NOTHING PERFECT
Nothing Perfect
My name is Andita, Today is the heart of my marriage. Which woman is not nervous as it approaches the seconds before the marriage contract.
all the preparations are ready, even I have now been prepared very beautiful. wear clothes there Sundanese but themed modern nuance.
now I am sitting next to Surya, the future husband who will be my faith forever.My happy feelings are mixed with my anxiety and worries that are not clear.
"Oh my God.. I am afraid..Why did this thought suddenly come?" my mind was staring at Surya mas whose face was flowery looking at the people around him.
"would every bride be given an over thinking exam like this?"
I said still wondering in my little heart while thinking about my meeting with Surya mas about 3 months ago, he said, until finally he proposed to me even this marriage that was in sight went very well like a film storyline without any minor conflicts.
but as smooth as this is, I am still worried about something that I still do not understand, because there is actually no perfect human being in this world even though in the eyes of the world he is very perfect.
"why dream? " his whisper woke me up from my long daydream
" ohh. engga.. "
"let's just focus, 'cause I'll be starting soon."
"Hmmm" I nodded in understanding and smiled again at the large number of guests who came to watch.
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the wedding ceremony went wisely and smoothly, now the party is still going on. My dream since long ago was to dance with my husband in a white dress in the style of American style.
we danced with Ed Sheeran Perfect. My husband was a man who was unexpected to his romance.he was so kind that I could never believe I could marry someone like him.
"thank you, baby, you made me rich princess today"
"hmmm" mas Arya nodded and just smiled sweetly at me.
"....."
But secretly I noticed his behavior after the event, his hands continued to tremble and Surya sometimes daydream like regretting something in his mind. Even he was a little stiff when talking to me.
because I don't want to think too much, I consider Surya mas just exhausted.in addition to the many invited guests who come.
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the first night we were in the hotel that had been prepared in the wedding package.Luxury room decorated with many petals of roses and candles aroma therapy.
"wahh mas. very good.. "
"....." I turned my head to see that Surya was still busy with his phone
"mas... What's wrong? any important business? "
"oh engga. you shower first yes. mas want to call the client first "
"hmmm fine.." annoyed anyway.but I had to excuse him for his work.
after the bath, mas Surya has not returned. I wonder why he even went on an important night like this. because I was too tired I fell asleep waiting for the phone call that did not end.
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sunlight makes me wake up from my sleep, I passed my first night with Surya mas just like that.
"are you awake? let's have breakfast?." take the tidy one
"jeez mas. I fell asleep last night waiting for you, I'm sorry mas.."
"just relax.we're both tired.."
"breakfast. Let's get ready.. "
"Hmmm.." I walked lazily in the bathroom, why is there nothing special on the first night of the two of us. whereas the moment in the hotel was only one day left.
"Ndit..there's something I want to talk about later after breakfast "
"hmm. I'll be ready soon mas.." impatient with what Surya wanted to talk about, I rushed to take a shower and prepared to beautify myself
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breakfast this morning is in the hotel rooftop with the feel of the view of the mountains.The morning air makes the mind and atmosphere more calm.
"it's good for breakfast"
"you like? "
"hmm. But baby we're only here for 2 days"
"ndit.. "
"why.. ? you have business ?"
"....." mas Surya was nervous enough to say it
"it's not about work.."
"...." waiting for him to talk made me even more curious because the look on my husband's face began to worry
"this I say because I don't want you to know it too late ndit.. "
"what the fuck the mas.. rich people abis make misadventure.." I still do not understand what will mas Surya say.
"sorry because I don't love you, sorry that I brought you to life in this marriage"
"?????" I was confused and didn't understand why he married me if he didn't love me
"i don't want any lies in our marriage, and honestly I'm getting married just to my social status. I'm just covering up that I have someone else I love so much.."
"what the hell is mas ?!! so you mean ? I am just a tool ? I don't understand.you are so evil benefit me "
"sorry I Ndit. I do this because I don't want my family to know that I'm not normal. You can cheat, and pocket money and shopping will always be taken care of for you.. obviously I want you to just be my site in my social status"
"snick you mas. You are the same as tricking me into this marriage, it is appropriate from the beginning I was confused why a man like Surya would marry me... "
"excuse me Ndit.but from the beginning I thought you wouldn't be demanding much if you married a man like me. I'm sorry for cheating you ndit "
"who is he ? why are you so scared of your family ? "
"Ryno.he was my college friend back in America.we both loved each other, but she was just like I didn't want her family to know about our forbidden relationship"
"astaga.." My tears spilled right then and there, my love life never went smoothly. once there was a perfect man who wanted to marry me instead he was the biggest trap that made me feel even more humble.
"ndit.sorry to me. But baby want to be honest than you have to wonder why I didn't fuck you or give you more love ndit.."
" i don't know mas.. this is all too sudden, sorry but I want to myself, you should meet your lover and contemplate all your mistakes "I go not strong if you continue to see it, you should meet your lover and contemplate all your mistakes, my heart is angry how it will be.
if I am divorced and separated, my family will be ashamed of the disgrace of my marriage, but if I continue to meet and continue to be his wife how can I survive the wounds he gives ?
seriate....