NOTHING PERFECT
I'm not Him

my life is now starting to live in a very foreign place.Mas Surya's house, along with his mother and sister Nabila.

I have to act as if nothing happened between me and Surya, but in reality my heart still hurts when I realize what is happening right now.

my mother-in-law is very good, as well as Nabila. they are very treat like their family.Unlike in most stories of married women, my mother-in-law is the best.

after cooking and tidying up the house, my mother and I sat shabbily in the backyard.

"Mom..why is the backyard so empty?" let me relax and start the conversation

"it used to be a backyard with a lot of plants, but you can't take care of it. Because your late father-in-law always took good care of it. Nabila just like mother does not like to grow crops, while Surya is busy working"

"can't I plant the flowers ? long ago really wanted to make a collection of flower plants, but there is no land"

" good anyway. mother agreed.so the backyard can look alive again "

"okedeh. I'll find some pretty flower seeds"

"....." my mother-in-law was excited to hear my idea, she was impatient to see how I remodeled the unkempt backyard.

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at nightfall, I went into the room and there was a mas Surya who was busy with his phone while smiling himself. Before getting into bed, I decorated and combed my hair to look neat.

"you're starting work tomorrow? " let me casually break the awkwardness between us

"yes, I'm only on a week off"

" you used to bring supplies ? if you want, I'll make it a mas.."

"can.. but is there anything ? I'm not good with you"

"don't mind the problems of both of us, I just want to feel how to be a wife.so you don't have to feel bad "

"oh yes, about sleep... "

" we sleep in one bed only mas. I'm afraid the same mother Nabila even suspect that they caught us, and. besides you can not possibly touch me " sahutku then went up to the bed and slept right beside Surya mas

"ohh.. alright." mas Surya was quite surprised to see my response was quite relaxed but spoke with a cold aura

all night I still could not sleep, and I also heard that Surya was still busy with messages on his phone. Sick and feeling very fragile my heart, he should be able to keep the feeling a little.. she should understand I'm still in the healing process of forgetting how I feel about her.

"why does it hurt so much.." my mind screamed because I was not the one who could make Surya happy.

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heart changed, I was done making food and breakfast for Surya mas. to cook I do not need to worry because the contents of the refrigerator is always full and the food supply is always full.

even Nabila in his room also like having his own minimarket, Nabila who likes to snack always staves food. if I want him to let me eat whatever is in his room.

"morning dear.." surya made my heart beat, the greeting felt so real that it made the holes in my heart explode. happy but very painful

"hmm morning." I replied clumsyly and tried not to look nervous.

"unchhh newlyweds so sweet really. "sindir Nabila who is ready to wear High School uniform.

"mayo if.. You have breakfast first. Which mother ? "pajak mas Surya to his only sister

"honey come on. breakfast first. wash the dishes later.."

"hmmm yes mas... "

like family in general, this breakfast is very sweet in the eyes of Nabila but in my eyes is very bitter.stone a few days but it feels millions of years I have to endure long lies like this.

being too fed up with this falsehood of my stomach acid rising, it felt very nauseous.

"ue..ue.." I went to the bathroom to vomit.

"honey why you ?" surya's chasing me

"mba... mba.. pregnant ? "asked Nabila innocently when I and her brother just married a few days

"yes it is not possible. bil." I said a little laugh and immediately drank the warm water that Surya gave me.

" mba.. just a stomachache this time.."

"ohh hehehe I think I'm pregnant"

"huhhh basic.. already back breakfast there, mas want anter mba to the room first"

"ready.pak boss..."

Nabila went back to breakfast, while mas Surya drove me to the room and gave me stomach acid medication.

"you want to go to the doctor ? I bring ya.. "

"engga need mas. I'm just nauseous at death.."

"yeah.but if it hurts my phone more yeah.."

"iya mas.udah there breakfast, Nabila also waiting for you would want to go to school"

"yeah.I say yes.. "

"...." I nodded and watched him leave the room and close the door.My tears spilled and could not believe the more the day became even more painful with my feelings at this time.

#ting!!! (incoming message from unknown number )

"congratulations on the marriage of the two of you, beware.mas Surya was mine"

he said in the message and knowing it I concluded he was Ryno, but because I didn't want to be complicated, I didn't rub it and tried to ignore it.

"i hope your marriage does not last long, because my Surya mas is one"

he said it made me anxious to return the message, but I held back and did not want to start a fight that would harm myself.

the more he gave me, the more my little heart began to be challenged to snatch Surya mas from him, even though I was not him at this time, but I believed god was omnipresent in turning the hearts of men back.

"she's my husband.I'm a legitimate woman after all, Surya. wait for me. I'll take you away from her "my mind is motivated not to drag on in my sadness. because I need to be stronger and stronger in order to defeat him.

seriated