The Dark Stains of the Past
First night

The nurse looks at you as if in disbelief or feeling astonished or moreover, who must be looking inside your face. You also can not interpret the view what does it mean what I feel familiar? I don't know. You don't care if he is also confused to think about his own reality.

Or confused an inmate asked a mushola? it might be like that. Strangely where is it? shouldn't an inmate ask where the mushola is?

"Where's the bathroom, and what time is it? where do you pray to face?" once again you repeat his words percis said earlier.

"Are you walking strong? then come with me." said the nurse, there was a little sunbing on her lips.

You try to get out of bed, the nurse came up to Youari stretched out her hand to help give a grip on You mean, she said, but you try yourself to release all the pain in his body to force yourself that's what he should do.

'No one can help you but ourselves, and no one cares but ourselves. What makes your life comfortable here is money' it is said Si Ikal one of the cell dwellers that You remember, it is so but unfortunately You do not have money, said Si Ikal, there was a bit of love yesterday with The Ikal, but it triggered chaos instead. Even if there is indeed You do not bring more and ask his brother because Youari want to try to live from scratch even though the facilities may be purchased and the comfort should be purchased.

'Everyone cannot be trusted one hundred percent, all looking for safety and comfort for themselves, looking for safety for yourself. Never interfere in other people's affairs, nor do you involve yourself in any group that triggers any kind of self-determination, unless you already have a good friend in there.'

A little advice Laksmi's brother still ringing in his ears. In the mind you can still absorb all the words of his Brother including the words of Si Ikal yesterday, all turned out to be such facts.

Yes, I must be strong, this kind of pain must be considered to feel no pain, there is no place to complain all in your own feel let alone a place of indulgence, love, love, dear all lost from yourself turned into acute trauma. Whether what is left in his heart you may see himself only a lump of flesh and bones that are no longer meaningful that either have hope or a future, he said, but little by little began to rise up like yesterday was offended when his principles and pride were trampled on, you finally fought back with all your might. And the Kekar was sprawled.

"Come, start the road can already stand, I'm Hilda the nurse who accompanied Dr. Barry," said the nurse.

You do not answer just bite his lips while starting to walk and feel the pain in his body, began to step slowly while reaching for his veil. Although limped and a little grimacing You can do it.

"This is the bathroom, this is the mosque, know the way back and can be alone?" the nurse said, pointing to the mosque at the clinic.

"Yes!" Just short your answer.

You feel you have healed even though you just realized from fainting. And the pain that is still felt in certain parts of his body that is only while a few more days will heal by itself. He is determined to be strong even if the pain or injury must heal quickly do not ever bother anyone and for sure you do not want to bother yourself.

You bathe with as much as possible, relax the soul of the body, the cold goes into the skin and body, after the cold finally You finish the bath.

Maybe if you talk about words of regret there will be no limit also to his little daughter Amanda, love, affection and longing only for her child is left in his heart.

That's also you don't expect much, if one day his son knows the problem of his Mother and Father died like what? will you be able to explain everything? if after adulthood it may be possible, but you do not want there to be a repetition of the drama even if it is just a story, but you do not want to be, already want everything closed the book and he redeemed the mistake as a consequence of his actions and from wanting to change his life and name also if it can be changed also to Fitri from the word Safitri which means holy but You yourself feel it is not a good call from his habit.

Begging to be protected by the soul of his body, strengthened in the face of all kinds of trials, given fortitude and opened a way out of his problems, asking for the best for his future and also protected his family from danger, and distress.

You come out of the mosque with light steps the quiet atmosphere does not contain fear, what is feared from his life now? no more, no family responsibilities, no job responsibilities, no neighbor and social responsibilities, just self-responsibility, His life has all been entrusted to the Almighty, his life and death are now You are only one surrender in his repentance.

Until your treatment room eat voraciously, all spent then take medicine and a little walk because of the satiety, Alhamdulillah can still eat. You sit back on his bed and stick out his legs slightly in the center of the pain that is still felt.

Trying to remember his cellmates, the Tomboy, the Tall, the Kekar and the Ikal is so easy to remember them, different characters but one thing in common no matter what.

Among all, there is nothing that looks friendly maybe the High One who wants you to approach because there are similarities wearing a veil but whether the character is like what, or what, but if you look inside the cell still wearing the veil it's amazing, and look again reading a thick book, and, intellectually maybe the basic High is quite good at ever eating school or college.

You feel grateful there is a bit of basic martial arts in him, and yesterday he showed until the Kekar unfolded hopefully not even a boomerang that attacked him, he said, tomorrow maybe you are returned to the cell and meet again with the four occupants, impatient to see what their attitude is like.

Is it still brutal or is it starting to take it? You do not have the slightest money now for the benefit of himself related to his womanhood, although not the powder and skincare that will be bought but as a backup if he is so tight must have money.

All the money moved hands and became the trigger for yesterday's commotion, maybe it will be like that every time there are new residents, proof of nothingness and desire as well as circumstances that require them to behave like that.

The clock shows at 10:34 the atmosphere is getting quieter and quieter, Youari tried to close her eyes, this was her first night behind the terrace but instead she slept in a mattress and treatment room air-conditioned.

Better a little bit than in a cold cell room with only a plastic carpet, you smile yourself. He began to pray before going to bed and tried to close his eyes.

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