The Dark Stains of the Past
Ruminations

You so much contemplation thinking good bad next step. Indeed, even though he did not directly accept the presence of Mas Nael beside him even though You yourself consider it an abnormal relationship.

It is not normal for people to be in a serious relationship. They are so in LP they meet each other in LP they are dating when Youari is isolated, when Youari slumped in the lowest pase of his life journey need the back of the harbor and a skipper who reached out gave support and encouragement so that Youari can look back on his face to give a smile to everyone he met.

Surrender is the only way there is no goodness of every emotion that is expressed because it is only self-satisfaction does not solve the problem instead of tapering the situation and stretching the relationship.

Everything that Kak Ikal said is true there is no one who hopes and aspires in a relationship there is a mismatch, the husband and wife relationship in the household no one intends to divorce is all so sweet at first.

You realize Nael has entered his heart even though he initially had a doubt and always warned him but love has brought Nael to the belief in Youari.

all of this is within reasonable limits.

You remember the word The curl that is said innocently. Indeed, although a little knowledge will also be useful if it becomes a solution to the problems of others and himself.

You still daydream when going to the mosque that afternoon want to calm down after his heart was so hot to accept the accusations and rejections of Mas Nael's parents and the sense of ingratitude felt in humiliation. His heart is a little rebellious if his relationship with Mas Nael which from the beginning of doubt all started from Mas Nael who forced until finally You sow the seeds of taste also finally.

The dilemma apparently for Youari between his love that began to grow into a desire of great hope and the rejection of his parents did not accept Mas Nael on him.

You feel like you don't want to see Mas Nael again but is it fair to behave like that? being in love Mas Nael Andari know so deeply seen also You feel from the form of attention and others.

Finish your prayer tafakur does not budge from where he sat for a long time in meditation as if asking the Almighty about his journey and what will be next.

Dr. Barry who has been watching since your arrival to the mosque and not out of the room women Dr. Barry felt surprised because you rarely behave like that.

Dr. Barry patiently waits to know when you'll be alone like that.

"Mom You?" hello Dr. Barry surprised You who still wet his lips and tongue with dhikr.

Dr. Barry revealed the curtain of the room barrier was wider and you immediately clean the alphabet.

"And from me, have you noticed lately that you've been so unwell, have you been too busy?" ask Dr. Barry to keep his distance.

"It's usually Doc, thanks for watching me."

"What's wrong? did your family come see you and tell you something else."

You shake your head but are not polite also to tell his personal problems to Dr. Barry who actually has the same taste in him.

"Again relaxed? if it's really relaxing, we'll have tea in my room."

You are silent, silent means Mau is invited finally.

They came out of the mosque walking side by side. Towards the Clinic where they often discuss together and talk a lot.

"Doctors ever feel down like me?" You look at Barry's doctor in front of him. After sitting face to face on the sofa of Dr. Barry's room.

"Just like Bu Andari, but the problem is different. Everyone will definitely be in the position of grief ups and downs and ups and downs of mood."

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