Tell a Story About Us
part 18's
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Bina is now sitting on one of the benches in the back garden of the school along with the young man who a moment ago said that he wanted to talk to her. The school was deserted, although there were still some students who were still wandering around the school because of eskul or other things, but certainly they would not reach the area that is now occupied by this young man.
Bina shifted her eyes, looking around if she could draw him a glance. Silent, from the start he sat in this place, the atmosphere was silent. None of them opened their voices, for some reason. Bina herself did not know what to say or what to say, while the young man who said he wanted to talk, now still did not make a sound. There was a bit of awkwardness that made Bina uncomfortable, however their last encounter ended with the departure of Irgi and his crying at that time.
“Bina.”
Oh finally, the silence disappeared instantly. Bina turned her head against Irgi, the young man also greeted her. His silence was indeed vanished instantly, but replaced by the awkward feeling that now dominates. Bina just silently did not answer, he was confused to answer what, it felt just answer the call he was confused. He turned his gaze looking down at his own shoes.
“Bina, you can tell people know you if you do not want this matchmaking continued?” Irgi said a long word in one breath.
Bina who heard that turned her head back, her attention was with Irgi's eyes which were also fixedly staring at her. Bina breathed her breath. This question again, he had already guessed how it ended up. Honestly, he was confused to answer the same question but the answer to his mind is now different. Not only did the young man continue to think about them, but Bina as well.
Bina flanged, after the silence created to answer Irgi's questions.
“Why?” Irgi, stoning at Bina.
“I can't sister... I'm confused.” Bina again lowered her head.
Irgi furrowed his forehead, he continued to stare at the girl who was now bowing her head beside him. “Why Build?” There is a frustrating tone, in the pronunciation of Irgi.
“Emang why kak?” Bina said looking back at the young man beside her, making them meet. Bina's sharp gaze and Irgi's gaze that looked frustrated, clashed.
Bina took a deep breath, preparing to make a sound. “Emang why? I think brother Irgi refused this matchmaking because of sister Pita, but yesterday brother boncegan with another woman. From the words of the brother who always prides Kak Pita, I think that his sister is as loving as Kak Pita, until she refuses matchmaking, I think, I guess brother is not easy to move in love because the same side of him Pita. But it didn't, did it? Brother broke up with sister Pita, continue now dating another woman. My brother said he wouldn't hurt anyone. Breaking up with sister Pita continues to deket and courtship with other women. Why not the same me, let our parents also mingle. I'm not ngarepin brother, but not a penny of it also dong end up breaking up directly into each other's women. If it was that easy, I was another woman too. From the meaning I forced to make a matchmaking refusal.” Bina spoke with emotion, her breath was cut off. Indeed, he still could not accept the attitude of Irgi who continued to force him to refuse matchmaking. Bina wants it too, but she can't.
Irgi clucked in annoyance. “You think it all wants me?” The young man began to raise his voice. “I also do not want the same woman.” Irgi pressed down on each word, staring at Bina very sharply.
“Terus why? Say aja kak Irgi want because the woman is beautiful.” Reply Bina cynically.
“BINA.” Snapped Irgi, his palm he clenched with all his might to restrain emotions.
But Bina's mind was wrong about this pamuda, this young man even easily changed partners, whether because of what Bina did not know. Not if the young man broke up he had to know Bina, not even dating a woman who knows who, as he said ‘does not want to hurt anyone.’ Wasn't it easier when he was with Bina. Or this young man doesn't want to ‘himself?’
“Why? Did Irgi move love? Why not the same me? Because I'm ugly? Doesn't fit brother type?” Bina says defiantly. The fear and anger of being snapped into one.
“Bina..” Irgi said, pressing he said.
“WHY?” Now Bina who back yelled at Irgi, her face reddened full of emotion. His eyes began to blur from tears. Jolted plus his mind struggling about the many questions about him, is he really not worthy of Irgi love? Not expected, but it feels like Bina is so low now. It also had to be not only Irgi.
“You do not need to know, you just never tell me alesan you accept this matchmaking, do not need to interfere, all also your country. I'm just asking you to cancel this match. That's aja.” Irgi spoke emotion, his tone he lowered not snapping but still high.
“I can't..” Bina said softly, now looking down to hide her eyes that almost pulled out a grain of water.
“Yaudah.” Irgi got up from his seat, draped his bag on the boat, walked about to leave Bina. But he stopped for a moment. “Sorry..” He said softly, when he began to hear Bina's sobbing, then continued his path.
Bina was still in her place, stunned by her cries. This was only the first time he had been yelled at by someone, perhaps he was indeed this crybaby. The taste in him was really mixed, for some reason. Bina also wanted to refuse their matchmaking, she also did not want to. But many things that make him can not refuse, especially his parents, the hope of his mother, let alone the father. He does not want to disappoint his father, he must make his father happy, realize his hopes and requests. It was enough that he destroyed the hopes of others, the ideals of others, not now. He also did not want to destroy Irgi's hope, but how?
Bina's shoulders trembled, her sobs never stopped, her tears could not stop. Keep crying, fighting with his mind full of problems, questions, things that hurt first, now reflected in his head. Bad possibilities also come to mind.
Today Bina is completely devastated. Unresolved his problems with Sila, now coupled with greater problems with Irgi. The heavy burden on his shoulders felt heavier he felt.
Bina wiped her tears, though in vain because it kept plunging down her cheeks. Leaning his back on the iron chair at the park this afternoon. Trying to regulate his breathing, which had been congested a while ago. Tired feel.
Before long Bina got up, carried her bag, walked slowly out of the school. The school field is still crowded because it is filled with children eskul, in contrast to the atmosphere of a quiet and quiet back garden, even though the sun has begun to go west preparing to sink.
Out of the gate, Bina walked slowly. At this hour there is never a public transport that will take him home, salain not the clock, this is also too late for them to work. Bina's phone has run out of power since her last lesson. So Bina had to walk on foot, to the boarding house. Exhausting, the boarding distance is not too far, but still if taken on foot, quite far, and of course need energy. While Bina himself, his energy seemed to be drained, other than because the school was also due to his quarrel with two humans.
“Dek Build.”
The voice managed to interrupt Bina, who was daydreaming about walking slowly on the side of the road. Bina turned to look at Revelation with her motor stopped, smiling cheerfully looking at Bina.