Cinta Ilham & Zahra
MCIDZS. 3 # Marriage Without a Platform of Love

Now everything is ready, including the father of Alisha who will be the marriage guardian of her daughter. Alisha has also been dressed up although very simple because of her sudden marriage.

However, all of this is highly unlikely because marriage is not essentially a foundation of love, but of coercion.

Ilham and Alisha sat side by side and the ruler immediately began a marriage contract with Kiai Saleh who would become his guardian.

"Son Ilham, now hold Kiai Saleh's hand," the penghulu and Ilham's lover fell silent for a moment.

Nevertheless, Inspiration was very doubtful. However, he still tried sincerely and shook the hand of the father of Alisha—the woman he would marry. After that, the marriage contract was immediately carried out even though Kiai Saleh was in a bad condition.

"Muhammad Ilham Abidin, I married and I marry you to my daughter Nur Alisha Shafiyah bint Ahmad Saleh with a dowry (secret) and a set of salat tools paid in cash."

Ilham was silent for a moment and again said, "I accept the marriage of Nur Alisha Shafiyah binti Ahmad Saleh with the dowry paid in cash."

"How are the witnesses?" ask penghulu after witnessing the qabul ijab.

"AH!" A witness pronounces the word lawful. Thus, Ilham and Alisha have officially become a married couple.

"This is not my dream wedding. Forgive me, O God, I do not mean to play with the holy rope of marriage, but the ijab qabul that I said earlier was already very electrifying God's arm because it was so heavy sacred promise that I said. However, it is not this woman that I love, "inner' Ilham said as he glanced at Alisha who was beside him.

"Why is this so, God? I want to get married, but not because of this compulsion. However, it was this marriage that my father wanted, "inner' Alisha, she also did not understand everything that happened and without feeling, her tears just came out, on her wedding day.

Not only did Inspiration feel destroyed, Alisha also felt the same way because it had never been thought by her that all this would happen so quickly.

Not long from there, though. Kiai Saleh convulsed, immediately calling the doctor.

"Well, what's the matter with Dad?" alisha asked, who approached her father and clasped both hands.

"A-dad asked Alisha for help. I-I beg to be a good wife to your husband" said Kiai Saleh and before long, he exhaled for the last time, before that also Abi Zaenal membingbing Kiai Saleh to say the shahadah.

"Inalillahi wa innailaihi rojiun."

"No! this is impossible, Dad!" the grip of Alisha is powerless with such a heavy reality.

Alisha was crying and was unable to accept all these statements. Alisha is married without foundation of love, she must also accept the fact again that her father—Kiai Saleh has died. Leave him forever in this world.

Therefore, Ilham also felt guilty even though his marriage was very sudden, but he knew that Alisha was not okay. Therefore, Inspiration loved his fate. However, he did not assume that God's destiny is not good.

The situation at this time was very runyem, so Abi Zaenal immediately took care of Kiai Saleh's body, while Alisha could only cry. Even so, his actions were not good, but Alisha could not stay strong. However, as much as possible Alisha is being polite and patient. Maybe this is the way and everything has become God's destiny and nothing can change it.

"Mother, Dad?" lirih Alisha in her mother's arms.

"Don't cry, son. I want you to be happy with your marriage even if Dad has passed away, but he has already approved of this marriage."

Alisha just kept quiet and returned to look at Ilham at a glance, visible glare of the eyes that are difficult to interpret. I don't know, Alisha doesn't know either. Alisha could only bow and try to be patient and sincere.

***

After Kiai Saleh's body was buried, Alisha and her mother immediately returned to her home, while Ilham also had to come with her. Not because of what Ilham followed Alisha because at this time, he was already the husband of Alisha. Therefore, he was already obliged to always be there and calm his wife from this very unexpected situation.

"Ilham, please take care of Alisha and calm her down because at this time Alisha really needs a companion who is able to make her cheerful again" said Rahma—'s mother Alisha.

Inspiration just stood still and nodded his head. "God willing, Mom."

Then, Ilham approached his wife and tried to calm her down. Alisha is better than ever.

"Alisha" said Ilham Soraya, approaching his wife.

"Ustaz, sorry." Notya answer what, Alisha instead apologized to Ilham.

Inspiration was silent and could only be so because he knew his wife was having difficulties and needed a companion. But he can't do that.

***

In the evening, Ilham sat on the bed and beside him Alisha, who was now his wife.

The two of them were silent, there was no sense to reveal each other and only silence occurred.

"Oh my God, how is this? What should I do if love is not yet between us, and I never thought it would end like this," murmured Inspiration in his heart and unceasingly he experienced a very haunting chasm of his mind.

"Ustaz, I know all this happened so suddenly. However, not one bit did I insist because all this happened at the will of Allah Subhanahu Wata'ala."

Inspiration only silently listened to all the words of his wife, not because he did not want to. However, Inspiration does not have the power to accept all of this quickly. This is the dilemma that is being felt.

The inner pressure and helplessness felt by Inspiration in dealing with a situation where, he had to give up his love and choose to marry another woman, whereas he never recognized her further.

However, Inspiration also remembered Zahra. Not yet Inspiration to feel, what is called love. Inspiration must accept the fact that he is married and cannot fight for his love.

Ilham also inspired Alisha who now has the status of his wife. He is afraid of not being able to give love and affection as a proper husband. Nevertheless, Inspiration already knows many teachings of Islam. However, not one bit listed a sense that can build his soul to keep trying.

Therefore, Ilham was also afraid that this fact would hurt his wife who did not know that, he actually already loved another woman and it was not Alisha.