Tell a Story About Us
part 41's

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Bina opened her phone using her left hand, while her right hand was now spooning the fried rice that she bought in front of the boarding house.

Tonight, Bina is lazy to cook, although honestly the ingredients in her refrigerator are still a lot, because just shopped this morning. But still the feeling of laziness dominates.

Bina's chest pounded as the ringing sound from the phone was now heard, waiting for the phone across there to be picked up by its owner.

Bina smiled faintly looking at the face of the mother who was now smiling staring at the mobile phone screen. “Mother how are you?” Bina asked slowly. Really he misses that shady face, he wants to see it in person. Holding the skin of that face in his palm.

“Good, How to build, healthy Nak?” Lilis smiled gently at her daughter.

Bina nodded, before long she turned her phone camera in the other direction, holding back her tears that wanted to fall. He hasn't called his mother or father in a month. Last time he was in the hospital. He did not dare to call, or even pick up the phone with the name Lilis or Kardi though. He was afraid to see their disappointed faces.

"Healthy Mom, I eat fried rice.” Bina spoke very slowly, turning the camera of her phone towards her fried rice that was half-living. Hiding his face that was now almost completely wet with tears.

“That's good like it, I want you to go there, we eat it huh?” Lilis cheerful tone came out from Bina's phone speaker.

“Iya later we try yes, Bu.” Bina wiped her tears, desperately the girl held her tone so as not to sob.

“Yaudah, Bina eat a lot to be healthy,” said Lilis.

Bina just silently nodded, looking at the face of Lilis who now filled the screen of her phone, even though she knew the woman did not see it. Bina occasionally held her breath as her sobs almost came out. Her chest is so tight.

The woman's face did not show a disappointed or sad face, even more looks happy and cheerful. He knew his mother was not a person who was good at lying about the look of the face, but the face he now saw was indeed no pretense there.

Even so, managed to make Bina decompose like tears. Bina lowered her head trying to hold her sobs so as not to be heard until the phone across there.

They were silent for a moment. Lilis was still smiling sweetly in front of the screen, the woman did not discuss matchmaking, nor did she mention why her phone had never been picked up or why Bina had not called them all this time, the woman simply smiled looking at her phone which led to Bina's fried rice.

Bina doesn't know what else to say. His focus now was just crying without sobbing as much as possible. Just looking at her mother's face that even looked happy she was crying like this, what if the face she saw was a disappointed face. What if it was his father's face.

“Bina..” Lilis called after a long while of silence.

“Iya,” Bina held her voice.

“Bina should be able to take care of themselves there. I'm actually worried, even though there are Tina and Andi, but yes they also do not live with you.” Lilis softly spoken.

“If there is anything, as much as possible Bina should be able to take care of herself.”

Then silence. Bina was still silent, not responding to Lilis. He listened but could not respond.

“Bina...”.

Bina just cleared her throat, her cheeks still kept getting wet, even though she kept wiping the water from her face.

“Let's promise yes same mother, Bina must be married.”

Soft, soft, said that word. But managed to make the description of tears Bina plunge more and more. He squeezed his own shirt, his chest ached hearing the words out of his own mother's lips.

“Same anyone, provided he's good. Bina must be married.”

“Mother is afraid that you can not take care of you, I am afraid that you will not take care of you and Apin,” Lilis said the last word she said very softly.

Bina muttered with her sobs. He could no longer hold it, until sobbing now continues with his crying.

“Married yes, Bin.” Lilis smiled again at her daughter's sobs, with a smile that made Bina cry.

“Dad still hope with you same Irgi.”

“But it's all up to you.”

“Dad only wants you to have someone to look after. Fear something will happen.” Slowly the last sentence that came out of Lilis' lips.

Bina still did not respond, the girl just cried awkwardly.

Silence between the two. Lilis who was still staring at her screen who was displaying fried rice. And Bina who began to eat fried rice again, even with a bit of a whim.

“Si Apin is asleep, Dad?” Lilis voice was heard asking someone there, after a long time.

The voice of the man Bina knew was heard approaching answering, who Bina did not really hear. His chest is now beating great. The feeling of tightness back he felt. Her tears had stopped plunging, but her feelings had now become uneasy.

His father was disappointed in him. His father would be angry with him. Will he not realize his father's hopes, his mother's hopes, everyone's hopes. Or he will ignore all the expectations of others. Or disappointing a lot of hearts?

“Bina what's up, Nak?”

Bina closed her eyes, as the voice and camera of the phone now turned to her father. Bina couldn't look at that face, Bina couldn't hear that voice. Is Kardi going to show her disappointed face.

“Wah, Bina eat fried rice?” The voice of the sumringah was still Bina heard, but she still did not dare to open her eyes.

“Daddy want dong, let add cuaks.”

Bina smiled in her eyes. Although frustrating, he always misses his father's jokes about the man's ugliness. Or about all his pranks. Woe to the angry fathers. His silly behavior, or his prank with Bina or Apin.

Their petty quarrels, which always irritated Bina, ended up being scolded by Lilis. Advice sometimes also spoken from the mouth of his father who always said cuaks. Funny videos of the hok-hok that the man will show him, even though Bina did not get to his joks are very fathers.

He misses everything.

And he was afraid, it would never happen again.

Her tears burst out from the sidelines of her eyes that were still closed back wet the cheeks. Bina was crying again. His chest was getting claustrophobic, remembering things that might not happen again. He misses his father, he misses his mother. He was afraid they would not be able to gather again.

“Building on them, Nak?” Question from Kardi tak Bina sahuti.

Crying again. Weak build. He whiny. Why was he born with such a strange nature. Bina hate. Bina looked down still closed her eyes, she was crying with sobs that she did not cover up anymore. He was afraid to see his father's disappointed face. He was so scared.

“Bina..” Gentle Kardi called her eldest daughter.

“Dad not angry.” Still so soft.

Kardi sighed looking at her phone screen, which still had not switched from fried rice. Bina didn't answer. Nor did he show his face.

“Daddy knows you still have a lot to pursue.”

“Father just fear you no one is guarding.”

“Father choose Irgi, because I believe the descendants of Andi must be good for you.” A few seconds from Kardi. While Bina, did not make a sound at all. He even closed his eyes, which still let out water.

“Same father Om Andi it was cement from lama. I know how rich the war is. If only, Irgi hurt you. Andi will act on her son. Because I'm sure, Andi loves you.”

“But I'm sure, Irgi it's a good man.”

Kardi sounded sighing across there. Very deep. Until Bina's chest tightened.

“But if you have other options, gapapa. That's your will.”

“Daddy will offer the same you also at that time, live first, if indeed the building does not want, yes not papa.”

Bina opened her eyes, the first sight she saw was Kardi's smiling face filling the screen of Bina's phone. A sincere smile full of tenderness. But it also managed to stab Bina's chest smoothly too. Stifling until his sobs were now louder than before.

What Bina really is a barrier to all people's expectations. He was afraid, afraid that everything in his mind was really happening.

Bina fear. Really scared. He doesn't know what to do. He has neither the strength nor the courage to do many things. He's afraid.

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