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Bina opened her eyes that felt heavy. The girl rubbed her eyes which were now swollen from crying this afternoon. His nose was blocked, until his breathing was now irregular. He looked up, looked at the nightstand. There's already his cell phone, who I don't know who came here.
The girl flipped her body to her back, staring at the white ceiling of the hospital in the direction of her vision. Hoping the blockage on his nose was gone. The girl groped beside her stool, there was no Irgi there. Either Bina doesn't know where the young man is.
Bina. A woman he knew was lying down, clutching her school bag tightly, sound asleep on the couch there. Bina frowned, quickly escaping her gaze at the wall clock hanging beside the door, it showed the number ten.
Bina closed her eyes. It was ten in the evening and the woman was still here to wait for him. Bina looked back, she smiled looking at him. He knew that woman loved him so much.
Bina stared fixedly at that sleeping face. A tired face and swollen eyes. Disappointed look that is still clearly drawn. Seeing him Bina could not disappoint him even more deeply with his refusal as well.
Was Tina so disappointed with Irgi? What is so important is this match. Bina could guess, this was because of her father. Bina also accepted everything because of her father. He also wanted to refuse, like Irgi. But seeing how the disappointed look of Andi and Tina alone he was unable to, especially with the disappointed look of his father.
Her tears are back. Bina changed her position back on her back. Look at the lights that are brightly lit, even though it is night. What do they have to do? Bina knows Irgi loves Pita so much. It has to be what?
Bina sobbed in her cries. Her tears flowed through her ears and fell on her sleeping pillow. His breathing was tight, as his nose slowly came back blocked. Bina's confused.
Bina refused as her arm was touched slowly by someone. Looking at the smiling face looking at him. Shady face with a gentle smile that makes Bina even sobbing. It hurt to look at that smile, because he knew there was a huge disappointment covered up.
“Why, Nak?” A gentle question, which was as gentle as her cold hand rub on Bina's palm.
“You drink? Aunt fetchin.” The woman, Tina, let go of her hand, holding a glass of water on the nightstand.
Tina helped Bina hold her body. Then wipe away her tears that were still flowing, with one hand. With a smile the woman thrust a glass of water at Bina.
The girl accepted it, drinking a little water from there. Bina looked at Tina, after the woman put the glass back in place.
“Tante.”
Tina smiled, sitting herself beside Bina, her hand faithfully wiping away Bina's tears that kept flowing. “Why?”
Bina. He doesn't know what to say. He should apologize, or should refuse. Or the... Bina has to say what?
“Something hurts?” Tina gently rubbed Bina's shoulders and back.
“Bina when to go home?” Finally, only that question came out of his lips.
“Tomorrow if the doctor says your condition is stable.”
Bina just nodded.
“Not feel at home here?” Ask Tina.
Bina shakes. I think he wants to keep crying. Her tears kept coming out despite trying to remove them quickly.
“Kangen dad, mom, yes?” Ask Tina. Bina just kept quiet and didn't answer.
“So your mother called, but you slept, so your mother matiin again.” Tina said slowly.
“Oh temen you also have a look here. Bring all the fruit.” Tina's pointer leads to a set of fruits on the nightstand.
Bina was silent. His hands were still focused on wiping away the tears. He didn't really hear what Tina said. His mind was still not able to take place this afternoon.
“Sorry..” Lirih Bina. Don't know, he just feels guilty for everything.
Bina felt the hand that rubbed her slowly now stop.
“Maafin Irgi too, yes.” Tina said softly.
“Maybe you guys are burdened with this. You guys are young. We parents should be able to understand by your own choice.”
“You still have high ideals. Still have great expectations.”
Tina took a deep breath. “Bina.. aunty apologies.”
Bina's breathing came to a halt for a few seconds as Tina said the sentence.shaking her head, looking up at Tina. No, Tina is innocent. However, his silent lips did not let out a single word.
“Tadi, after isya, your father called.” Tina spoke again after a long period of silence.
“Daddy you said, it's up to you with Irgi. Want to continue please, if not gapapa.”
“Om Andi also said so right.” Tina Yoke.
“So now, it's all up to you.” Tina smiled very gently at Bina.
“Tante don't know why you refused. But of course know you guys must have a big reason.”
“One more time, your father ordered. Whoever he comes from is a good person, who should take care of you.”
“Kardi just wants you to wake up well. You are a person he loves very much besides your mother and sister.”
“He chose Irgi, because he knew Irgi the son of Andi, his best friend from a long time ago. Kardi believes Irgi can take care of you.”
“But if you refuse, gapapa.”
Bina was still silent in her sitting. Letting her tears flow freely over the back of her hand. He knew a lot of the disappointment that Tina and her parents felt.
Bina could not see her father's disappointed face. Bina couldn't even imagine it. Bina can't let them down. But how. He himself can do nothing.
Irgi who used to say that he tried not to disappoint many hearts, has now managed to print a disappointed and swollen face from his own mother's eyes. What about her.
The building is too weak. Weepy.
“Bina... You should find a good partner later, find a good in-law, yes. Don't get married, your father will worry.” Tina still continued to rub the top of Bina's head, with a smile that never faded from her lips.
“Tante, and om Andi, worry.”
“Your father is also worried you no one is guarding.”
Bina's tears can't be contained anymore. She was crying with a trembling shoulder, her sobs that she was holding were now also gone, when Tina said her last sentence.
He has to find where people are as good as Tina and Andi. Bina was confused, there was no picture of the household in her head. There is no shadow of marriage. Bina never wanted to get married. Bina fear. She was afraid her husband was not good. She was afraid that her in-laws were not as good as her mother and Tina. He's afraid.
Tina held Bina in her arms. Pecking the top of the girl's head in love. His hand rubbed Bina's back up and down nonstop. He loved the girl in his arms.
“Bina should be able to take care of themselves later, not everyone is good.”
“Bina should be able to reach the expectations of Bina, the ideals of Bina.”
Tina continued to tighten her embrace with Bina. Muffled the sobs of the girl's cry in her arms. He knows, Bina knows everything.
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