying to forget her, but it never worked.

Likewise with Ilham who still can not treat Alisha like a wife. He feels that there is still a lot that has not been fulfilled during being the husband of Alisha, moreover, his always cold attitude in front of his wife makes it a difficult person to talk to.

Despite that, Alisha was always patient and did not mind everything. He also realized that all this was worth getting because basically this marriage was not based on love. However, Alisha also thought about it again because there was no way she could go on and on like this, with no change at all.

That way, Alisha tries to approach her husband and starts to figure out all the Ease of Inspiration. However, she never wanted to mix it up, but it was all she had to do in order to feel and understand her husband's feelings.

In the evening, Ilham was delirious and therefore Alisha woke up from her sleep. Feeling that her husband was dreaming and pronouncing the name of another woman, then she looked at Ilham who was still closed while delirious.

"Zahra, I'm sorry. I didn't want any of this to happen, but circumstances pressured me to accept everything. Even so, I will deeply hurt your heart," raved Ilham who was clearly heard by Alisha.

Alisha appeared to round her eyes, she was in disbelief and very surprised by all her husband's statements. However, Inspiration says it unconsciously. However, Alisha was convinced that what her husband said was true and not just a dream.

"Zahra, sorry. Forgive me ..," said Alvian who was still in his subconscious so that he did not realize everything that was said by him.

"Zahra?" The name that became a question mark for Alisha this time, she heard her husband say the name of another woman and it was the name of his own cousin.

"What does this have to do with Mas Ilham? Is it possible that Mas Ilham loved Zahra, while he never told me?" Alisha seemed to be wondering with all those questions.

Increasingly, Ilham continued to delirious and constantly spoke the name Zahra. Not only did he say his name, but apologized for his regret. Despite that, Alisha did not understand with all that her husband had expressed.

For this reason, Alisha could not bear to see Ilham who constantly called out the name Zahra and already seen sweat grains that wet the temples of her husband. Therefore, she immediately woke up her husband otherwise, Ilham could be sick and difficult to sleep.

"Mas!" Alisha touched the hand of Ilham Soraya to shake her, in order that her husband might awaken.

"Zahra, I'm sorry!" Ilham continued to say that so that Alisha made her voice even harder.

"Mas, already. Don't do it, wake up!" said Alisha who immediately got a response from her husband.

"Zahrah!" ilham said as he hugged Alisha's body, as if he did not want to lose someone.

Silence, before Alisha spoke again and made Ilham aware of what he was doing.

"I'm not Zahra, I'm Alisha, Mas" said Alisha, to Ilham's surprise.

That way, Ilham immediately broke his embrace from Alisha's body and it was true that her wife's face was what she saw. He was so ashamed that he could say nothing but an apology to his wife.

"I'm sorry, I'm" said Ilham with a face that still looks restless and erratic.

"Why should I apologize? You have the right to do it to me, but why didn't Mas say everything before, that Mas loved Zahra?" alisha replied with eyes fixed on her husband.

Ilham seemed surprised by Alisha's words that without being known by him, his wife already knew the truth. However, he has kept it neat and hid everything from Alisha. However, because of her carelessness it made Alisha know everything. After this, Ilham did not know how else to deal with everything.

"Why are you saying that, Alisha?" ask the inspiration a little carefully.

Inspiration was just silent, he could not say another word.

"Mas loves Zahra, right?" ask Alisha again.

"Sorry Alisha, I can't lie to my heart anymore. Before I married you, I loved Zahra first. However, not a single bit of marriage was I canceled," replied Ilham as he looked down at Alisha.

"Why, Mas? If so, who can change it again? Try it a long time ago, I said it. Maybe I won't be this angry and this marriage won't happen!" alisha said with her trembling lips, holding back her cries.

"I'm sorry, Alisha. None of this was my will, but I was forced to carry it out" said Ilham, who was a bit uneasy to see Alisha crying.

"If Mas had to, why did Mas approve of this marriage and want to marry me, while in the heart of Mas Ilham there is already Zahra?" Alisha could no longer hold back her tears until her tears came out along with this painful reality.

"I just obeyed Kiai Saleh and Abiku's request to marry you. At that moment, I could not make another choice anymore" said Ilham who was also sad.

"I feel a very great dilemma, where on both sides there are people I care about and on the other side, people I love. Not enough, I accept and try to be the best? All this time I have often silenced you because I know that you also have not been able to accept this reality," continued Ilham by continuing to look at Alisha's face.

Alisha did not answer, but she listened to everything Ilham said. He could no longer say anything because his tears were also unceasingly coming out, even though it was undesirable.

"I'm also aware that I'm not a good husband to you, but I'm keeping this marriage by not hanging out with other women. Therefore, it hurts your heart so much." Ilham kept telling everything to Alisha.

"At least, I'm so tormented by all of this. Want to be ignored has become an obligation, want to be tried very need a struggle," said Ilham and Alisha just listen to it.

"If all this makes Mas tormented, I can let Mas go along with Zahra" said Alisha with a face that had been soaked by tears.

"No! I'm not gonna do it. It'll only leave a wound, not a pleasure." Inspiration strongly opposed his wife's remarks.

"Then, what about how you feel? I'm more willing to give up than to be a barrier to your love of unity" Alisha said, even though she couldn't accept it in her heart.

"There's no need to budge, I'll try to be a good husband to you, Alisha." Ilham looked at his wife's face and clasped both hands.

Alisha just silently get treatment from her husband, she only saw in her husband's face.

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Assalamualaikum says.

Next, what will Alisha say?